It's been almost 5 months now and my heart can no longer endure the pain. I have to end it. I have to.
"Beep beep beep." The dreadful sound of my alarm is how all my awful days seem to be starting lately. It was a Monday, and though it's the probably the start to an awful week, Mondays have always been my favorite days of the week.
I slip on the hideous maroon colored uniform and head for the stairs, preparing myself for what the day might launch at me. I eat my breakfast so fast that I nearly choke on it but that's nothing new considering I am never up early resulting to limited time to eat my breakfast. I slip on my black leather converse and am immediately out the door.
"Have a nice day mum!" I say as I close the door.
"You too honey."
My mum has always been there for me, through thick and thin. Yet, I disobey her rules and lie to her constantly. If only she knew, oh if only she knew.
I automatically head to the train station, as if I were being controlled like a robot. Travelling to school is always the highlight of my day, riding on the train alone, music blasting through my earphones to my ears and not having to talk to anyone or pretend to care about what they are saying. As you can tell, I like to be alone, but not lonely. But unfortunately I am both, alone and lonely.
My thoughts are interrupted by the voice of my friends,
"Hey Trisssyy!" they all call out in unison.
"Hey guys, I'm going to go for a walk, see you 2ndperiod."
"Alright bye."
First lie of the day. Although it's a lie, I don't feel guilty. I feel that if I leave, they won't have to try to push me away, therefore doing them a favour. I head to my first period class, Art. Since it's Monday, I have class directly opposite my best friend, Christina. So I decide to sit on the ground in front of her class, considering my teacher is always late. After what feels like seconds the bell rings and I hear someone coming up the stairs. I don't care who it is and just close my eyes, shutting out the world around me that is turning out to be hell. Just as I'm about to get up and go to class, I hear someone shouting over my loud music.
"TRISSSSSSSSSSS!"
"WHATTTT?"
I open my eyes and see the gorgeous eyes that I fell in love with.