**DICLAIMER: I don't own Soul Eater :))
MAYBE I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH
His locker flooded with letters as he opened it. All obviously from admirers and some letters requested Soul to be their partner. Well, I'm not entirely surprised since he's a Death Scythe now. A Death Scythe made by me actually. It should be me who should be receiving the letters now. It should me who people wants to pair-up with. But that's not what I'm really worried about. It's the fact that Soul might pick another partner to replace me.
I was in the kitchen cooking Soul's dinner. He was waiting at the table with his headphones in his ear apparently listening to music. I placed his food on the table without a word and saw in the corner of my eye his glance as I made my way outside.
Once outside, I felt the wind flutter around my skirt. I grabbed the mop just by the dump cans and started to twirl it on my hands the way I twirl Soul. It was turning fine when I suddenly dropped it. Disappointment surged through me and I picked it up, twirled again and it fell again with a resounding thud. "Maybe they were right." I thought as I picked it up again. "The people who wrote those letters said I wasn't good enough for him, for Soul. Maybe they are right.. The girls at school who murmur at my back. They are all right.." I threw the mop and couldn't stop the tears fall in my eyes. "They are right .. I'm not good enough for him. I was never good enough. Never good enough .. never good enough .." I keep murmuring. I soon sat and cried with my knees covering my face. Still murmuring. "Not good enough .. never good enough .."
I was wrapped in my own despair when suddenly something grabbed my arm and pulled me back up. My eyes focused on someone with white hair and glowing red eyes. Then he slapped me. I knew he slapped me but I feel so numb and didn't react right away. I looked away from his gaze unable to meet his eyes. "Don't you ever say you're not good enough !" Soul shouted. "Look at me .. Look at me !" He forced my chin to look into his eyes as new set of tears fell on mine. "I will never ever replace you for anything in this world ! I will never ever replace you for a new partner. That will never happen, even if we die. Don't say you're never good enough. Because you are always good enough"
My mind reeled at what he said. I looked in his eyes again and was shocked to see tears from his eyes , too. "Soul .. I.. I'm." "Please don't do that. When you hurt yourself you hurt me, too. Those girl, those senders.. They can never replace you .. They can never be you.. Just because you couldn't twirl that mop properly without me steering a little, that doesn't make anyone else better than you.. You will always be my meister.. My bestfriend .. You will always be my Maka.."
And amidst our tears, I smiled. "Soul .." I said as he let go of my arm and dried his tears. I held his hand. His head darted back to me. "Soul .. I'm sorry for not believing in us .. I was just so afraid that they would take you from me.." I bowed my head ashamed of what I've done. I expected him let go of my hand but instead he held it tighter. He raised my head and said," Maka, I would never leave you. Didn't I promise you that ?" I nodded. "Cool men never leave their partners.." I laughed suddenly relieved. He smiled and dragged me back upstairs where he left his food. "Yeah .. but do cool men cry Soul ?" He glanced at me. "Well, on certain occasions like before.. It's cool to cry." He said smilingly.
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My second fan fic for this month :)) pls read and support :))