I don't own them , I'm just borrowing them. For the untenth time here is my take on the letter.
Inspiration came upon her like a bolt of lightning. She began to write the words that would change her , change them forever.
In some ways you're like a brother and everything would be perfect except for me hurting you
She took a deep breath . She could do this . It had to be done. He was there and she was here . Kat would make him forget her eventually , so why not give them push. No that wasn't right . Kat wasn't the reason this was happening , this was happening because she was tired of feeling lonely without really being alone.
How do you ask is that possible? Simple she knew what she had in Angel Grove ,but she also knew what she didn't have here in Florida that made the pain unbearable. She was the happy cheerful one of the group, she had to make sure they didn't worry about her. But she was the one who was having nightmares that started out as dreams and ended up with her crying when she woke.
When you've had all the love and support from friends , family, and a great boyfriend, not having them all of a sudden was horrible. No one was there to here your problems no one was there to hold your hand , no one was there to know when you were lying about everything being alright.
She heard it in their voices and actions when the calls became less frequent , when she couldn't reach them when she heard them tell her how great her replacement was , when her boyfriend gave no sign that he actually missed her .
Ya she was alone . This letter would make it easier for him, them, and her to move on without guilt. She was tired of feeling like a burden like she was a holding them back.
After three months of feeling guilty for feeling these emotions , it wasn't until she saw the video of them in the park that she finally realised her feelings weren't unfounded. her friends were moving on without her and her boyfriend ,her boyfriend wanted to move on but she saw how he held back because she was his anchor she saw that he wasn't flying as he was meant to .
She didn't want to be selfish , even though she knew that's how she felt. she knew they would move on with their lives but she hated she wasn't apart of it anymore.
Tommy , Tommy was what finally made her realize that she was a burden . She had called him on a t Tuesday around 6 pm when she knew he would be home , his mom had told her he had just left to Kats house to help her with an assignment. He returned her call saying he was exhausted and would call her the following day . No I miss you No I love you nothing. The call lasted less than 30 seconds. She should have been grateful he remembered her at all,and she was. Until the next day he didn't call . He didn't call but Aisha did . She was the one light in her darkness these days . She never made her feel alone or as a burden . They spoke about there day and Aisha made a joke about Tommy and how he had been at the youth center the night before around 8 when they were closing .She told her how they had all gone out to see some new fighting movie.
Kim had played it cool with Aisha and told her she had to go practice When they had hung up Kim had gone to see the time Tommy had called her the night before it had been 7.30.
That was the final straw for her darkness and sorrow began to engulf her . The call plus the video Alpha had sent as a reminder that she wasn't alone had only solidified what she already knew.
Kim was on her own and ties to the past had to be broken. She wasn't going to be the one broken and this was her way of coming out of the darkness.
This is the hardest letter I have ever had to write...