My heart… My feelings… What could they be hiding?
Cold, frozen winds blew my joy away… And now locked in a misery. What could my expression represent? Did my personality just resembled my zanpakutou?
Reminds me of my stone cold face whenever I'm in my haori, organizing my squad. It made me feel that reaching for eternal happiness is impossible at all costs. Maybe fate decided me to be in this way… Just as a cool chill to be ignored by others. Or was it just me who's thinking like that? I could feel that storms of winter guided me along the thick snow-covered path as I tried to climb up the peak of my hope. But that peak seems like it never existed… Cause the more I move on, the further I am from it.
Is there at least… A warm feeling to melt my frozen heart?
Or maybe even someone who could end this cold and useless life of mine?
I foresee that my future is never to be good; as no matter how I acted through the plays in my life, it wouldn't cheer me up. Then what am I destined to be? I mean, every soul was not born to be worthless, weren't they? Then something had to be meant for me… At least one thing…
If I swing my zanpakutou through the air... Hyourinmaru would've appeared as my dragon; my true feelings. That ice dragon was attacking my foe... and not so long after, it would break. Hyourinmaru was my effort, and my foe was my fate. That broken ice was my hope till now...
Now you could see my battle against fate, mentally or even physically. The true frozen heart till now which you thought was broken... was not even cracked once. If you said that hope flew around, then tell me how I could do more than survive in this life i walked for thousands of years. I didn't want to live and survive... I want to live and change.
I got a friend and a grandma; yes, I did felt a small speck of happiness there. But I felt incomplete… My eternal joy was missing. Then there's a white dove in winter out of the blue. That dove was no ordinary; it was much whiter than even the snow… It was as if it's my light. Then this was the sign of hope, right?
But soon, that dove changed… It changed into someone I knew who would change my life.