Yesterday i met the most beautiful guy i've ever seen

It all started when he accedently pushed Lola onto the ground with his big bulging rucksack. I noticed how moist his lips were and just wanted to kiss him but couldn't cause Lola and Jay was there. I ran into him again when i went to Blades to book a hair appointment. I didn't need a hair cut but Abi insisted i go and get one. As much as she nags me i'm happy she made me go as i wouldn't have met him again. Anyways we started talking and he showed me pictures of Men on this app. He knew automatically that i was gay, even though i showed fear deep down i was so happy. Lola called me over and me and her started chatting. I went back to give the guy my number but he was gone. So I put my coat back on and left. I put my hands in my coat pocket and there was this piece of paper. It was his number and he left his Name. His name was Paul. I texted him. We met up in the park i was bricking it. There i was sitting on the picnic table when he showed up. We talked for a few minuets and then i said i fancied him. We talked some more and then he kissed me. Shocked incase Phill Mitchell was around i pushed him off. He then grabbed me by the hand and took me round the corner we passionatly kissed. He was such a great kisser. We kissed for about 10 minuets. We stopped and he said that he wished i had somewhere that we could have went so we could have done more. I said i could make arrangements for the next time. If it wasn't for me being in the closet i would have been down on my knees devouring every tanned inch of his body. He said that he was going to go and that he will see me around. My heart stopped, Not because of him leaving but because of the fact that i may never see him again and that i have to go on living a lie. I know it's my own choice but Phil would kill me if he knew i was Queer as he called it. For that half hour i spent with Paul i felt comfortable. I felt loved. I felt like Me.

Anyway it's getting late and Abi has that Works thingy. Here i go again pretending to be the doting boyfriend.