You're eighty-five and she's gone. Its an odd thing you feel this mix of pain and relief. You were being truthful when you'd told her all those years ago that you'd follow her into the dark, but first you have a promise to keep. You tend to hobble along now. Too many years spent in the ring, left your body a little more than broken down. You shrug off Tatum and Holden's help. You need to do this yourself. You take the urn from Paris the grandbaby named after this place.

"Daddy this isn't legal you can't just-" You silence Emmie with a look and step across the bridge Open the urn and things are flash across your mind some little seemingly insignificant things some things well, they define your life.

Taking a hand full of ash you let its slide through your fingers to the river below.

You think of a green eyed fifteen year old girl standing at the bottom of the stairs teasing your little brother…

"Oh my god Bro, How'd you fool some girl into thinking you're cool?" John teased taking the stairs two at a time. "He didn't he cheated off me in math and I made him buy me lunch when we got caught…" she smiled and john felt something, something he didn't want to define. Instead he smiled in return and caught her eye. They were a clear and startling green. "I'm John."

She took his offered hand and shook it. "Chyler Grey."

First kisses and one important winter night all flood back and you smile in spite of the pain.

The girls reach for a handful of ash, Tatum has her face but Embry inherited her heart, her light…It's funny that's what makes you cry, Not that you are dumping your wife into the Seine but that they are their mothers children.

"Bye Mama!" Tatum says. You watch as the gray rains over the black water.

Holden is next. He's humming quietly and you realize the song is one Chyler used to sing it was her favorite "The far side banks of Jordan."

The grandkids pick up and begin to sing, first Canden "But if it proves to be his will that I am first to cross,"

Then Ashton, " And somehow I've feeling it will be when it comes your time to travel likewise don't feel lost."

" For I will be the first one that you'll see." Paris added. Dropping her ashes in.

"See you on the banks of Jordan mama." Decker added letting the ash fall away to the water.

Jaylyn continued the song "And I'll be waiting on the far side banks of Jordan."

The boys, Tony, Ash, Felix and Bennet picked it up "I'll be sitting drawing pictures in the sand."

"When I see you coming I will rise up with a shout and come running through the shallow waters reaching for your hand." The babies Lissette and Jamie finished.

They were all in various stages of crying but it wasn't all that sad mostly because they all knew that it was true, she was waiting on them all.

"But mostly Me…" You think to yourself. All the kids think of this as you're and Chyler's city but to you its always been her city. You were just there for decoration.

You wonder if you should educate the younger generations or just keep it to yourself, Chyler found herself here, you'd found just how deeply you loved her here, gotten married in that huge Château in Nice and honeymooned here, Tatum was born here, you tried to find a way to heal Chyler here, and now your placing her here. In some ways your life was made here.

Its all here and you find yourself not wanting to share it.

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AN: I own nothing but my characters. I used and listened to Johnny & June Carter Cash's "The Far Side Banks Of Jordan." While writing this bit give it a listen it fits the John/Chyler relationship very well. Please read & review!-Meghan