95. A forbidden desire – ft. Loki, + Odin, Thor & Tony Stark
All his life, Loki had been in Thor's shadow, but of course, the Aesir hadn't just looked down on him for not being a warrior like Thor, or for not being more like your brother, no. The Aesir also looked down on him just for what he was born as – a shapeshifter, never fully satisfied with the way he was made, his base form never enough. Inherently born a magical being, Loki could not- could not, was unable not to use his magic, and for that he was vilified, hated, scorned. He could remember the few hundred years he spent as a woman – it was the closest he came to being whole.
Then, of course, when he had his children, Odin came along and cursed them all, with no care as to how they were his grandchildren, how they were princes and princesses of Asgard.
He tried not to think of them, after. It was painful, and his heart ached. The worst part was when Thor cheerfully boasted about capturing the monsters that Loki had created with his magic – beings borne of magic and twisted for it. Odin forbade Loki from correcting him, and if Loki had disliked his father before, he hated him now. Because of it, the fathers of his children too, hated him. In their eyes he did not defend them, did not care for them or for what Odin had done to them. And that hurt.
It hurt a lot.
Loki didn't like to think of the children, or them – but somehow, when he looked at Tony Stark, he started to remember what it was like to love somebody.
And so he lifted the sceptre, with the intention of turning him to his cause, so he could banish his thoughts or at least have Stark's permission to act on them, without fear of retribution.
It didn't work.