Notes: So I been working on this for awhile. I haven't really wrote a lot of fanfiction before I had a story I posted on a different site but it was a hot mess and I ended up deleting it. I might try to fix it sometime later but I think I just lost my passion for it, but this story I really like. I don't have any plan of pairing her with a relationship at the moment. So yeah this is basically a rewrite of TWD if Shane had a daughter. I miss Shane and would had loved to see how he would have handled Negan. I'll try to update every Sunday. Enjoy the new episode of TWD tonight 3 Any who please tell me what you think and let me know if i need to fix something. This is the first time I wrote something on this site so please be nice. Update: I started this story at the end of February, how ever life got to me and I took a long break, I am back though and hope to work more on this story!
Amber's P.O.V
I was sitting by the tents reading another book. My dad was always complaining that all I ever did was read books or kill walkers but he wasn't complaining when I made my own water filter or when I kicked walker ass. I may be only 16 but I wasn't going to hide away like Hershel's daughter Beth. I was going to survive and keep my family alive. I was used to taking care of my father so this was no different except for the fact that my family now consists of mainly strangers and the fact that My father and Uncle Rick were both in love with Lori. I lost respect for my Dad when I found out what he did. I mean I love my Dad and I got his back but he knows that I hate what he has done. Which is why I got to watch him even closer, I can't have him starting more trouble. I was just about to turn the page of my book when Glenn asked for everyone's attention. I could tell whatever he had say it wasn't going to be good. God isn't a little too early for Bullshit!?
"Guys, umm.. So there.. The barn is full of walkers!"
That really changed the mood. My dad flipped the hell out and I couldn't really blame him I mean these people were so screwed up that they were hanging on to walkers because they thought they could fix them. Part of me was angry that no one told us but the other part of me felt sad that this family held onto these walkers. My dad wanted to get rid of the threat, I really couldn't blame him, I mean what other choice did we have. Trying to calm my dad down wasn't going to be easy but everything really went to shit when Rick came out with Hershel walking a walker like a fucking dog.
"What the hell Rick! Walking a Walker like a dog isn't helping the problem. We're trying to fucking get rid of these things, not keep collecting them like baseball cards."
"Amber-"
"No Rick! Dad's right we gotta do something! These walkers aren't going to evolve like Pokemon. If we don't kill them, then we get the hell out of here but filling the barn up with more of these fuckers isn't going to help."
My dad looked at me and gave me a gun. I guess he chose to kill the fuckers. I stared at the gun. I mean I don't have a problem with shooting them but I saw the way this family looked at the walkers. I don't think this is the way to handle it.
"Dad stop, let this go you can't do this. It isn't right"
"Amber I didn't raise you to be soft like this. You know this is what we gotta do."
"No we leave, we get outta here and go, they still think this is their family, we can't just shoot them up."
"Their family is gone whether they want to believe it or not. You do what you want Amber but I'm going to do what has to be done."
I saw my dad run up and start trying to break the lock. I couldn't stop him. I got my gun ready and got Lori and Carl out of the way. I heard Rick keep yelling at Hershel to take the pole but Hershel was in shock, he knew what was going to happen. I didn't have to time to feel sad. God knows how many of them were in there. I didn't want to have to shoot their family. I wasn't going to shoot any of them unless I had too. It wasn't because I was scared, it was because this was wrong. I quickly shot the walker in the pole as the walkers started busting out of the barn. I watched as the walkers went down. I stood there seeing Maggie crying and Hershel shedding tears. I thought it was over until another growl came and then the mood really changed.
"Sophia!" Carol screamed and started to cry.
Everyone was silent. Even my dad stopped. Sophia got closer and closer but no one was doing anything. Everyone was in shock but I had to do something or someone else was going to die. I got my gun and I shot her in the head. She fell to the ground. Everyone looked at me but I just stared at Sophia. I had to kill walkers before but I never had to kill a walker I knew. I was angry that Sophia was gone. I saw Beth start running down. I couldn't imagine what she is going through. She wasn't like us, she just saw her Mom and Brother and friends gunned down. I watched as she grabbed for her Mother but then her mother eyes snapped open. I quickly grabbed beth and pulled her to safety. While my dad shot the woman in the head.
After everything that happened I didn't feel like sticking around much longer I went back to my tent and picked up my book. I saw my dad walking up to me.
"Amber You okay I-
"Dad stop I'm fine. I did what had to be done. She was gone that thing I shot wasn't Sophia it was a walker that had to die. Sophia wasn't the creature that came out of that barn. She was a little girl that is now gone and there is nothing I can do about it except move on and keep surviving."
He just nodded and walked away
I wish my dad would have let it go but he continued to start a fight with Herschel. I knew my Dad would probably have to leave soon so I got ready to go with him. My Dad could be an asshole sometimes but I loved him and always will have his back. So if he had to go I was going with him. He knew that too. I didn't want to go but if my dad left then I was going too. Everyone was kind of in a shitty mood after what happened. I can't blame them I was in one too. Rick and Glenn went to find Maggie's dad because Beth was in shock with everything that happened. They still weren't back and I could see lori tense up. I saw her walk over to Daryl, I decided to follow I wasn't going to let her do something stupid. Daryl was pretty angry and Lori asking him for help really made him explode. I knew he was grieving but Lori was like a mother to me and I felt like I had to protect her.
I grabbed her hand and pulled her away
"Lori Rick is fine you know that right?"
"They should be back by now, I have to go get him."
"That's the last thing you need to do, you don't know what's out there and you know Rick would tell you to wait."
"Would you wait if your Dad was out there?"
"Lori that's different-
"No it's not! He is my husband, I got a gun. I'm going"
"Trust me on this, Carl needs you, don't risk Carl losing both of his parents. Rick is going to be here soon and you will be here waiting with Carl when he does."
She nodded her head and walked to Carl and gave him a hug.
Soon Glenn, Rick, and Hershel were back with a hostage. Everything just got worse and worse. My Dad again was fighting with Hershel. I know why Hershel was mad at Dad but what my dad was saying made sense. I mean bringing a hostage was probably not the best move but it was already done and getting upset about it wasn't going to help. My dad ended up yelling at everyone again. So again I had to handle another mess.
"Dad, Hershel is right you need to calm down. You're right it was probably a bad move but it is already done so we got to roll with it. But Dad is right we are not letting him go, that would just be plain stupid. We can't afford to be stupid anymore."
"It's not up to you or your dad, they left him, he is no longer a threat"
"Hershel that is the stupid I am talking about. He isn't a threat? So you would trust him with Beth and Maggie? If you play stupid we are going to have to pay the price. Stupid gets you killed. "
I didn't have time to wait for response I was going to take care of this threat myself. Rick might be mad but he will thank me in the long run. I went out to the car but he was gone. Everyone saw the empty car and immediately panicked but I started following the blood trail. This guy couldn't have got far and I was going to find him.
"So Hershel is he still not a threat?" I said with all the bitterness i could
"Look let's just find him"
"Why you were going to let him go anyway"
"He is going to die, if we don't help him"
"Or he is going to go back to his group and tell them about us right before he dies."
"I doubt he would do that. The group left him, betrayed him."
It took me everything I had not to slap some sense into Hershel
"Well if he didn't care about his group why did he leave? He knew he would die leaving so why risk his life for no reason?"
Hershel said nothing, he realized I was right. Instead of saying anything I grabbed my gun. I didn't care what Hershel said I was finding his mistake and killing it before it killed us. My dad and Rick came with me. I paused to hand my dad his guns. I looked at Rick
"If you come, know that we are killing the fucker whether you want to or not, so if you don't agree you can stay here and pretend it never happened or you can grow balls and realized he should of died the whole entire time."
I could tell rick wasn't expecting me to say anything, no one was but I had enough of this bullshit and it was about time I ended it so I did.
Lori decided to pipe in
"You can't tell Rick what do to. We tried to do a good thing that doesn't make him the bad guy."
"Yeah because the bad guy is on the run! Rick's do good decision put us all at risk, we can't always do the good thing anymore, this is a whole different world, one that makes one bad choice deadly."
My dad looked at me with a look, like he was proud but concerned at the same time
"Amber you should stay behind"
"What? Dad I might just be the only one here that has the guts to kill him"
"Hey I am your dad and you will listen to me, we need someone strong to keep watch. I will take care of him."
"Fine" I was tired of fighting with him
I walked away as my dad and rick went out
I watched everyone look at me like I was some circus freak
"Is there a reason why you guys are staring at me?"
No one wanted to speak up but finally Hershel cleared his throat
"You're just a kid, more important a human. You shouldn't be so thrilled to take a life. It just isn't right."
"If any of you paid attention I'm not a kid I haven't been one in a long time. I didn't have time to be one because I had to take care of myself and my father. Now i have to take care of all of you. You think I was thrilled? No i didn't want to kill but it needed to be done and no one else stepped up to do it. Just like with Sophia, you think I wanted to put her down? Well I didn't but if i didn't step up one of you wouldn't be here."
No one said anything I didn't give them a chance. I was tired of this. I was tired of no one being thankful. I was tired of the complaining the most. Yeah life sucked but you learn to adapt and move on. I picked up my book and went back to reading. I was done saving the day. I didn't need that kind of stress right now. I read until I heard My dad come back. They brought Randall back blindfolded and ready to be tortured for information about his group. I wasn't going to lie is wasn't the dumbest thing as long as he didn't run again.