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Hey all sorry it's been so long but the ideas train took off and left me behind. Any way for those of you who don't know me this isn't my first story despite this being the only one on my page. For those of you that do know me I didn't take my stories down it would appear that I've been hacked and they've been removed but don't worry I'll find the files and put them back up. When I find I'll add I've got a lot files. I really should make some folders and organise a bit better bit difficult to sort threw when every few minuets I'm having to my 2 and 4 year old sons from destroying the house.

I'd like you all to know that this story will quite emotional. For those such as my self who have lost a parent and suffer from depression this story may be quite upsetting.

Before I let leave you with this story for all those who have suffered as I've stated above I'd just like to share something with you that has helped me over the years. Even though things look bleak and hard just remember to look to the future. For me it's watching my children grow up and for them I strive for the future I want to be the best dad that I can be and to give them the life I didn't get. It may seem hard to look ahead but believe me you don't have to look far. Look to your loved ones and draw strength from them. You don't need to hide or be ashamed loss and mental health is nothing to be ashamed of. Having worked with people in those situations and been there my self I can say professionally and personally that you don't need to be ashamed.

Any way I hope you enjoy this fic and I hope that in a way it can bring you a happy ending.

Prologue

The sun sat high in the cloudless sky shining brightly over the great city of Zootopia. Children laughed and played under the watchful eye's of their parents in Zootopia's central park. Nick Wilde, a red fox and officer of the law couldn't help but smile happily as he walked gently down one of the parks many paths, With his bunny partner and best friend Judy Hopps at his side. She too was wearing a happy smile. Nick looked down to his left finding Judy gazing up at him. He gave a her fond smile before looking straight ahead again thinking.

"Come Nick pull your self together. You can do this." Sensing that something was on his mind Judy decided it was time to get some answers.

"You know if the wind changes your face will stick that way and I'm not sure a pained expiration looks good on you." She said with a sly smile.

"Hhh….What?" Nick replied in confusion looking down at his friend. Judy shuck her head with amusement before she replied.

"You….you were thinking I could tell by the pained looked"

"And strange grinding noise." She added.

"Oh har har." Nick replied sarcastically. He looked down at her again to see her deep amethyst eyes gazing up at him again.

"What are you thinking about Nick?" she asked. Nick looked away again and opened his mouth to reply but nothing came to mind so he closed it again. His eyes widened when he felt Judy touch his arm and her sweet voice say.

"You didn't ask me to just come for a walk did you….you want to tell me something." Nick looked down at her again and gave her a sheepish look and rubbed the back of his neck nervously. His cool, slick demeanor leaving him for dust.

"Err….n-no….I-I didn't." he stuttered feeling nervous. Judy walked round in front of him causing him to stop walking. She looked up at him again gazing in to his bright green eyes.

"Tell me." She said in a soft and soothing voice, reaching forward and taking both his massive paws in too her own. Nicks heart felt like it was going burst from his chest. He closed his eyes for a moment taking a deep breath. Then opened them again meeting Judy's gaze instantly.

"J-Judy." He said in a soft and nervous voice causing Judy to tilt her head slightly. He never used her name unless he was being serious and judging by how soft and nervous his voice was she knew he was being.

"For a while now I've been." He paused.

"Yes." Judy said in a whisper stepping closer to him and slowly rising up on her tip toes. Nick just as slowly lowered his head bring his muzzle closer to Judy's lips.

"Feelling something more than just friendship." He whispered drawing even closer. He could feel her breath gently tickle his nose.

"Yeesss." She whispered even softer as they grew slowly closer.

"Judy I-I."

Beeeepppp, Beeeepppp, beeeepppp

Nicks eye's flew open as he sat up in bed. He looked round the dark room before his eyes settled on the still Beeping alarm clock at the side of it. He switched the alarm off before falling back on to his bed and looking up at the ceiling sighing.

"It was just a dream." He said with a smile

"But it was a nice dream." He added as he sat up again and swung his legs out of bed. He let out a long whining yawn as he stretched before standing up and popping his back with a satisfying

"Aaaaa." Standing up and walking forwards, he pulled open his bedroom door and headed across the small corridor and stepped in to his bathroom to answer natures call. Once he had attended to the necessaries he walked over to the bath and pulled the shower curtain closed slightly before turning the shower on. He put his left paw under the stream of water checking the temperature, once he was satisfied, he slid off his boxers and with expert skill kicked them off with one foot and in to the laundry basket that was by the door. He stepped in to the shower letting the warm water soak in to his thick fur whilst thinking about his dream. Nick knew he had strong feelings for his partner, last nights dream wasn't the first but it was one of many. When he first started dreaming of Judy in a romantic way, he immediately denied his feelings and tried to burry them deep with in him self. But after a long conversation with his mother one sunny afternoon, she had told him that he shouldn't hide these feelings and that he should tell her.

"hmm easier said than done mum." Nick said under his breath as he remembered that conversation. Nick continued with his shower and once he had finished scrubbing and rinsed the last of the conditioning soap out of his fur he turned the shower off and stepped out of the tub before grabbing the towel of the hanging rail and began rub him self vigorously. It was hard work to get your fur therally dry with a towel so he decided to finish the job using his new full body fur dryer that he had bought last month. Once his fur was properly dry he hung the towel back up to dry and headed out of the bathroom and back in to his bedroom. He closed the door behind him and went to his wardrobe. Opening it he saw his favorite green huweien shirt hanging next to freshly laundered ZPD uniform. Pulling out his uniform his ears twitched at the sound of his front door closing.

"Guess Carrots is here." He thought with a smile. He had given Judy a key shortly after he had finished his training and told her that if she didn't get an answer after 3 times of knocking to just let her self in. He heard the sound of foot steps approaching his bed room door.

"Nick are you up." She called threw the door.

"I wouldn't come in if I were you." Nick called back as his bed room door started to open but clearly she didn't hear him.

"Nick I swear if your not up I'll….OOOHHHHH You are naked." She screamed as she caught site of Nick standing in front of his wardrobe holding his uniform. Nick could feel the heat coming of her cheeks and saw her long ears turn scarlet as she quickly turned and hurried out of the room closing the door quickly behind her.

"I said you wouldn't want to come in here." He called whilst laughing. Judy stood with her back to the door, eyes wide and still blushing. She could still hear Nick laughing from with in the room.

"It's not funny Nick." She quipped

"Oh it is from were I'm standing." Nick replied still chuckling.

"You have no shame do you." Judy called back. There was a short moment of silence before Nick's bed room door opened now revealing a fully dressed fox standing behind her.

"No, No I don't." he said in a sly tone. Judy rolled her eyes and walked forward heading to the front door.

"Come on or we'll be late." She called looking over her shoulder to make sure her partner was following.

"I'm coming." He replied as he grabbed his wallet and keys off the small coffee table that sat in the middle of the living room. He followed Judy out the door making sure it was locked behind them.

The journey to the Police station was the same as it always was, there was the normal chit chat and jokes that they shared between each other. They called by the small Coffee shop that they passed each day they headed for work. Both Nick and Judy entered the first precinct of Zootopia together as always and as always they were greeted by their friendly receptionist Clawhauser who waved at them enthusiastically. Both Officers smiled warmly and waved as they made there way past the front desk and headed for the bull pen. They went threw the door and entered. Inside the bull pen was the normal hustle and bustle as their fellow officers talked. Both officers walked up to there usual seat at the front. Nick hopped up first with Judy following shortly after. The seats in the bull pen and many other areas of the station were designed with bigger mammals in mind so both officer tended to share a seat. Nick felt Judy get settled and then gently nudge his arm.

"Nick?" She asked. Nick turned his head to face her and replied.

"Yeah."

"Do you have an air bed I can borrow. My parents are coming up to visit for a week and there going to stay at mine but I don't have any ware for them to sleep." She said with air of excitement at the prospect of seeing her parents. Nick thought for a moment and shook his head.

"No, Sorry Carrots, I had to chuck it out after it sprung a leak. Quite a large leak actually."

"Oh ok." She replied looking thoughtful. Nick watched her for a moment then suddenly an idea sprung in to his mind.

"Carrots I think I have an idea." He said causing Judy to look up and raise an eye brow.

"Really…did it hurt?" she asked.

"Ha ha sly bunny." He replied giving her a playful glare

"Dumb fox." Judy replied with a sly smirk.

"Ha well you'll be thanking this dumb fox with the idea I've just had." He said with his signature smirk and half lidded eye's.

"Oh will I….well let's hear it then." She replied crossing her arms. But before Nick had a chance to say any thing else, Officer Higgins who was standing at the front of the room called every one too attention. Every body stood and fell silent for a moment but as soon as the door at the front opened there was the usual course of howls and grunts that greeted the arrival of their Chief.

"All right, All right….shut it." He boomed facing the room before turning to officer Higgins and handing the case files and to every ones surprise his clip board.

"Higgins do the role and hand out the assignments." The massive Cape Buffalo said before turning his attention to Nick.

"Wilde. My office now." He said in a deep but apparently sympathetic tone before turning and leaving the room.