A/N: I'm dedicating this to L.C because she's fed up of my angsty-one-shots. There is more to come, but this is a non-angsty break. R&R:
Someone To Fall Back On:
I'll never be a knight in armour
With a sword in hand
Or a kamikaze fighter
Don't count on me to storm the barricades
And take a stand
Or hold my ground.
You never see inner scars or wounds
I don't wall on coals
I won't walk on water.
Ianto was a perfectly ordinary man. He wasn't amazingly strong, he wasn't fantastically good looking. He wasn't particularly good at anything (except coffee, he excelled at coffee). During confrontations with aliens he wasn't brave, he couldn't willingly use a gun. And he was sensitive, so someone could get to him pretty easily. He liked things a certain way but he didn't complain or make fuss if they weren't that way.
I am no prince
I am no saint
I am not anyone's wildest dream
But I will stand behind and be
Someone to fall back on
He knew one thing for certain; he loved Captain Jack Harkness. During everything he'd seen while working for Torchwood nothing was ever certain, nothing was ever clear. This Ianto was clear of. He loved Jack. He felt they complimented each other. While Ianto was an open book, Jack was closed. While Jack was brave and outgoing, Ianto was more shy and nervous.
Some comedy, you're bruised and beaten down
And I am the one who's looking for a favour
Still honestly, you don't believe me
but the things are have
are the things you need
Ianto leaned on Jack a lot. Sometimes he was barely even aware that he was doing it. He was so used to Jack being there and being strong. There was times though, when Ianto looked at Jack and was sure he just wanted to cry or scream or both. It was times like that that Ianto felt like crying too. He hated seeing his Jack hurting. His Jack. It was funny how Ianto thought of him and "his Jack" he didn't think Jack would ever truly be anyones.
You look at me like I don't make sense
Like a waste of time
Like it serves no purpose
I am no prince
I am no saint
And if that's what believe you need
you're wrong
You don't need much
You need some onto fall back on
When Ianto thought of Jack, he thought he needed some sort of certainty. He needed someone who was always there. He didn't need some fabulous prince who could protect him, Jack didn't need protecting. He needed something much more simpler than that. He needed someone to be there and understand. Ianto was that person, he would be there for as long as he could be. He'd always catch Jack if he fell.
And Ill be that:
Ill take your side.
If I'm the only one,
I'm used to that.
I've been alone,
Id rather be
The half of us,
The least of you,
The best of me.
And I will be
Ianto never planned to fall in love again. After Lisa he couldn't see it ever happening. At the time he didn't want it to happen. Now tat it had he didn't wish he wasn't in love. He truly couldn't imagine not being with Jack. Even though their relationship was complicated. He didn't care about that, he only cared about Jack
I'll be Your prince,
I'll be your saint,
I will go crashing through fences
In your name. I will, I swear -
I'll be someone to fall back on!
I'll be the one who waits,
And for as long as you'll let me,
I will be the one you need.
I'll be someone to fall back on
Ianto felt stronger around Jack. He felt like there was nothing he couldn't accomplish as long as Jack was around. He would do anything for Jack. He hated violence but would personally tear apart anyone who tried to hurt Jack.
Someone to fall to back on
But most importantly, he'd be there for Jack to lean on, for whatever reason. He'd be strong for his Jack.
One to fall back on
He just hoped Jack knew this because he certain wasn't brave enough to tell him.