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The Chase
This case has been exhilarating. I know, I shouldn't really think of a murder of an innocent person, and the chase that goes along with it as exhilarating. But I can't help it. It's one of my first cases back since suspension and damn if I don't feel a little like my old self. Before my world crashed around me. Before I went a little too close to the edge, and was pulled back by her. Alex. And even though I left her in the dark, even though she thinks I didn't trust her...she was my real reason for wanting to get my badge back. So, while she didn't personally run in there and make everything better, it was the thought of her. Get it? Well, all those sessions with the shrink made me get it.
Things seem to be getting better with us, although, I know there is a part of her that is finding it hard to trust me again. I understand. I'm working on it. Trying to get us back to where we were before this horrible year. But, let's be honest. After all, the shrink says part of healing is being honest with myself. So, OK. I don't want things back the way they were before. Because, before she was my partner, my friend. But I want more. Much more. And before all this happened, I think we were almost there.
This case, well, I can see we can still read each other well. We've fallen back into that groove. And that's good. But here's the thing. I get the feeling that she hasn't been alone for the duration of my suspension, if you know what I mean. I'm a detective, and if she thinks that I haven't noticed the signs she's wrong. Her cell phone ringing a little more often that it used to. Her walking away to answer it and coming back without saying anything. I realize that I have to gain her trust first as a partner than move on from there. But this guy, whoever he is, he's swooping in at a time when I can't possibly get her to trust my heart.
So, now here we are at the end of the day, case closed and I hear myself say "Hey Eames, you want to grab a bite?" She looks up, tilts her head, and says with a small laugh "Why not, I got stood up tonight anyway. Let me just go change. I'll meet you by the elevator." I'm flying high right now. Yes! I think. This is the beginning. My chance. I start to close my binder and I hear "Goren. Is Eames still here?" Jeffries looks over from his desk. Without waiting for me to answer he says "There's a Peter on line one for her". Well. This is interesting. Peter. Probably wants to take her out after all. She did look a little disappointed when she thought she was stood up. So I look at Jeffries, sigh, and say "Nah, I think she went home a while ago". I go to the elevator. After all, Alex is waiting for me. I'm not gonna stand her up. I mean, C'mon. I supposed to be honest with myself. And I honestly believe that she is better off with me.
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