I love you more.
You know that period of time where, you feel like your living on hell? Well I've been living that life ever since me and Peter broke up. We'll pass each other in the hallway and not even speak to each other. He'll nod and ill nod but there is no emotion, and it's because of a stupid promise. My fathers dying wish was that Peter would break up with me "to keep me safe" but I feel so vulnerable it's not even funny. I hate the fact that Peter doesn't care, he never really showed when he did but it still hurts. I know now that he has to speak to me it's science class and Mr. Lotus always pairs us together. I'm sitting in class Peter behind me and I can feel his eyes in the back of my head. Once my teacher says Peter and Gwen I sigh in relief. I turn around and we sit beside each other. We get a booklet that's 5 pages long that we have to complete by Friday. Again he doesn't say anything so I'm gonna have to keep up the conversation.
"Do you need a pencil." I ask him in annoyance.
"What?" He looks at me confused.
"Pencil? Do you need one."
"Y-yeah I do." He takes the pencil from my hand our fingertips touching. He pulls his hand away quickly. We start writing down the questions I do one them him we pass the booklet along but I'm getting tired of the silence so I speak.
"You can at least talk to me you know." I don't look in his eyes but he's looking at me.
"Okay what do you want to talk about?" Finally, I get something out of him.
"How's your aunt?"
"She's fine. She asks about you a lot. How're your brothers."
"There fine Phillip is in to skate boarding."
"Yeah when we went for the first time he was a natural. Way better then I was when I first started."
"You went skateboarding with my brother?" He coughed loudly.
"N-no."
"You're a horrible liar! You just said you took my brother skateboarding." I said.
"Well yeah, he asked me if I could teach him. Please don't be mad."
"I'm not mad but doesn't that go over your stupid promise about not being able to see me."
"Technically I wasn't seeing you." The bell rang, and we sat there for a few seconds.
"Do you want me to walk you to lunch."
"Yeah sure." He walked to lunch silently. Flash saw Peter and escorted him over to the lunch table. I walked over to my friends when Peter called from behind me.
"Hey Gwen!" He yelled.
"Yeah."
"I'll talk to you later." He winked at me and continued his conversation with Flash.
"..but he's still cute." I heard my friend Mary say.
"Who's still cute?" I joined the conversation.
"Peter Parker. That nerdy cute guy in your class." All my friends were silent because they knew about me and Peter. Mary went away for 3 months so she didn't get the ex boyfriend conversation.
"What?" She said to all my friends looking at them confused.
"Gwen and Peter used to date." Clarisse said.
"Oh my god Gwen I'm so sorry."
"Don't be, me and Peter are just friends he's all yours okay." That was the biggest lie I'd ever told in my life. I wanted Peter all to myself but that was never going to happen. It was a fantasy in my head that was never going to come true. Because Peter didn't want to be with me.