Title: My Dearest
Konichiwa minna-san! Chiisaipunyuru here~~! This will be my first attempt on making a story. This story has been playing on my mind and I want to share it to you..but it's really lazy sometimes to write it. If only I could automatically write my thoughts on paper [ rather type it here], everything would be easier.. teehee`~ Hope you'll enjoy these! ;)
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There will be no definite dates on when I'll update so please bear with me. ^_^
Summary: 12 years have passed but Sakura hasn't forgotten the promise she made years back then with a special friend. Until now, she still waits for him and hopes that he'll come and meet her and be able to fulfill the promise they made. But, as time passes, she slowly forgets his face as her only memory of him is the teddy bear and the pendant he gave her. She can't decide whether to wait for him not knowing until when, though it's causing her pain, or move on with her life, learn to love and forget the promise...
Disclaimer: I don't own CCS or the characters from it. The names aside from the characters from the anime are created by me. The story is originally mine and any similarities or resemblances from other stories are totally a coincidence. Also, the songs that you'll see here AREN'T originally mine and composed by my favourite singers/groups. hehe
Prologue: When the First Love Ends
"Sorry I'm late!"
Sakura rushed open the door to the backstage room where her band mates were preparing their instruments.
"Don't worry Sakura-chan. We've already practiced the songs we're going to play. There are still 15 minutes before our turn." Chiharu replied.
"Here..." Tomoyo said as she handed Sakura a glass of water. "Just rest and relax."
"I'm kinda nervous.. After all, this will be our first performance as a band.", said Rika who's clasping her hands on her mouth.
Ever since the four of them became good friends in Elementary, they planned to form a band. They all have unique skill and talents in their chosen instruments. Rika plays the bass guitar, Chiharu on drums, Tomoyo on keyboard and Sakura the lead guitarist and the vocalist of the band. They all love music and it has been one of the things they enjoy a lot together.
After some minutes, a knock came on the door and a woman in her mid-20's showed.
"Hey girls! You're next. Come on, you can prepare on the stage now. "
And before the woman went off, she said "And good luck on your first performance." She smiled and winked at them.
The girls brought their instruments and went to the stage. Tomoyo, who peered behind the curtains, was a little surprised to see some of their schoolmates on the audience. Sakura and Rika on the other hand were done tuning their guitars. Chiharu, who's already sitting on her place said, "Ready?"
All the girls nodded.
"1,2,1,2,3.."
They started playing their first song. The song was composed by Sakura herself, whom she dedicated for someone..
sagashite bakari no bokutachi wa kagami no you ni yoku niteru kara
mukiau dake de tsunagaru noni fureau koto wa dekinai mama
me wo korashita
te wo nobashita
We who have been searching, we are alike, like reflections in a mirror.
All it takes for us to connect is to face each other, and yet we remain seperated.
I strained my eyes,
I stretched out my hand
Their nervousness wears off as they all feel the song they are playing. They were enjoying and they can see that their audience seemed to like how they perform.
kaseki mitai ni nemutteiru hirakareru no wo machitsudzukeru
ame ga futte
toki wa michite
Deep asleep like a fossil, I await my awakening.
Rain falls,
Time goes by
While singing, Sakura started to think of him.. It's been 12 years and she hasn't seen him. He still hasn't come back..She missed him..
nee boku wa, boku wa shiritai
aisuru tte donna koto?
kimi ga hohoemu to sekai wa sukoshi furuete kagayaita
marude kokyuu suru you ni ugokidashita
Hey I really, I really want to know,
Just what does it mean to love?
When you smile, the world shakes a little and glows,
As if it comes to live and draws a breath
He had promised her..
They promised each other back then. She doesn't know if she'll finally move on and forget the promise or still wait. Yeah, it's just a promise made by them when they were children, but a promise is a promise. She knows that ever since then, she loves him and he loves her. She never thought of loving someone..or anyone.
dare mo mamorenai bokutachi wa neshizumaru machi wo kakedashita
mizu ni natte
kaze ni natte
We who can't protect anyone, we left this half-asleep town behind.
Become the water,
Become the wind
te ni ireru tame ni arasoi ubai aeba munashikute
boku ga sakendemo sekai wa nani mo iwazu ni se wo muketa
marude boku wo tamesu you ni tsukihanashita
How futile it is to fight and rob for the sake of one's desires.
When I shouted it out loud, the world turned its back on me without a word,
It pushed me away as though it was testing me
Forgetting him makes her sad.. but waiting is also painful.
isshun wo
eien wo
hajimari wo
saihate wo
For a moment,
For eternity,
Since the beginning,
Till the furthest ends
The audience, who intently listens to the song, felt the feelings the singer wants to convey. They felt sadness.
In the audience, there were two guys. The other was smiling as he watched his girlfriend who was on the drums while the other, was also watching, not looking at anyone in particular, having a stoic look on his face.
He suddenly asked his friend, "Hey Takashi, where's your girlfriend there?"
"The one on the drums.", Takashi Yamazaki replied pointing to his girlfriend.
Then, Takashi continued, "It's their first time performing here. Mom invited them to," he pointed to his mom who looked really fond of the girls on the stage. Her mother was also in a band during her teenage years and it makes her happy to see them.
Takashi and Shaoran frequently hang here especially because it was Takashi's family who owns this bar. This is a place where bands could perform and people could hang out and chill. Most of the people who hang out here were teenagers in the same age as them.
"Shaoran, I'll just go and get us drinks." Takashi said heading to the counter to get them drinks.
"Sure. Thanks." Shaoran replied.
They were sitting at the back, a little far from the stage. He couldn't quite see the face of the vocalist, who was wearing a cap. 'She's really into it.',he thought as he could feel that she has put all her emotions on the song.
nee boku wa, boku wa shiritai
ikiteku tte donna koto?
boku ga tazuneru to sekai wa sukoshi furuete kagayaita
boku ni nemuru shinjitsu wo ima shizuka ni tokihanatsu
Hey I really, I really want to know,
Just what does it mean to live?
When I ask that question, the world shakes a little and glows.
The truth that sleeps within me is now quietly being released
The song ended.
The audience clapped their hands. They like the song and requested for another one.
Sakura was very happy and she looked and smiled at her band mates and they smiled at her too. She then started, "Um, thank you for listening to our song. By the way, we are the band "Secret Base" and this is our first time to perform." Some of the audience applaud at it. "Our song we just sang is entitled, 'Saigo no Kajitsu' . And now..to our last song.." There were some 'aww' in the audience.
"'Hajimete no Koi ga Owaru Toki'."
hajimete no kisu wa namida no aji ga shita
marude dorama mitai na koi
mihakaratta you ni hassha no beru ga natta
On my first kiss, I felt the taste of tears
It looked like as if it was a love drama
Like it was intended, the bell for departure has rung
tsumetai fuyu no kaze ga hoo o kasumeru
haita iki de ryoute o kosutta
machi wa irumineeshon mahou o kaketa mitai
hadaka no gairoju kirakira
The cold winter wind grazes on my cheeks
I rubbed my hands with the breath I respired
The illuminations in the town, looked like a cast magic
The bare roadside trees sparkle
Shaoran's phone rang. He excused his self from Takashi and went to the rest room.
"Hello?"
"Hello Master Li." An old man said politely.
"Oh, Wei-san. Why did you call?" Shaoran asked on the other line.
"Your mom has just arrived from Hongkong to visit you. She wants to have dinner with you and she has something to talk to you."
"Ok. Tell her I'm on my way now. Thanks Wei"
He hanged up and went back to Takashi.
arigatou sayonara
setsunai kataomoi
ashi o tometara omoidashite shimau
dakara
arigatou sayonara
naitarishinai kara
sou omotta totan ni fuwari
maioritekuru yuki
furetara toketekieta
Thank you, farewell
This painful, unrequited love
If my feet stops, I might remember it
That's why
Thank you, farewell
Because I won't cry
That's what I thought, and then, softly,
The snow falls down
If I touch it, it would've melted away
"Man, I got a call from home. Mom has just arrived and she wants to see me."
"All right. I wish I could have introduced them to you." Takashi said with a little disappointment.
Shaoran didn't answer. He didn't want to meet them nor didn't he want not to meet them.
doushitara watasetandarou
ikuji nashi kowakatta dake
omoide ni naru nara
kono mama de kamawanai tte
sore wa hontou na no?
How could I ever hand it over to you?
I didn't have confidence, I was just scared
"If I would remember these,
Eventually, I wouldn't mind them anymore"
But is that the truth?
"Are you going now?"
"I'll just finish this song. Tell them that they are good for an all girl group. I enjoyed their performance. Tell the vocalist she has a beautiful voice." Shaoran replied.
arigatou sayonara
itsuka konna toki ga kite shimau koto
wakatteta hazu da wa
na no ni
arigatou sayonara?
karada ga furueteru
mousugu ressha ga kuru noni
sore wa ima ni natte
watashi o kurushimeru
Thank you, farewell
Someday this time would come again
I should have understood by then
Even so
Thank you, farewell?
My body is shivering all over
Though the train will come soon
Which is nearing up to the present
It torments me
tsunagaritai
dorehodo negatta darou
kono te wa karappo
nee sayonara tte kouiu koto?
I want to hold hands with you
No matter how much I have wished for it
These hands are empty
Hey, is this really a "farewell"?
And they watched standing on the corridor near the exit. They are waiting for the song to finish as Shaoran's signal to leave.
ikanakucha
sonna no wakatteru
kimi ga yasashii koto mo shitteru
dakara
"...kono te o hanashite yo"
deaete yokatta
kimi ga suki
You have to go
I quite understand that
Even your kindness, I understand it
That's why
"...let go of this hand"
I'm glad I've met you
I love you
The girl closed her eyes as she sang the last lines of the song...'Where could you be?'
arigatou sayonara
hitokoto ga ienai
ima dake de ii watashi ni yuuki o
"ano ne-"
iikaketa kuchibiru kimi to no kyori wa zero
...ima dake wa naite ii yo ne
mou kotoba wa iranai
onegai gyutto shiteite
Thank you, farewell
I won't say a single word
This moment is just fine, the courage, to me
"Hey, you know-"
Lips have stopped in the middle; distance with you was zero
...it's okay for me to cry for now, right?
I don't need any words
Please, embrace me tightly
'If he could only hear my voice...'
rainen no imagoro ni wa
In the next year, around this time
'..I wish you could see me now...'
donna watashi ga ite
What kind of me will be here?
'..and I pray that my song will reach you.'
donna kimi ga iru no kana
What kind of you will be here?
What she didn't know is that that someone is just near her...
-to be continued-
What do you guys think? I'll be needing your reviews if I should continue this or not.. I want to know your reactions and opinions! Comments, suggestions, violent reactions [no, not that.] are all welcome. Just please don't be rude to me. ^^ Check out the songs I put in the story. They're nice songs. Saigo no Kaijitsu was sung and composed by Maaya Sakamoto and Hajimete no Koi ga Owaru Toki was sung by Hatsune Miku and composed by Supercell[ryo] :))