Title: I can't hold it in
Author: Washu the Goddess
Rating: PG
Disclaimers: ::sigh:: i dont own dbz
ChiChi's point of view after Goku has chosen to die. R and R


I held it all in for our son
but I can't hold it in anymore.
You expect me to be strong
but even the most powerful woman in the world
has her weaknesses.
Mine is losing you.
I know you were gone so much that I hardly ever saw you anyway.
But knowing that you will never walk through this door again.
knowing that I will never hear "Honey i'm STARVING" again.
Knowing that I will never here you stutter when you know I have won a fight again.
Knowing that you will never hold me close and tell me you'll love me forever,
makes me want to scream out in the utter fear of living without you.
You're so brave
But why can't you be scared once and awhile?
You were always so sure you knew what was best
But you were wrong.
How can this possibly be 'best' for me?
Were you even thinking about your son?
Your friends?
Me?
Well?
I am fresh out of ideas for my life.
What about you, Goku?
Do you know how i'm supposed to go on like nothing ever happened?
I don't. And I can't possibly believe that you do.