I had always been the girl
Who tried harder than the others
To be something that I was not
In order to impress people
I pretended to be strong
So that people were not disappointed
So that people would pay attention
To the girl they normally ignored
I was willing to kill anyone and everyone
Just to lose my sanity to the Games
So that I could be named Victor
A name that earned me hatred
From the other eleven Districts
I was the girl
Who lived
In the moment
Because I could
Never find anything
Else to live in
I was the girl who could not fly
Because she forgot how to
A rather long time ago
The day she found out
That she was not perfect
Maybe that's why I try
So hard to be something I'm not
Or maybe I am just another
Product of the Capitol
Since they seemed
To destroy everyone
Who fought in these damned Games
And in my last moments
Before my skull was bashed in
There was only one thought
Running through my mind
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to those
Who were hurt
By my lies
I'm sorry to those
Whose lives I had stolen
In these twisted Games
I'm sorry to my family
For not loving you
Like I should have
I'm sorry to Cato
Whose love
I did not accept
Even though
I really wanted to
I just did not want
Anyone to think
I am weak
In the end
I'm sorry
To myself
Because
I've only
Ever hated
Myself