Author's Note: One of my first fan fictions stories. Please review. I have a tendency to rush into stories which I try not to do but it is hard so if I delete a chapter it is because I think I ran into it too fast. This is my second attempt at this story so please be patient as I may spend a lot of time thinking new ideas before I update it. Thank you and please read the entire story and I encourage you to review and perhaps even suggest idea's for future chapters I intend to have. Thank You.

Disclaimer: I do not own Spirited Away, or the characters or the scenes. Some ideas are mine like the main plot to the story but everything else is not mine.

CHAPTER 1: Alone In the World

Chihiro Ogino had left the spirit world along with her closest friends eleven years ago and she has regretted leaving ever since. When Chihiro got back from the spirit world, she felt more out of place then she ever had. She didn't talk to her parents or make any friends and she could think about was Haku, Lin, Zeniba, Boh and No-Face. Chihiro's parents took her to a counselor because of how depressed she was but that only made Chihiro feel even more out of place. She felt like she didn't belong in the human world; where she belonged is in the spirit world. Once Chihiro had graduated from school, she moved to an apartment building near the spirit world entrance and every day after her shift as a waitress, she tried to get through to the spirit world but it was always blocked. It was as if it was never there and instead of all the water, there was just an endless field of grass. Although Chihiro could never get through, she still tried and she would continue trying until she died.

Chihiro only talked to her parents every few months on the phone and she hadn't seen them in three years. They had grown apart from Chihiro so now Chihiro was alone in the world. Without any friends or people to talk to, she often just sat in her room crying or thinking. Sometimes she wondered if the adventure she had in the spirit world was just a dream but then she would look at the hair elastic Zeniba gave her to remind herself that it had all been real.

Chihiro was now twenty-one years old and she worked as a waitress in the restaurant in the apartment she lived in. She worked there in exchange for housing and a bit of money for food and clothes. Chihiro didn't like the job she had, but it could be worse. She intended on living in that apartment and working as a waitress for the rest of her life. She never wanted to get married because of the incapability to love another. Her heart belonged to Haku and it always would.

Even though Chihiro missed Haku the most, she missed Lin a lot as well. Lin was the closest thing Chihiro had to a best friend. If only Lin were here now, she could comfort Chihiro and give her advice. She also missed Zeniba and No-Face, Zeniba was like a grandmother to her and No-Face was like a brother. She missed Kamajii and Boh as well. To Chihiro, Kamajii was like a grandfather and Boh was like her baby brother. Much to Chihiro's dislike, she even missed Yubaba, the witch who owns the bathhouse for spirits. But when it came down to it, she missed Haku more than anything. She loved him with all her heart, and now she couldn't be with him.

Chihiro was lying in bed thinking about the spirit world when she heard a knock on the door. She stood up and walked out of her small white bedroom to the front door. She turned the knob and opened the door to find no one there, instead there was a parcel sitting on the mat in front of her door. The parcel was addressed "To Chihiro Ogino, Parkway Apartments, Room 304." It was from her parents. She brought it inside her room and sat down on her bed before she opened it. Inside was a letter and a framed painting of Haku as a dragon. Chihiro whispered to herself "I painted this a while after I left the spirit world." It looked exactly like Haku so she hung it on her bedroom wall before reading the letter.

'Dear Chihiro,' the letter said 'How are you doing lately? I was rummaging through your closet in search of any old clothes to donate to the shelter, when I found this painting of the dragon you said you saw in your dreams. I framed it and decided to send it to you. You always did have the artistic mind.

Do remember your dreams about this dragon? You used to wake up crying and calling out the name "'Haku.'" It was so sad because you sounded as if this 'Haku' was the most important thing in the world to you. We asked you who 'Haku' was and you'd never give us an answer. Instead, you'd pull out this painting of the dragon and hug it before you started to cry. It was so sad to see you like that.

Your father and I are going on a cruise around the world for a year. We'll send postcards and call once and a while but you won't be able to call us or write to us. We love you Chihiro.

Love,
mother and father.'

Chihiro hugged the letter to herself, remembering all the nightmares she had and still haves about Haku leaving her. She still has nightmares about Haku and sometimes she wakes up crying just like when she was younger.

Chihiro put the letter on the nightstand and went to change into her pajamas before crawling into bed. She pulled the covers over her head before she started thinking. 'What if I never see Haku again? What if he doesn't keep his promise? Was I just some silly human girl that he wanted to get rid of? Was that why he kept trying to send me home?' Chihiro thought. 'It doesn't matter. I will get back and I will live there weather he wants me to or not. If he doesn't want me, I could get a job working for Zeniba. All I can say is that I need to get back there. Weather Haku likes it or not.'

Chihiro fell asleep in her thoughts. She dreamt that she was back in the spirit world and everything was great until Haku told her to leave and he never wanted to see her again. She tried to run to Zeniba but Haku shot a great wind at her that flung her back to her boring and polluted world. All she could do was scream as she was, once again, shut out of the spirit world.

Chihiro woke with dry tears on her face. Yet again, she awoke crying from a dream about Haku. When would these endless nightmares stop? Chihiro pulled on a pair of jeans and a tank top before combing through her hair and having breakfast. She stared at the painting of Haku while she ate her cereal. "I miss you so much Haku," whispered Chihiro. A tear fell from Chihiro's eyes.

Once Chihiro was dressed and ready, she went down for her shift at the restaurant. Her 'uniform apron' was on her hook when she arrived. She pulled it on and grabbed her notebook and pencil from her pocket. Chihiro walked over to a table where a couple sat. "Hello, my name is Chihiro and I will be your server today. What would you like for drinks?" Chihiro asked with a smile. The man and his wife looked perfect together. They held hands across the table as they both ordered coffee. Chihiro wished that she and Haku could one day be married or whatever they did in the spirit world.

Chihiro walked over to the coffee machine and poured two mugs of coffee and then grabbed a basket full of sugar bags and milk cups. She placed the mugs full of coffee and the basket on a tray then carried it over to the couple. She placed a mug in front of each of them and then put the basket in the middle. Chihiro took out her note book and pencil and said "What would you like to order?"

"I will have pancakes and bacon with scrambled eggs," said the man. Chihiro wrote that down before turning to the woman.

"And I will have two slices of toasted and buttered white bread with two fried eggs and bacon," added the woman with a smile. Chihiro wrote down her order before rushing back off to the kitchen. She handed the order to the chef and went to set another table. Once she set the table for another few customers, she went to grab the couples' order. She brought it to them. They thanked Chihiro before she left to clear a table.

The rest of Chihiro's morning and afternoon went the same way; asking people what they want, bringing it to them and cleaning up the tables. At 5:00 p.m. when Chihiro's shift was done, she decided to walk over to the spirit world entrance. She walked through the long hallway and up the hill but wasn't surprised to see that instead of a bathhouse, there was just an endless field of grass. Chihiro sighed and sat down. "Haku!" she yelled "If you can hear me then answer me! Why can I not get through to the spirit world? Please Haku I don't want to live in my world any longer!"

After she vented out all her anger, she walked back to her apartment and put a pot of soup on the stove. Once the soup was cooked, she ate it out of the pot before taking a hot and long shower and curling up in bed in front of the television. Chihiro turned on a random cooking channel but paid no attention to it. Instead she thought about Haku and if he ever even cared about her or if he even missed her. She also started questioning her sanity, because here she was, twenty-one years old, still attempting to go to the spirit world and not moving on in life.

At around 11:00 p.m. Chihiro shut off the television and drifted to sleep. Yet again she had another nightmare about Haku except this time he had asked Yubaba to block the entrance with magic so Chihiro couldn't go back to the spirit world.

Chihiro woke up the next morning gasping and crying. She sat in bed for an hour weeping and sobbing over Haku and her nightmare. Once Chihiro managed to stop crying, she got dressed and ready for work but she couldn't bring herself to eat. She was too disturbed of Yubaba's disposal of her in her dream. Chihiro walked to the restaurant and put on her apron and started a long day at work. Wishing only to go to the entrance and try once again to get through.

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