Disclaimer: I do not own Xenosaga or anything related to it. I do own this story, however.

This is a quick 1st chapter. I promise to make the next chapters longer so long as I get readers who enjoy this story. It's mostly about chaos and something he's suffering that (in my story) happened near the end of Ep.I. Maybe it's why he's a little more reserved in Ep.II? We'll see. Also, there are possible spoilers for Ep.III, or at least what I'd like to think connects to Ep. III. Enjoy, and please leave a review even if it's brief. Thank You.

The Waves

The pain emanated throughout his entire body and he now felt so helpless to stop it. All he could do now was rely on the help his companions offered. The nausea came in large waves and consumed all his energy and self control. In the end, that energy and control was to no avail. He fell once more to the ground, onto his knees as he clutched his stomach and cried out in pain. He shut his eyes and finally just let it happen. Fluids spattered from his mouth onto the grass and onto his clothes with a terrible force. He began to tremble violently. How much longer would he have to endure this? He was in too much pain to be embarrassed, but even still, the two that accompanied him did their best to make sure he wouldn't become the focus of others in the area.

Tony and Shion gently guided him to the back side of the small building that stood next to the busy park. That's when his body gave in and he completely lost control. His mind was awake, but he was helpless to do anything about what was happening to his physical being.

His eyes shut tight as if in pain and he could feel what was about to happen next, and to his embarrassment, he couldn't stop it. His body began to convulse violently on the ground where Tony had gently placed him, and he could feel his lower half becoming very warm and wet. He'd lost control in the worst way for the first time. Shion couldn't hold her tears back anymore and she hid her face with the back of her arm as she began to softly cry. She had never seen this happen to anyone. She'd heard of it, but never of anything this violent and crippling. It seemed to go on forever.

"Why does this have to happen?" she thought. She wiped her tears away as his body suddenly stopped. For a long two seconds he seemed to not even breathe. It was the saddest sight of a broken angel on the ground. Knowing what she had to do next, she regained her composure and reached for the medical kit that Tony always carried with him. Not too long ago, just before leaving the Elsa she had joked with him about it. Now she knew his reasons. This was the second time in one week. She couldn't help but feel admiration for him, for helping chaos keep such a personal thing private.

Chaos slowly opened his eyes and drew a quick sob. He curled up into himself. "It's okay, man." Tony tried to comfort him and gently placed his leg under chaos' head. He gingerly swept a few sweaty strands of silver from his brow. They let a minute pass for him to recover. "How' you feelin'," Tony looked down and asked an obviously exhausted chaos. "Do you think you can make it back to the Elsa? Do you want your medicine?" chaos closed his eyes for a moment as another wave of nausea began to slowly creep up on him. "I'll take the medicine," he hoarsely whispered. "Shion," Tony motioned for her to bring the small medical kit closer.

She pulled out the syringe with the medicine chaos needed to help him control his seizures. "It's such a painfully long needle," she thought as she prepared the liquid medication. It was about three inches in length and wasn't very thin either, but that's what was needed in order to properly administer the medicine. It's the quickest, most effective way for the nanomachines to arrive immediately at their most important destination.

"Are you ready, chaos?" Shion asked as she pushed a few air bubbles out of the syringe. chaos closed his eyes and nodded. "Okay, sweetheart," she pushed the feathery silver locks that met the nape of his neck out of the way. "Take a deep breath for me," he inhaled slowly, finding her gentle voice comforting. "Relax," she whispered as she punctured the flesh just below the bottom of his skull. The injection was angled towards the base of his brain. As much pain as this caused him for the first few minutes, he couldn't afford to jerk or do anything other than to simply lie there as limp as possible while the needle was still in his body. Sadly, it was something he was gettin used to again.

Shion slowly pushed the medicine into his body as gently as possible. "There we go, babe," she motioned with her free hand to Tony for the small piece of gauz she'd handed him during preparation. Chaos felt a sense of relief as Shion pulled out. "I'll hold pressure on here for a minute while you adjust to the medication, okay?"

By the next second, chaos couldn't respond. He just lay there, softly trembling, with tears rolling to the grass beneath him and his eyes shut tightly. This physical pain was so immense, but there was no other way to help him control this. He tried his best to regulate his ragged breathing. The medicine was spreading fast. He could feel the seering heat slowly invade his brain...his ears...his eyes...his mouth...his throat...his chest. Then came the thousands of icey needles. This was a little better, but not much. It only helped him to know it was almost over.

Shion took her coat off and covered him with it. He didn't want her sacrificing her clothes for his dignity, but the angel was still in too much pain to protest. She bent down and tenderly kissed his temple. He could feel his heart finally start to calm down. Tony could see him trying to fight off the drowsiness that both the seizure and medicine had induced. "Get some rest, buddy," he whispered tenderly. chaos felt the comforting darkness take him away and he could refuse it no longer. He sighed, softly, what seemed like sweet relief.

Her silky, dark hair swept back and forth with her rocking motion, tickling the skin on his chest. The sunlight crept in just right, and made this vision of perfection quite the delight to him. He held his focus with her eyes for a long second, just before attaining the most powerful bliss ever imaginable. He gasped as his heavenly eyes fluttered shut and he let the wave consume him.

A few moments later, once he finally came back down from his high, she laid down beside him. He pulled her closer to him, taking in her beautiful scent as they lay by the window.

Suddenly his heart was broken, as realization hit him once again, to relive this memory and be helpless to change things. He couldn't stand the thought that such a beautiful, sacred moment to him would end all too soon. He placed a warm hand on the smooth flesh just below her naval, thinking of the daughter he would never get to hold. For now, he would simply enjoy this "gift" of a dream. Together, they let the warm spring sunshine lul them to sleep...

Author's Note: Hope this fanfic doesn't scare any readers away. I know this story started out really cruel to chaos, but I promise it gets a little better. Please read and review.