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Today
Today is a day
Like any other day
Today is the day
Different from any day
Today is my day
A sad day
A happy day
A day
And nothing more
Different, same
We are all different
We are all the same
We are opposites
We are the joy
We are the sadness
We are love
We are hate
We are everything
And nothing
We are living
We are destroying
But no matter what
We are we
And nothing more
Random
Life
Order
Victory
Enjoyment
Anger
Never
Dies
Without
It
We
Will
Never
Be
Completely
Human
Grey and Straight un-straight lines
Life isn't always
Black and white
There's also grey
There isn't always
A straight line
It wavers here and there
Sometimes, though
It takes a love
On both sides
To see that
Life isn't black and white
There isn't a straight line
That sometimes to live,
To love
You must
Understand
Grey and
Lines waver here and there
My Fear
Pain……
….
Sadness……
Loss…….
Fear…..
Here they come
Up goes the mask
Mask of
Fun….
Happiness….
And love…..
No one can know
No one can tell
Sometimes I wish
I wish….
They knew
My loss…..
My pain…..
My fear…..
Everyone sees
Me as a
Rude
Secure girl
There to help others
But
What no one sees
Is me
A sad
Small, insecure girl
Trying
To keep others away
Away from pain
I can't let them
Can't let them see, feel
My pain
My mistakes
Everyone sees
Me
Or
What they think
Is me
Who, what, when, where, why, how?
What?
What are they looking at?
Why?
Why are they laughing?
Who?
Who are they pointing at?
Where?
Where are they going?
How?
How can they leave me here to die?
When?
When did they become like this?
Silver Pool
It swirls around
Around
A silver pool
Masked in a mist
No one can see through
No one tries to see
Just mark it off
Like it's not really there
It rests
In you and me
It grips
The heart and soul
With it
Destruction comes
But
Still it is blown off
To others
It's not really there
But is it?
Is it there?
Is it not?
Can we tell?
Can we not?
There are ways to see
Through the mist
We just haven't found them yet
Till then it will
Spin around
Around
Anyone there?
Hello?
Is anyone there?
Can anyone hear me?
Are you here?
Can you hear me?
Can you help me?
No.
No one can.
For
There is no one there.
Alone
Dark
Cold
Sad
Fear
Pain
What are these?
These are alone.
Alone in darkness
Alone in the cold
Alone in the sadness
Alone in the pain
Alone is the fear
Alone
No one is there
No is here
No one can save you
Save you from…..
Alone
What is warmth?
Warmth
Is love
Warmth
Is friendship
Warmth
Is you and me
Warmth
Fills my heart
More
With one
There is more
Never can
There be one
Warm, wet
A falling storm
A storm
That starts
With one
A storm
Of tears
It only
Needs one
For with one
There will always be
More
Beautiful Brown Eyes
Everyone has a reason
A reason to live
A reason to hope
A rock in the storm
My reason
Has beautiful brown eyes
They show everything
His hope
His laughter
His happiness
His love
They show his emotion
They show everything that I am not
My heart aches
Knowing that no matter what
No matter how hard I try
He will never be mine
Without knowing
Those beautiful brown eyes
Are my rock
The place
I can lose myself in
And now matter what he will
Never
Know
Today I shall die
My head rocks
My feelings crash
Blood pours from my chest
My heart has broken
You have killed me
The pieces fall
Hitting the ground
Hitting your feet
All you can do is stare
You never meant to
You never tried
Tell that to someone
Who actually believes
Every minute you are here
I die
Again
Again
And again
For today I have died
Half of Me
Half of me is gone
Half of me is here
Half of me is happy
Half of me is in despair
Half of me is you
Half of me is me
When I look in the mirror
I only see half of me
Am I me
When half of me is gone
And half of me is here
Holiday time
Noise
Laughter
Bustling
Last minute shopping
Mistletoe hangs
Atop the ceiling
Kissing couples
Hugging friends
Families together
Around the table
Receiving gifts is
Not as good as giving them
On the morning
The children come
Running down
Paper thrown
Squeals of delight
Thanks for you
Christmas
Is special
And
So are you
For me
Die
For me
Like I would for you
Care
For me
As if you love me
Be
My friend
Even when the world ends
Hold
Me tight
During the storm
Do
As though
I would for you
Just
Never ever
Leave me
If
You do
My heart would be gone
For I have given it
To you