Preface : Only a Memory...
It's like you don't exist at all anymore. You've completely abandoned me, or so that's how I see it, when I most needed you. You're only real when I close my eyes and dream at night. That's the only time I get to spend with 's points when I don't want to open my eyes in the morning in fear of losing you. I don't want to lose you in memory, but in time it will happen. The longer I don't see you, little by little you will fade whether I like it or not. I just wish I was your number one pick and not just second best, left behind when pick number one was all you could have...
I wonder do I ever cross your mind, even if its just a flicker. Do you see me in your dreams? Probably not. You gave me up, you're happy. Me, on the other hand, is stuck. I don't want to suffer in silence over you but I don't want to let you go completely either. Holding on, yeah sure, it might be a waste of my time but you were one thing in my life I never wanted to lose. I would have did anything to keep you if I had the chance. I never had a chance, that was the problem.
Some think you're going to come back. Your not. I know your not. I wish more then anything you would but theres no chance what-so-ever. If I saw you today I would hug you and never let you go. IF. I don't get what I want, and I wanted you most, I wanted you more then I wanted anything. But you dont exist as a person anymore, your only in my memory, where you'll always be.