Mr. Brightside
Chapter 1:Decision
"Sam is it normal to imprint on someone in the pack?" I ask.
"No. It's not normal, in fact I've heard of it. But I guess it can end up like that" Sam answers. "Why?"
"Just curious" I answer. "But what if one member of the pack imprint on another member but that member imprint on somebody else?"
"I'm not sure but I don't think that can happen" Sam says.
"Okay" I say.
He's wrong. That can happen. I mean, it happened to me.
I imprinted on Jared, the tall muscular, russet skinned, dark haired, totally hot werewolf in my own pack.
I wasn't gay before, but when I saw him... it just said click. The only problem is that he imprinted too. But on Kim the not so beautiful girl with brown hair, brown eyes, nothing special.
Why couldn't it be on me? I love him so much! I've been hiding me feelings and my thoughts, when I'm all wolfy, for months now. I can never let my guard down, 'cause if I do something might slip and then somebody might understand my feelings for Jared are more than the feelings one brother has for another.
"Are you okay?" Sam asks me.
I look around and I can't see any of the others. Oh shit the meeting is over.
"I..." I say but cut myself of when I change my mind. "No. I'm not okay. I can't do this anymore."
With that I run out of the house and just run, although I can hear Sam calling my name. I don't care, he can call my name as much as he wants I won't listen. I just want away! I can't stay around anymore. It kills me to see him with her. Kissing her. Laughing with her. Comforting her when she cries. I want to be the one in his arms! It should be me! I hate her!
Imprinting should be a happy thing but because of her it isn't to me. To me it's not something happy, it's a bad thing, an unhappy thing. She ruins my life.
Why couldn't he imprint on me? I mean, what will I do now? I can't stand being near the two of them so I can't just be friends with him and I can't be like a brother to him. I want to be his lover. I can't be away from him either. It hurts just like it hurts to be near him with her.
Why is love so hard? Why does it hurt to love? Isn't that wrong?Love shouldn't hurt. It should be an amazing thing. It shouldn't make people consider suicide.
I'm considering suicide. I can't be his lover since he doesn't want me. I can't just be his friend because it hurts to much to see them together. I can't be like his brother because it hurts and I want so much more. I can't just leave either because that would hurt and I'm a werewolf I have to protect La Push and the people who live here. Death is the only option that doesn't hurt, not for long at least.
But what will the others think? How will my family react? Will they understand? Will they forgive me? Will they blame him? My sister knows about my feelings for Jared. Will she blame him? If she does will she ever forgive him? Will she forgive me? For being weak, giving in, taking the easiest way out. Will she ever be able to forgive me?
What will they tell my mum? She'll be heart broken. I don't want to 'cause my mum pain. But it's her or me, and this time I choose her. I usually try to take away her pain but this time I'd rather take away my own pain. I know I'm being selfish but... I can't take this anymore!
How did I end up here? I don't mean this situation I mean how did I end up on this cliff? It looks a lot like the cliff we cliff-jump from but the difference is that at the foot of this cliff there's no water. The cliffs down there are hard and brownish. If you hit your head on them, you'll die instantly. the trees around me should make it hard to get here so it should be pretty hard to come and stop me.
If I jump I'd finally get away from all this pain. I wouldn't have to see them together anymore. But I wouldn't be able to see my sister again or my mum. It would hurt them so much. But I can't go on like this. It's so easy. Just one more step and I'd fall and when I hit the ground I'd be free. I wouldn't have to hurt anymore. Just one step.
"What are you doing? Come back here!" Jared shouts from behind me and comes out of the forest.
I freeze with my left foot in the air over the gap. Just one more step...
"Don't do it man. think about your mum., she won't be able to survive another loss" he says. "She won't be able to handle the pain."
"What do you know about pain?" I whisper. "You don't know anything about pain!"
"What?" Jared asks surprised. "You've never been hurt. you haven't seen the person you love runaway with some..." I say and cut myself off.
I can feel Jared's eyes on me and I can almost hear all the questions he has.
"Seth..." Leah says and comes out of the forest.
I turn around and look at my sister. She's wearing the shorts I bought her.
"Seth..." she starts.
"I can't do it Leah. I can't stand it. It hurts so much. This is the only way out. I have too" I whisper.
If she didn't have her werewolf super hearing she wouldn't have heard me. But she has it and she gets tears in her eyes as she starts singing:
"I'm coming out of my cage And I just can't look its killing me I'm coming out of my cage Cause I just can't look its killing me I never...
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside
I never...
I never...
I never..."
"Leah I'm sorry. I can't do this. Not even if you sing my favorite song. It doesn't help" I say with tears in my eyes. "I'm sorry."
"Please Seth don't do it" Leah begs.
"Leah..." I start but she cuts me off.
"I'll kill her if that's what you need" she says. "Nobody breaks my brothers heart and gets away with it . I'll do whatever it takes to make you happy again."
"Leah. Nothing can make me happy now" I answer with tears rolling down my face.
"Seth, please. We'll talk to Sam and work something out. We'll work this out. I promise. We'll do this together" Leah says and walks closer to me.
"You promise?" I ask.
"Yes, I promise. I'll do whatever it takes" she says and reaches out her hand to me. "Come on. We're in this together."
I hesitantly take her hand and she spins us around, while hugging me, so that she's by the cliff-edge instead of me.
"Let's get out of here" Quil says.
When did he get here? And when did the others come?
"Yeah, let's go" Leah says and takes my hand and we start walking.
A phone starts ringing and Jared picks up.
"Hey baby" he says with a goofy grin.
I stop walking and so does Leah.
"I'm sorry Seth. It'll be better when we've talked to Sam" she says.
"I love you Kim" Jared says.
"No it won't" I say and look at her before leaning down and kissing her forehead. "I'm sorry Leah. I love you."
Then I turn around and run, and I don't stop when I come to the cliff-edge. I just keep running, straight out into the thin air.
And the I start falling.
"SETH!!!!" Leah shouts.
I open my eyes when I feel something soft and warm against my arm. It's Leah. What is she doing?!
"We're in this together" she says and somehow we manage to get a hold on each others hands.
Then gravity finally win the fight about our lives.
A/N: This is... new.
I hope you like it. If you do or if you don't or if you have any questions, review. I answer to all reviews (Signed. Can't reply otherwise)
Song is 'Mr Brightside' by The Killers.
I'll update a chapter two soon and that's the same thing but it's from Leah's pov.
Anyway, review and tell me what you think =)
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Miss Ginny Weasley