This is simply a intro so-to-speak. Well, more of a sneak peek. I've mainly done this to see what everyone thinks and if they think I should post the actual story or not bother. I do forewarn you now, this isn't a Jasper/Alice paring story! It will have parts where he goes back into his memories of where they were a couple, but it isn't the main paring involved! There many not even be a paring, that still hasn't been worked out exactly. This story is simply based around my idea of what it might have been like for Jasper if he was to ever lose Alice.
Now, onto the sneak peek.
Every time Jasper thought of Alice it was always faded at the edges. It was as if he was forgetting her, but the image of her eyes were always so clear. Everything else was like a faded old photograph. Jasper wasn't sure what to make of it. The rest of his adopted family had tried to help him with the pain and grief but no one understood how he truly felt. Edward was the only one that slightly understood how he felt but then there was a difference in how they felt. The difference was that Edward got Bella back, whereas he couldn't get Alice back.
Everywhere he went he always saw Alice. Some days it was just faintly, as if she wasn't really there and other days it was as if were seeing Alice for the first time as a new born vampire. Days when he saw her faintly the pain was as close to death as he'd ever been. He'd always wished he was dead because then there was a chance that he could be with Alive again. He couldn't though, because Alice had made him promise that he'd live, even if she didn't. Even though he didn't want to live, he'd keep his promise. Though, on the days that he saw Alice always as if she was really there, he could almost handle being alive. Almost.