My Dearest Watson

by NerdBirdWonder

He had meant to give the letter to Watson before Moran had came into contact with him at the wedding. He was, of course, the best man, after all. It would have been unforgivable if he had not. But knowing Holmes, sentiment was not in his spoken vocabulary.

My dearest Watson:

The countless and repeated times I had picked up this pen only to drop it again would only give me the stronger desire to leave this page blank and would only resolve in leaving you in innocent ignorance of the foolishness of your friend, and I cannot allow that. How many excuses have I used to explain the reason being for my eccentric antics, only to have finally run out of them, at this, the end game; The final problem.

Let me assure you that my intentions for such actions were at the good of heart, and thus I had prescribed my fate to a path of Hell, because of my own foolishness. Can you believe this, my dear Watson? My only ambition was to protect you, Mary, and your interests only to resolve to this; a fish caught on a hook. As grave as it may seem; I would like for you to understand that I do, in fact, accept Mary as your new companion, despite my quells that I had displayed. I always have, however, I was too stubborn to admit myself for it was my own selfishness. I know that she will take good care of you, as you had taken good care of me all these years.

I will not ask for your forgiveness, nor do I believe that I deserve such a thing, however, I will apologize nonetheless for I am alive. Not for much longer, though, as I fear that Moriarty's Network I sought to keep me away from you and Mary seem to be drawing closer of eliminating the very existence of Sherlock Holmes altogether, and I assure you, I would happily give my life to insure of your safety.

I will not bore you with the deception of my fall at Reichenbach Falls, for it was sheer dumb luck that I had come in possession of my brother's personal supply of oxygen. Had that not had happened, I, in all honesty, thought that I was to die by taking down Moriarty with me, and to free you of your burdens and intimidation that I had unintentionally brought unto your shoulders.

I had instructed my brother -whom, yes was my confident at the time- to insure yours and Mary's safety if and if I fall. I am unable to return to London, yet, no matter how desperately I wish I could. However, please know this Watson, that your happiness is more important than my own . And in trying to obtain that for you without your knowledge, I have emotionally compromised you and your spirit, and I will never be able to forgive myself and face you, for you are the most loyal, bravest, and trustworthy man whom I am proud to say is my best friend, and I have no doubt that you would say the same for me.

With that being said, I only wish for one favour in return: please, I beg of you, do not look for me.

Peace be with you, my dearest Watson. You will always be in my heart and prayers, and I am looking forward to seeing you grow with a family of your own when and if I return.

Yours Sincerely,

Sherlock Holmes