You Forget Yourself Ms. Darling
a fanfiction by Lizzi Invisigoth
((the first upload was woefully misspelled and had alot of errors that detracted to much attention away from the fiction itself, so i decided to re upload this and change a few things, hopefully it is much more clear and easy to read. i would like to add that Im not making any money for this, and i don't own the characters, Im just playing with them. enjoy.))
Wendy had returned to Neverland, that much was certain. She had simply awoken there one morning, not quite sure of how she had gotten there or even where she was. After a day of worrying about what was to come and the unfairness of what she would soon be forced to do Wendy had decided to simply disappear. The weight if her obligations hurt her and bared on her a tremendous burden, she felt trapped. Wendy had reached the age where she was to be soon considered marriageable material, all to soon she would be expected to attend balls and coming out parties, not to mention be expected to merry. Amidst preparations for her own coming out party she had nearly broken down and cried, the despair in her heart almost to much, but she had remained stoic, barely reacting to all the fervor focused upon her.
Instead she had excused herself, making excuses of a headache, which weren't altogether untrue. She had barely made it to the doorway before her emotions got the better of her, and she nearly threw herself to the floor as the sobs wracked her tiny frame. She cried because she felt she had no way out, no way to save herself. Suddenly she thought she had heard something, a voice perhaps, calling softly, the window lay open as always and the breeze whispered softly into the room , bringing with it a scrap of drawing paper. The eyes blue as forget me notts that no matter how hard she had tried she just couldn't quite capture on paper gazed up at her. She hadn't remembered him at first, her childhood adventures having been long forgotten among her broken dreams, but the eyes, they brought it all back.
She had then felt more certain then ever in her decision to leave this place that had become more of a prison then a home, the place that had broken her heart and made her grow up all to soon. Sitting through dinner was a chore, she was quiet as her family spoke of plans for her, plans that made her want to weep, involving marriage to some boring man somewhere, and life in polite society. With all its rules and regulations of how to behave and dress, she knew she would never be truly happy. She excused herself politely and bid everyone an early goodnight. The never suspected a thing that was going on in her mind.
She briefly considered writing a note, but thought the better of it, there was simply nothing to say. she had opened the window wide, welcoming the cold air and the wonderful site of the snowfall as it fell onto the ground far below. This would hurt, that she was sure of, but perhaps, perhaps she would awaken in the arms of that distant wonderland of her childhood. she shook her head at such thoughts, she was much to old to think that she would find rescue in fantasy, no, she was going to die, and hopefully, her last thought would be of Neverland.
She braced herself, taking one last look about her room, her bed her books, they all seemed unimportant and smothering. The horrible despair crept up again and she felt a hot tear slid down her cheek. Now or never, she took a great leap, her arms out gracefully at her sides for a moment as if she were flying, cold air rushed up to meet her as the ground came up much to fast. She closed her eyes as she fell, then stopped much to suddenly. Not as hard as she thought she should have, but her head, oh how her head ached, she opened her eyes briefly, her vision blurred as she stared up uncomprehendingly into the most beautiful blue eyes she had ever seen before she closed them again, unable to stay conscious any longer.
((well there you have it, my first fic in this fandom, it came from a very intense dream i had one morning and i simply had to put it down, cookies to those who review, let me know what you think. ))