Sometimes
Sometimes, Sam wonders how they became friends. She and Carly were so different. Sometimes she really would look at Carly and wonder why the other girl didn't just tell her to get out of her apartment and never come back. Like when she sometimes ate all of the pork products in the fridge that weren't actually hers. Or when she screwed up another iCarly broadcast by going off script. Or when she got Carly in trouble for something because she was just too impulsive.
She was lucky to have someone like Carly who put up with her.
Sometimes, though, she wonders why she doesn't just pick up and walk out on Carly. Like every time Carly lectures her for doing something stupid. Or every time Carly gets so caught up in a pretty boy who isn't good enough for her. Or every time she had to work extra hard to convince Carly to do something just a little bit naughty. Sometimes, she wonders why she feels like she works so hard to be good enough for Carly.
Carly was lucky to have someone who put up with her.
And sometimes, Sam hangs out at Carly's even when she'd rather be alone just because she doesn't want to go home. Sometimes it's easier to listen to Carly whine about her day than it is to listen to her mother whine about her day when Sam is in a bad mood. Sometimes it's easier to deal with the nub across the hall bursting in than it is her own next door neighbor who forgets to put on his pants. And sometimes, it's a better idea to stay at Carly's where people love her than it is to spend the night in a big empty house.
Sam was lucky to have somewhere else to go.
There are those sometimes though that she wonders what it would be like to go somewhere else. Just throw a few things in her backpack, buy a bus ticket with her spare change, and go anywhere but here. She's really wondered about it a few times. Instead of going home with Carly after school, or sometimes skipping her court appointed therapy sessions, or even after she has a particularly bad fight with Freddie, she sits at the Greyhound bus station, her backpack in her lap, eating a crappy soft pretzel, and imagines what it's like to be stepping onto the asphalt somewhere new.
Sometimes, she sees guys in board shorts and flip flops, and thinks about the sunny beaches in California. Sometimes, she sees girls in frilly dresses and patent leather shoes and she thinks they might be working the beauty pageant circuit. Sometimes she sees people with cell phones glued to their ears wearing shades of blue and black and she wonders how long a bus ride to New York would really last. Sometimes she hears gossip in lilting accents as people pass her by and she thinks Georgia could be nice this time of year.
Sometimes, she just wants to get up and go. Leave her old life behind. Get the chance to start over.
In the end though, she never does. In the end, Sam gets to her feet and walks to Carly's place.
A/N: Found this little drabble in one of my challenge folders on my laptop. I believe this was a fifteen minute challenge for the word sometimes that I decided not to expand? I don't remember. I haven't written Sam in a while though, so I thought I would post it.