Full Summary: After a rather horrible break up with her long term boyfriend, Summer Brown is sure wants nothing to do with guys till her graduation. Then, along comes Sirius Black and she isn't so sure anymore. They get along fabulously and she's sure he wants her. But will she give love a second chance, when she was bruised so badly the first time? Oh, and her ex may just want her back. Is she really over him? After all first loves are hard to forget and that's what Lucas was to her. He just made mistakes, and deep down she knows he loves only her. Choices choices, so many of them! She has to make one, because running away this time is not an option, as both the parties are determined. Oh dear.

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Chapter 1

"What excuse do you have now?" I questioned, my eyes blazing.

"I'm sorry. I really didn't mean to do it. You know me-" Lucas started with his head hung on his shoulders and his eyes landing on everything but my face.

"You didn't mean to do it?" I interrupted incredulously, my anger mounting terribly. "You think that's going to take back everything you did to me? All the hurt that you've caused?" I yelled at my boyfriend.

He sighed. "I know I've been an asshole. But-" he locked his eyes with mine, his were full of regret, "I'm really sorry now. Summer you know you're my girl, you will always be."

"Really?" I sneered, "then tell me, didn't you remember this when you were in that broom cupboard with Felicity? Or were you confounded?!"

"Fuck" He moaned sinking down on the armchair. "I'm so so sorry. I swear it won't happen again!"

That last statement really broke me down. I was sick of it, sick of his empty promises and his false assurances that he won't cheat on me again, sick of giving him second chances and swallowing the pain of being the girl who took all the crap without complaining. I was just sick of everything about him. My eyes began to water.

I shook my head. "No, it will. I know it, you know it too! I'm done here Lucas. I'm just done."

A slightly panicked look crossed his face, but it was gone as soon as it arrived. He stood up and walked over to me with his face penitent. I took a step back and noticed the raw hurt on his face. Seeing his go through the same pain that I experience made me feel strangely vindicated, my resolve strengthened. I wasn't going to give in this time.

"Summer, I know how you feel. Yes I do." He added on seeing my disbelieving look. He placed his hands on my shoulders and the slight shadow that crossed his face confirmed that he had noticed my body stiffen.

"I never mean to do this, I really really don't. I want to go back and be the way I was, before all this happened and I swear to god I'm trying. I love you Summer, and I want to be with you. I'm just trying to get over the accident, and I promise I'll try harder-"

"That excuse is not going to help now Lucas!" I exclaimed shrugging his hands off my shoulders. "I'm really sorry for all the tragedy that occurred in your family last year, but just because of that you're not going to get away with your cheating! I can't take all this anymore. We're over!"

"Don't do this to me Summer, please." Lucas pleaded his voice soft and for a tiny moment just because of his sad tired eyes I almost forgave him, almost.

"How many times have I said that to you before Lucas? You know, I just- I'm just so tired of all this. I'm tired of your ways Lucas, I can't take it anymore." I said wiping my eyes with the back of my hand.

"I love you baby. One last time, please." He said his face somber.

"One last time? You think I'm some punching bag Lucas? How many times will this happen? I believed you when you said that you were completely sloshed when you slept with Emily Sparks during summer! I trusted you when you said you didn't realise what you were doing. It hurt, but I got over it. I forgave you. But guess what? You did it again! You know how crushed I was? The whole fucking school knew! God, I was embarassed! But I forgave you still! Lily didnt talk to me after that you know? She thinks I deserve better than you, and you know what? I agree!"

His eyes hardened slightly as he walked closer to me again, "Lily Evans is a stuck up bitch. I don't care what she thinks. But baby, I don't want to let you go." He put his hands on my shoulders again and bent down to look me in the eyes. "You mean the world to me, and I know I'm important to you too."

I looked away from his coffee coloured orbs, "you are, but fortunately or unfortunately for you my self respect matters a whole lot more to me. And don't you dare bad mouth Lily." I added the last part with a burning glare at him.

"Sorry." He said not really meaning it, and suddenly his face was very close to mine and his eyes skimmed over every, inch every feature of my face. "You know we're meant to be Summer, you know you want me. Let's just forget all this and be the way we were." He whispered, his hot breath tickling my lips.

Involuntarily, my heart beat quickened. As much as I loathed it, it was a fact that he still affected me physically. I cursed my body for responding the way it did to his touch and took a huge step away from him.

"No Lucas, this can't go on. I'm sorry. We're over." I said with finality.

He stood stock still where he was, all his emotions wiped off from his face now.

"You're not going to change your mind?" it wasn't much of a question, a statement really.

"No." I said quietly.

"Its all your doing Lucas." I said inaudibly but I was sure he heard it, and with one last look at the indecipherable expression on his face I walked out of the gryffindor common room, away from the person who had been there with me through so much in life. I was finally walking away and it broke my heart to do it, but I knew it was the right thing to do.

A/N: So what do you think? Is it worth updating or should I take it down? Some feedback would be greatly appreciated! :)