Sailor Moon fanfic (Serena,Darien)

Contains Selfharm and suicidal thoughts (and a bit of Eating Disorder)

Rated M

'Thinking'

''Speaking''

Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon or any of the characters

A/N: This is my first fanfic ever, please leave good or bad feedback, I'm open for criticism. Please tell me if the grammar is bad, English is not my first languish.

Chapter 1

Serena stood in front of the mirror, she hated herself. She thought everything about her was too fat. Her stomach, her thighs, her arms and even her face.

'How could anyone ever like you, just look at yourself!'

She turned away from the mirror and sat down on the floor beside the bed.

Tears from frustration made their way down her cheeks before falling on her lap. She grabbed her box with razorblades from a drawer in the bedside table, picked out the sharpest one and pulled up her skirt.

She cut many times in her frustration.

'Why. Can't. I. Be. Good. Enough. Disgusting. Stupid. Pig.'

When she calmed down she took her bandage and wrapped it around her wounds, put back the razorblades in her drawer and wiped away her tears.

Serena woke up to the alarm.

'Great. School.'

She got up and put on a black long sleeved shirt and a matching skirt and knee socks. She had to hide her cuts on her arms and legs. The skirt barely covered the cuts on her thighs but it was a school uniform so she had to wear it. The bandage was visible so she removed it, she only wore it so she wouldn't get blood everywhere and since everything was dried there was no need for it anymore. She put her hair up in a tight ponytail and looked in the mirror. The only thing she liked about herself was her deep blue eyes and her long golden blonde hair.

She only took a quick glance in the mirror before going to the bathroom, brushing her teeth and then headed for school. Her parents were never home in the morning so it was easy for her to skip breakfast.

She left her home and headed for school, then she noticed the time on her phone.

''Shit. I'm gonna be late.''

She started running but of course like the klutz she was she bumped into someone and fell.

''Watch where you're going meatball hea-...''

Serena sat on the ground and her skirt had ridden up so her cuts were visible.

'Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. He saw them.'

''Serena, what did you do to your leg?'' Darien sounded concerned.

''It was my cat.''

''Serena I'm not stupid, that obviously wasn't your cat. Why would you do that to yourself?''

''Just leave me alone Darien.''

''No. I know I'm always mean to you and make fun of you but I care.''

''Bullshit! Nobody cares! Why would they, I'm just fat, ugly, clumsy, stupid Serena! The world would be so much better off without me!''

Serena tried to storm of but a hand grabbed her wrist and stopped her.

''... I'm so sorry Serena, I had no idea that you felt this way.. Please forgive me for all the mean things I've ever said to you, please just let me help you..''

That's when she saw it, Darien had tears in his eyes.

'Why would he care, I thought he hated me..'

''There's nothing you can do.. I'm already dead inside Darien.''

With that said she walked home again. She just felt like going home and lie in bed for the rest of the day.

Serena sighed.

'What a fucking mess..'