first off, ya boi does not support nonconsensual sex, even if i wrote like 2 stories in the past about it. maybe three idk my memory is the worst. i am not for it, i don't support it whatsoever, and what those monsters do isn't something to just take with a grain of salt. secondly, uh today is kenshin's birthday in 'merica [ feb. 18 ] so i thought of doing this one-shot to honor our man - maybe my man bc i don't know anyone else who knows this game. also kenshin is just a yandere-type man, he is not actually like this in the game okay? lastly, if you are reading this and are wondering "where tf is the next chapter of serendipity" i apologize because i have not been in much of a writing mood lately and gosh am i back and replenished for about a few weeks. anyways, i do hope you enjoy this one-shot "à la vie, à la mort" and serendipity when i go back to it!

ps: in the game, you name your character so i'm using my character's name from in game.

pps: this may be posted a day after his actual birthday idk.

song(s) to go with this story: animal by chase holfelder and nothing can hurt me by mandopony

'à la vie, à la mort, à folie : i will love you in life, in death, madly'

Alyx looked up at the sky, the rain falling gently on her face and she sneezed, oddly enough, when it did happen. Thinking that it would be best to hurry on her way before things got worse, the raven-haired fashion student rushed to the nearby bus stop, stretching her arms overhead as she sat down and made an unmodest noise - which is common for her given the fact that modesty is nowhere to be found in her, maybe the smallest hint but not a lot.

"Geez I miss the modern-day weather," she grunted, looking at the people who dared to walk around Cincinnati at a time like this. Thinking back on her time in the Sengoku period, she only really missed the people. They were so much kinder than your average day person walking down the streets. Nah, you wouldn't be able to such genuine smiles from these people like she did in the warring times. Sighing, Alyx continued to be reminiscent of those times, laughing at how protective Hideyoshi was, how bossy yet caring Nobunaga was, the snake that was Mitsuhide, so on and so forth. Those 6 guys could always manage to put a smile on her face, even if some of the things they did to put one on were very...concerning.

"I wonder if they're doing alright?" She laughed. "Oh, who am I kidding? Those guys..." The young fashion designer paused, stopping the sentence there. I wish they were here...especially Hideyoshi. I could use some of his big brother-ness right about now. Sighing yet again, Alyx stood and started to walk to the bus that pulled up into her, promptly bumping into the young man in front of her. And this would be the moment where Hideyoshi scolds me for not paying attention, Alyx thought to herself as she quickly apologized with a sparingly glance to the man before fixing the bag on her back and hopping on the bus before it rushed off, leaving the blond male to his lonesome as he grinned slightly.

"Well...that wasn't hard now was it?"

❀ ... ❀

"Alyx...Alyx..."

'Who in the hell is calling my name?' I thought, my eyes slowly fluttered open before I realized the person in front of me not only looked worried but extremely familiar. "Huh...Hide...yoshi?"

"Alyx! Wake up for god's sake!" Hideyoshi yelled, having had enough and began to pick me up until I screamed at him. "I'm up I'm up! Geez, no reason for you to be so pushy with a girl trying to sleep!"

"I've been calling your name from the door for a good 30 minutes. That's when I decided to come over and call your name since I was closer now, but you still didn't wake up. What time did you go to sleep? You know I told you to-"

"Okay mom! No need to yell at me still, I'm very feisty and an angry kitten when I wake up," I noted, rubbing my eyes and realizing I fell asleep at my desk, my drawings lying on the floor to my left, each paper rolled up neatly with pins sticking out at odd ends. 'Must have put some fabric samples in some of them...don't remember doing that but that's what happens when you have the worst memory known to man,' I thought to myself with a low chuckle, earning a gentle slap to the head from my moth-I mean Hideyoshi.

"Geez, I don't know who's worse: you or Mitsunari?"

"Mitsunari undoubtedly," I replied, earning another playful slap to the head that was accompanied by a chuckle from Nobunaga Oda's righthand man. It was nice to know that he and the other warlords could laugh in such a way that was such a huge contrasting emotion to what they showed on the battlefield. And I should know that emotion of theirs all too well because, after all, I did experience it. Thinking back to it, the whole battle with the Uesugi-Takeda Forces ended in a way even the guys didn't expect it to end. Since both sides figured out we were being used by a monk named Kennyo, both sides decided to call things off between them for now, build up a truce and fight back against Kennyo. Things were successful and we were able to win the fight, but things still seemed on edge. I could even see the look in Hideyoshi's beautiful emerald eyes now as he looked at the sketchbook on the desk.

"I can't wait to see these designs come to life," he commented, flipping through the pages constantly before landing on one that sparked his interest greatly. It was a beautiful kimono dress that had a slight off the shoulder touch to it. The kimono featured a frilled outer layer to the bottom that opened to show the pop of floral that was there. "Oh, I want to see this more than any of the others. Look at that obi. Everything goes together so smoothly you'd think they were made to be together!" Hideyoshi said excitedly, smiling and turning so I could see his soft smile. "I'm sure you would've made a perfect fashion designer in your time Alyx."

❀ ... ❀

Alyx woke up from her sleep with a yawn, shaking her head at the dream she had. "Of all dreams to have it, of course, had to be a memory of the moment Hideyoshi praised me over a simple Winter design and urged me to make it so he could see it in person," the fashion designer said as she plopped back against the soft, comforting feeling that was her pillows. Looking to her right, she looked at the kimono dress that hung neatly on a mannequin, the lace overlay and the gentle sleeves drifted softly in the wind as if they were dancing with the wind that slipped in from the cracked window of her apartment. Which, should she say, was nippy and made her burrow in her soft and warm pillows even more so before deciding it would be best to get up now before she really didn't get up at all.

Stepping out of her bed and her jammies, the young adult cleaned herself off and readied herself for the new day. "At least I actually have something to look forward to," the light-skinned fashion designer said aloud while brushing her teeth after a quick shower. "I get to show off some designs to my fellow coworkers, get some lunch with a few friends from work, get to party at a club tonight against my better judgment, and drink. Gosh, the last two are a huge contrast to my 'I rather stay the hell inside and sleep all day' versus 'Let's go party and get hella wasted!' attitude." Alyx chuckled and dried her bob-styled hair, put on a graphic tee with some baby blue jeans, oversized pink cardigan, and some all white flatforms grabbed her bag with her apartment and car keys before walking out.

The young designer stepped out and was met with the cold, though it wasn't as cold as some people made it out to be wearing their puffer jackets like it was 14 degrees outside. "Y'all have some issues. It's only like 56 degrees get yourselves straight." The smart-mouthed adult mouthed off as she stepped into her car, putting her bag safely in the passenger seat beside her before buckling up and driving off to her workplace, of course not stopping on the way for some coffee and some breakfast.

❀ after the work day ❀

Alyx, Dillon, Zayn, Xael, Devyn, and Maze all looked around the very stuck up and high-end club they walked into. "Shit I wasn't expecting things to be all boujee and shit," Xael commented, going to sit down at one of the tables, the rest of the girls following after the ringleader - as she seemed to like being called. In her own thoughts, Alyx thought quietly to herself how Xael reminded her heavily of Nobunaga but as a chick obviously. Like this air around Xael was very Nobunaga in a sense. If the two ever met, god bless the land because lord knows their egos would be so high and mighty trying to fight the other. Sighing, and realizing everyone had their eyes on her since she was the only one standing, Alyx quickly sat down, rubbing the back of her neck.

"You've been in your thoughts a lot lately Alyx," Dillon asked, taking on the role of Hideyoshi with being the mom of the group. "Are you okay? Do you want to go home?" The ravenette shook her head and leaned back against the plush backing of the couch, sighing in utter comfort at the softness. "Oh no, I'm fine." The other 5 girls chuckled and each girl began talking about their daily lives and Xael, of course, having to be a tad bit dramatic with hers.

"See kiddies? This is why I say 'Fuck men and get drunk as fuck' okay?"

"You're not a good role model Xael," Devyn commented, sipping on her wine with an off-cast glance towards said female. "Besides that, I have never heard you say that. Actually, you said-"

"Okay, no need to contradict me Dev, I get it." The blue-haired female shrugged and chuckled soon after because Xael pouted and hit her arm playfully. Both females argued and continued to argue until a song played - specifically Cherry Bomb by NCT 127 - that made everyone but Alyx stand up to their feet. "Come and dance girly! You know you wanna~" Zayn said, a light chuckle following after her statement, signifying that she was indeed drunk after a few drinks. They had been here for a while - a few hours to be exact - and had plenty of drinks and food to be able to really have some fun. While Zayn and Dillion still stood there with Alyx, the party animals - Xael, Maze, and surprisingly Devyn - were already on the floor dancing with those who actually knew the dance to the song.

"You know...I rather not. At least not right now. Wait until I have a few more drinks and you'll see this chocolate bar on the dance floor." All three girls chuckled at the statement before the other two walked off, leaving Alyx to her lonesome. Laughing, the ravenette picked up a piece of meat and began eating it, looking at her friends as they danced to Bad Romance by Lady Gaga, Xael surprisingly was an amazing dancer and was really, really drunk. Thankfully she could see Maze recording this all from where she stood, the darker skinned female sending Alyx the video with a text that followed reading 'She is going to hate me but her ass shouldn't have gotten drunk and decided to dance to Lady Gaga while drunk.'

Before Alyx could even laugh and reply back, a sudden chill ran down her spine. And it wasn't an "Oh my geez that's funny" chill, it was an "Oh shit, I'm scared" chill. Looking up from her phone, Alyz froze as she saw a familiar blond haircut sit in the booth next to the one where the fashion designer and her friends had been sitting. And not only was that terrible enough, the fact that the booths were high enough for someone short, like Alyx, to not see over, the guy across from her could very well see over the booths. Speaking of which, as if the blond-haired devil realized he could do so, his mismatched eyes glanced over the booths and deep chocolate eyes met with emerald and cerulean ones, Alyx gulping and quickly looking down. Her phone was blown up with videos and pictures of the girls being wild and dancing to whatever song was playing, but because she was so into her thoughts, so in her own world with the situation at hand to worry about the music playing around her, the young adult failed to realize that he had moved and was now sitting in front of her.

"I finally get to see you again, and you treat me like such, Alyx," Kenshin Uesugi, one of the guys she wished she could forget about from the Sengoku Period, said with high authority in his words. Even the way he said her name sent chills down her spine, and they didn't stop even as she continued to ignore him and he continued to speak. "Ignoring me won't help either. You'll only further piss me off. But if I were one of those Oda Forces men, I do believe you'd be sparking up conversation left and right. However, since I'm not, you're not speaking to me-"

"It's...It's not that. I just don't feel comfortable around you...to be exact," Alyx said barely above a whisper, so Kenshin leaned in closer to hear her better. "Come again?" The fashion designer, her anxiety rising to the roof, shook her head frantically and stood up abruptly. "I-I have to go to the bathroom! Yes, the bathroom!" Alyx shouted, causing Kenshin to blink before he stood as well, moving out of the booth and moved to her side, watching as she quickly backed away.

"I know very well you don't have to go to the bathroom, you do that as if I don't know any better. You're doing that to get away from me. You can't run Alyx. If you thought you could leave to be in your original time again and forget all about me, you were so very wrong in that thought."

"Kenshin leave me alone...I have a taser on me and I know very damn well how to use it," the female said, and though she was scared out of her damn mind, that didn't stop her from letting the God of War know that she had some sort of self-defense on her. Kenshin, however, was not phased by that comment and stalked closer to her, quickly grabbing her wrist harshly and pulled her into him. While one hand held a tight grasp on her tiny wrist, the other arm wrapped itself around her waist as he sat down with Alyx in his lap. *tw: rape up ahead* The Japanese male proceeded to kiss and nip at her neck harshly despite the whines that escaped past her tightly closed lips. "Stop defying me Alyx...it would be much easier for you to be more accepting of the situation you're in," Kenshin huffed, reaching his hand down further and rubbed Alyx gently through her pants, hearing those soft whimpers get louder despite her lips being sealed shut almost. "You'll make those beautiful lips of yours bleed if you don't stop keeping them closed like that. Here, let me help." The Sengoku warlord moved his hand up and pried her lips open, seeing that they were indeed bleeding and licked the blood from the wounds then began kissing her even as she bit his tongue and slapped him across the face. None of it stopped him, not a single thing she did stopped him. And as she reached for her bag with the taser in it, Kenshin quickly turned her and pulled back, his mismatched eyes that were once beautiful and lonely to her when they first met were now filled with an undying passion, this sense of power and want, over her.

"Maybe you're uncomfortable with the sudden location of things, after all, I would rather make you mine behind closed doors, not out in the open like this." Alyx shook her head in protest and, before she could even speak, Devyn walked up with Xael who was the first to point out Kenshin.

"GG Alyx. While everyone else was on the dance floor tearing shit up, you over here getting you some. You go girl."

"A-Ah...it's not like that...I-"

"No need to try and conceal it. You two lovebirds go on," Xael said, hugging Devyn for support who was silent all the while. Alyx pulled away quickly and grabbed her bag, pulled her wallet out and placed some money on the table before apologizing to the two girls.

"I'm sorry, I have to get home. I don't feel well right now," she mumbled quickly before leaving the club, Kenshin standing up and following behind her. Both girls looked at their friend before Xael plopped down, rubbing her temple. "The hell was her problem? Why did she seem like she was in such a rush?" Little did she know she'd regret not actually asking Alyx while she was there.

Meanwhile outside, Alyx fumbled with her keys as she rushed over to her car, managing to get the driver's door open before jumping at the looming feeling of fear dancing on her back. Not even daring to turn back, the young adult quickly got in and slammed the door, locking all doors as quickly as humanly possible before he even thought of hopping in. In the safe quarters of her car, Alyx broke down and hugged her legs close to her chest, crying into them while Kenshin knocked at her window once, twice, and finally for a third before stopping altogether. Looking up eventually, Alyx realized he had stopped and instead leaned against the car with his back to the door. The fashion designer gulped and wiped her face before starting the car, which seemed to startle him a tad bit. The Sengoku warlord turned around and knocked on the window.

"Open up Alyx," he said, watching with keen eyes as the young woman proceeded to shake her head and put the car in reverse, slowly backing out. As tired as he was from her attempts at trying to run away from him, he wasn't letting her go again. She was so close, she was almost his, and there was no way in hell he was going to let her leave his sight. Deciding enough was enough, Kenshin yanked the door handle, causing Alyx to freeze and stop the car from moving. He did it again, and her response was to move away from the door. "Open up, or I'll break myself in. I don't want to have you pay for any added expenses on your car, so let's make this easier for you now."

She didn't want to unlock the doors but knowing that Kenshin was going to eventually break his way through the window and get in scared Alyx more than the thought of him being in the car with her, rubbing and touching and kissing her the way he did in the club not too long ago. Shaking in fear, she unlocked the doors, watching as a smile of immense pleasure stretched across his face and he walked to the other side, climbing into the car with grace. Kenshin stared at her the whole ride, making Alyx even more uncomfortable with him being in a closed space with her.

"Hideyoshi, I really need you right now. I really, really do."

❀ ... ❀

When she unlocked the door to her apartment, and they were both inside her home with their shoes off and outwear on the hanger beside the door, it was as if a switch had turned on inside of Kenshin and he was over her. His hands roamed every nook and cranny it could roam, grabbing harshly at her bum and what little cleavage she had - considering the fact she was actually a size C, Alyx still felt like she had nothing. And despite the fact she felt powerless in the heat of the moment, Alyx still punched and kicked him to get him off.

However, as if Hell itself had frozen over, Alyx stopped all movement when she felt the tip of a knife poking gently at her side, said blade dragged across her skin and caused her to whimper loudly as a sick feeling rose in the pit of her stomach. "K-Kenshin...back off..." her soft voice begged, tears forming in the corners of her eyes as she felt her lithe frame be picked up by Kenshin and thrown onto her bed. She knew she would have to apologize to her neighbors for the noise, that is, if she even made it out of this alive knowing Kenshin. He was possessive, and when she got close to him, she was able to see that. Not only that, but he kidnapped her and tortured her mentally with his twisted words, and soon enough brought knives and swords into his torture. He dragged those blades against her skin, watching as the blades broke the delicate skin and cause blood to surface. Kenshin was sick in more ways than one mentally, so how was it he hadn't been beaten to near death yet?

"You're quiet Alyx," he said in a husky voice, reaching down with the knife to poke an area off-limits to anyone but the young woman's future lover. "If you're thinking about defying me again, you might as well say your prayers while you're at it." Breaking out of her train of thought and looking at Kenshin with eyes that begged him to stop, Alyx watched as he continued to have his way with her. He lowered his head between her legs, kissing her gently through her jeans and watched as she shivered and pushed away, sitting up completely and shook her head wildly.

"No, no, no, no. Stop please, I don't want this. Please, someone, help me. Hideyoshi, Masamune, Nobunaga, please-"

Alyx gasped for air and cried out in agony at how fast Kenshin moved, at how fast he had reacted to her calling out her friends names, and how rough he was being. The blond male ripped off her shirt, quickly tore away her jeans and took off those pesky undergarments to reveal the prize that was hidden away from his eyes. "You look even more precious without those unwanted articles of clothing on, too bad that it's all about to be soiled and tainted." Crying, Alyx covered her eyes and silently begged from someone to knock on the door, someone to ask if everything was alright so she could scream and beg for help, but that would only piss him off more so. And if he was going to rape her as is, she didn't want to know what else he would do if she upset him further.

Wasting no more time, the God of War rubbed her gently with a lone digit, adding more further down the line before he had used his tongue as - what he thought to be - a source of pleasure for her. But instead, she continued to cry and whimper, silently begging and wanting help that she wouldn't get. "If you stop your fight now Alyx, and realize that there is no use in fighting or disobeying me anymore, then all this will go over much more quickly."

The light-skinned female looked at him for a moment before looking away quickly, covering her eyes once again. "Stop...stop what you're doing then I won't have to fight." Kenshin chuckled darkly and leaned in close, breathing in the scent of her perfume that lingered on her skin, rubbing her sides gently as he proceeded to take his pants off. "You're funny Alyx, thinking that I would stop in my efforts of making you mine. I am the only one who loves you, and I will be the only one that loves you for the rest of eternity," Kenshin spoke softly, though the fashion designer could hear the malice and ill-intent in his voice. If she could cry again, she would, but her tears dried up and she had no more energy to fight him. The God of War smirked and wasted no time in rushing in, hearing the sharp intake of breath come from the lithe frame underneath him.

"K-K-Kenshin..." Alyx whispered, nothing but pain surged through her veins as she tried to pull away, but between the sheer pain she felt and those mismatched eyes that glared at her, there was no way she would be able to plead for him to at least be gentle. It was as if an animal had awakened inside of him, and he lost every human instinct he did have. He moved roughly and irrationally, ignoring the cries of the young woman underneath him. Kenshin kissed, nipped, and moved about harshly, pleasing himself more so than her. The blond whispered things in French as he continued to make love to her under his terms, grunting and moaning as he bit down on her skin, biting to the point where he broke her skin. Doing something gentle, Kenshin licked at the wound and sucked on it gently, moving to kiss other spots on her neck.

"À la vie, à la mort, à folie," Kenshin moaned, grinding and moving a few more times before he reached his climax, Alyx unwillingly followed behind him. Pulling out, the Sengoku warlord looked down and noticed the blood mixed with their bodily fluids seeping out of the young woman. "May I conclude that I was your first, Alyx?" He got no response, looking up to see that she was rocking between being awake and falling asleep. "Was I that good to have made you fall asleep?" Kenshin questioned with a sick chuckle, chocolate eyes glaring at him softly before she winced loudly, trying to lay on her side to fall asleep.

"I don't...have to answer either of those..." Alyx said in a low tone, pulling the cover over her head to block out any sight of him. But that didn't stop him from turning her to face him and pulling her body close, ignoring the pained cries from her small frame.

"You don't have to, ma chérie," Kenshin whispered, yawning a bit. "I already know your answers. So rest now, I'll see you in the morning for a second round." Not having any more strength and energy to talk, to argue, or to even deal with him, Alyx closed her eyes and let sleep take over, dreaming of a time before this, before she lost her chastity and before she even met the devil himself:

Kenshin Uesugi.

fin

and that's all folks! i sat up until i went to sleep at like 2 am typing this story. i typed 4000+ words, not including this end note. to anyone who was uncomfortable reading this, you had three warnings and i am not sorry that you decided to ignore those three warnings. so that sounds like a personal problem before you come my way in the comments section of anywhere i post this. speaking of which, i am posting this on three sites: quotev, wattpad and fanfiction. if you read this anywhere another than those three sites, please let me know asap. i'm not that big of a writer on those sites, but it is easy for someone to still copy my works word for word and post them elsewhere. thank you guys for reading this one-shot and i hope you all liked it!

- this is your friendly neighborhood gucci gay, signing off