I don't own anything. The song is by Buckcherry titled Sorry. Amazing song! give it a listen!
Chapter 1
It had been two weeks since she saw him. Two weeks since he wiped the floor with a Russian mobster's son.
He was dressed in his normal casual way. Jeans and a tee shirt. Both which probably cost more than her rent for the month.
The baseball cap he wore was a new addition. She couldn't ever remember seeing him wearing one. He wore it down low to hide most of his face. Like he was hiding. Which he should be. There was most certainly a hit on him by now.
"What are you doing here?" She said quietly.
He bit his lip standing at her doorstep uneasily.
"Do you trust me?"
She looked at him shell shocked. That's not what she was expecting him to say.
Did she? After all they had been through? Trust him with what? Her safety? Her heart ?
The latter was a lot harder. Safety wise, she did . She knew he would never put her in danger. Hell, he was always trying to keep her out of danger. She knew he would protect her at whatever cost and in a lot of ways that gave her comfort.
Her heart was another issue. The last two weeks gave her a lot time to evaluate their relationship. And her conversations with the new couple, that was Mac and Dick, were enlightening for a lack of a better word.
Flashback
It was the night of the showdown in the cafeteria. She should of been waiting with her dad to see the results of the Sheriff election but she couldn't stand to be around him. She had a sick feeling he was going to lose be because of her.
So instead she sat at the beach by herself not even with Backup to keep her company.
"Hey, V." she heard Mac's voice from behind her.
Veronica kept staring at the ocean not having the strength to look at her friend.
"Quite a show I missed today, huh?"
"They are going to kill him."
Mac stayed silent and slid down next to her on the sand.
"He reacted. Badly.. But this is Logan... and he sees someone hurting you and he reacts. Not always in the best way... but he does it out of love."
Veronica looked at her best friend with disbelief on her face.
"He beat up Piz. Badly, might I add, without knowing the full story. And now he used the son of a Russian mobster as a punching bag. And you are rationalizing this?"
Mac shrugged. "I spent a lot of time with Logan helping him with his project... He's not some monster.." She sighed and looked out at the water. The water was rougher than usual and the wind was picking up, like it was being fueled by all the emotions in the air.
"I just feel bad for him. He has tried to clean up his act. He loves you and all you do is push him away. You do anything to prove he is not worthy of you. You set these unattainable standards that no one could ever reach. You accused him of murder.. of rape.. of anything to make him look like a madman.."
Tears started to come down her face.
" I heard he beat up Moe and Mercer in a jail cell. .."
Veronica looked at her. "See! See how unstable he is?"
"Maybe if you weren't getting yourself into these messes he wouldn't have to do such things."
Veronica stayed silent, she knew she had a point. Mac got up and looked down at the blonde who had become her best friend over the past few years.
"I love you and... I think I might be in love with Dick.. And Logan is all he has.. And I can't see the only family he has self destruct. He has done some things that are inexcusable, I know that. And so does he. But you have too. You two are miserable without each other. And I'm not saying to get back together but maybe it's time to let the ghosts rest ya know? Forgiveness is a powerful thing."
And with that, she left Veronica on the beach with her thoughts. It was a lot to come to terms with. She knew she pushed Logan away every chance she could. She was her own worst enemy. She was scared. And being scared was not an emotion Veronica Mars was comfortable with.
The next morning after the results had came in that Keith Mars was officially reinstated as Sheriff, Veronica headed up the Grand to have a much needed talk with Logan.
She knocked on the door and patiently waited for an answer. There was no answer so she knocked again.
A few moments later, an obvious recently awoken Dick answered the door. "Ugh it's you ! What do you want? To shove another knife in his heart?"
Veronica sighed and squeezed herself under his arm that was leaning on the door frame. She started to head to his bedroom.
"He's not here." She stopped in her tracks and turned around.
"He took off.. I don't know where he is." He looked at her sincerely.
Veronica sighed and sat on the coach. Her head in her hands.
"Listen, Ronnie..he's hurting.. He tries for you and all you do is stomp on his heart."
She looked up at him tears in her eyes. "You think I like hurting him?! Huh?" At this point she was on her feet glaring at him. "You think I want all of this?"
"Yeah, I do. It's just part of the Veronica Mars circus. You keep playing these games. You are all he has left and you don't give two shits!"
Veronica looked down at her feet. "We are all he has.." She stressed the "we"part.
Dick shrugged. "I guess you're right. But I would never turn my back on him like you."
If words could kill that would be a knife in her heart. She sat back down on the coach staring at her hands. She never looked at it like that. Had she really turned her back on him?
"I love him..I really do. I'm just.. I'm soo scared of being my mother."
This was a concept Dick Calabasas understood. He understood what is was like to not want to turn into your parent. To live in fear that you would wake up one day and realize you turned into the one thing you hated the most.
"Don't you think Logan feels the same way about Aaron?"
Veronica nodded.
Dick plopped himself next to her on the coach. "Your parents they are supposed to protect you, ya know? Instead he needed to be saved from them. Aaron abused him for years and Lynn... she was supposed to protect him and I guess the booze just took over.. Logan doesn't know how to respond to things other than with violence. That's how he was raised."
Veronica nodded. "I wish this all wasn't so complicated."
Dick nodded. " I know.. and Logan isn't a saint. He has done a lot of fucked up shit. I'm not going to make excuses for that but.. we're not kids anymore. Maybe it's time to leave the past in the past."
End of Flashback
She took deep breath and said the second most important three letter phrase anyone ever wants to hear."I trust you."
A small smile crept up on his face. "Then come with me."
Veronica raised a eyebrow. "Excuse me?"
He shrugged. "You said you trusted me..."
"Okay."
He smiled gave her smile. "Let's go."
All the reasons why this was a bad idea flew through her mind. Because in reality this was a horrible idea but for once Veronica was going to follow her heart and not her head.
She left a note for her dad and grabbed her purse and jumped in Logan's Ranger Rover.
"Where are we going?" She asked as they pulled out of the parking lot of her apartment complex.
"You will see." He said cryptically.
"Where have you been?"
He shrugged. "Around.."
"Logan.." She said in a warning tone. She was not doing this again. They were not going keep secrets anymore.
"Honestly? I went to Mexico. Surfed a little. Slept a lot. "
She nodded and enjoyed the quiet ride. Logan popped in a CD and picked a song number.
Oh, I had a lot to say 'Cause everything inside I'm sorry I'm bad This time I think I'm to blame 'Cause everything inside I'm sorry I'm bad Every single day I'm sorry I'm bad
Was thinkin' all my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
It never comes out right
And when I see you cry
It makes me want to die
I'm sorry You're blue
I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you
And I know
I can't take it back
I love how you kiss
I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say
I'm sorry
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
It never comes out right
And when I see you cry
It makes me want to die
I'm sorry You're blue
I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you
And I know
I can't take it back
I love how you kiss
I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say
I'm sorry
I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right, oh yeah
Sorry
I'm sorry You're blue
I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you
And I know
I can't take it back
I love how you kiss
I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say
I'm sorry
She looked over at him as he sang along quietly to the song. Tears formed in her eyes but before she could say anything she noticed they were pulling into the private jet area of the airport.
"Logan..."
"You said you trust me Ronnie."
And she did. And trust is what lead Veronica Mars to get on a private plane with Logan Echolls with no knowledge of a destination.
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