"I've always thought it was best to die in place of someone I loved." I thought, "I don't want to make others die for me, that's my job."
I walked through the hallways of school, looking at all the new people, trying not to think of my mom being killed, I wanted to die for her, not her for me, a memory I have nightmares about every single night, I wake up sweaty and in tears, I cannot take no more pain from the loss of my mother, I may still have my dad and step- dad, but I was so close to my mom, she knows everything….Except for…I love her more than life its self…
Our last words to each other ran through my mind…
"MOM! NO!!! Don't go! I love you!! Mom," I screamed through my tears, "DON'T LEAVE ME! NOT NOW, NOT EVER! I NEED YOU MORE THAN LIFE ITS SELF!," I cried, "DON'T KILL HER, KILL ME!! PLEASE!!"
"It's to late, darlin', just remember, I love you til death do us part, and afterwards, when I'm waiting for you with my hand held out to hold, by the gates of Heaven, St. Pete will not take me in there without you," She rubbed my hand softly.
"I Love you, mom! Don't go!" I cried even harder.
"I will always be right there," She said pointing to my heart, she was in pain, and the more she hurt, the more I died inside, "I love you, Dawn, don't forget, ok?" and with that, she closed her eyes forever.
I walked through the hallways thinking about it, I started crying. "I cant embarrass myself on my first day," I thought as I walked to the bathroom.
I was not paying any attention to where I was headed, I stared at my feet holding onto my hair with my hand in a ball, that's when I noticed, I wasn't on my feet anymore, but on my butt, "Woah! My bad! I'm so sorry!" This gorgeous boy said, " I don't think I've seen you around before? What is your name?"
"My name is Dawn," I said in my normal low voice, it sounded like Luna love good's on Harry Potter, everyone loved the way my voice was. I put my hand out there for him to shake.
He took my hand, "Nice to meet you, Dawn, I'm Dayton," He smiled. He had a perfect smile, he could totally be a model, "Where you crying, Dawn?"
"Uh, me? No!" I lied wiping my tears.
"You liar! What's wrong, Dawn?"
"Why do you keep saying my name like that?" I asked confused, no one has ever done that before.
"'Cause I like your name, that's my moms name," He said with one eye brow raised
"I have your moms name?" I asked confused
" No, not really, but don't ignore my question, Dawn! What is wrong?" He said looking concerned.
"My mother," I started to cry again
He wrapped me in his warm embrace, his body was extremely cold, and hard, and I didn't know this guy, but I love this hug. It didn't feel awkward at all, like it was ment to be, or something…
I shook my head, "Stop thinking crazy things, you don't know this boy, for all you know he could be a rapist or animal or something," I thought.
"Do you not wanna talk about it, Dawn?" He asked
"She was murdered, She was protecting me, but I would have rather died, I didn't want her to go, I wanted her to be there, be there for my father, be there for her friends, to not leave, BE THERE FOR ME!" I cried harder
He embraced me even tighter putting his hands on my hair and playing with my curls. "it's gonna be ok, Dawn! I am here for you, Forever and always, no matter if you tell me to leave you alone, I'm always there, in your heart," He said pointing to my heart, I cried harder, that's what my mom told me
"Don't make a promise you cant keep, Dayton," I cried, " You will go, just like everyone else in my life, You will not be there, your not immortal! And neither am I," I shouted