So, here I am. Torn between two people, two worlds, two mortal enemies. To be honest, I knew this day would come when I had to choose between them. Should I let go of the past that has been haunting me and embrace the future or go back to the way it was.
Edward hurt me so much when he left me. He tore my heart out, put it in a blender and pressed frappe. He said he didn't love me, he said he didn't want to be with me.
Jacob gave me a half of his heart. He has helped me to pull myself together.
"Bella, you know I'm sorry. I had to leave. By being with you I kept putting you in danger. I'm sorry for that." Edward was standing on my right. He was more beautiful than I could remember. His golden hair shone in the light coming from the window.
"Bella, he left you. If he did it once he can do it again." Jacob argued. His dark eyes were bottomless.
I could feel tears in my eyes. They were making this so hard.
"Keep out of this DOG!" Edward nearly screamed at Jacob. I had never seen him so angry.
"When you left her, do you know how much you hurt her? Do you know how hard it is to not say almost anything, in case it might have something to do with YOU!" Jacob roared. "After you and you little family left Bella wouldn't eat, wouldn't drink, wouldn't do anything. She was completely empty inside. And even now, months after you left, she doesn't smile very often." Jacob to a deep breath and turned towards me. "I don't mean the fake smile Bella. You keep trying to pretend that you are fine, but you are not."
Edward was about to say something, but Jacob interrupted. "You had fun on your holiday then? Have you come back to take what's yours? It's too late." Jacob smiled.
"Bella?" Edward looked at me, confused. Did he really think I would love him after what he did to me? Jacob was right. It was too late.
I didn't answer Edward. I looked at Jacob. My prince in shinning armor. The one who had saved me from the dragon.
I looked back at Edward and shook my head, just the tiniest bit. He understood. He whispered something to Jacob and disappeared.
What had I just done? Edward? The person I had been waiting for. I just told him to go away. He was the one that had my heart, but it has been so long that my own heart doesn't recognize me anymore.
I couldn't stop thinking. All the sadness that I had been keeping locked away, just burst out. Tears wouldn't stop. They kept streaming down my cheeks.
Jacob wrapped his strong warm arms around me and held me close. There was a little part of me that wanted a different pair of arms, but it wasn't enough to make me change my mind.
Jacob was the one for me now. My own personal sun.
We stood like that for hours, or at least it felt like hours. I wanted to stay like this forever, locked in Jacobs's bone-crushing hug.
Something in the back of my mind was telling me that this wasn't over. Edward will be back.