Disclaimer- I do not own The Outsiders

Someone gave me an idea for a story and I just had to try it. it was very hard, but very fun to write.

Warnings : This has Slash, sexual content, angst, and a weird pairing.

There will be multiple Ponyboy pairings in this story.

Cherry hurt him. She said she loved him and he believed her. He loved her, he really did. He thought she was different from the others. She was the first Soc to look at him and see him as a human being, not trash. She talked to him, she watched sunsets, and stuck up for the greasers.

He thought she was different, but he should have known better. The gang warned him, hell everyone did, but he just wouldn't listen. He was too blinded by love to see the truth. Cherry was a Soc, a beautiful, rich girl, while Pony was a dirty, no good for nothing greaser. They never had a chance.

She used him, then left him just like Sandy had left Soda, except Cherry didn't run away to Florida after she found out she was pregnant with another guys baby, she just left him for a Soc, her own kind.

She was no better than any of them. She left him broken hearted and he didn't know what to do, except go to Buck's and drown out his sorrows with alcohol.

It's not like him, he usually doesn't do this kind of thing and Darry will have his head if he finds out, but he just couldn't think straight.

"Hey, baby Curtis, what are ya doin' here?" Tim Shepard asked as he sat down beside him at the bar.

Ponyboy was on his sixth beer and boy could he feel it, the whole place was spinning outta control, but it still wasn't enough, he could still feel the heart ache, he needed more beer, lots and lots of more beer.

"Shay dumped meh and threw meh like I was nothing, but traaash." Pony slurred with raw emotion.

Tim wasn't surprised; he just simply stared at him with his hard eyes.

"Everyone tried to warn ya kid, but ya just wouldn't listen."

Tears welled up in Pony's eyes. He tried to blink them away, embarrassed and ashamed that he was crying in front of Tim, he was one of those people you couldn't cry in front of. He was another Dallas Winston.

"I know, but I loved her, Tim…I-I still do…But I was just to blinded to see the truth…Shay never really loved meh."

He took a big gulp of his beer bottle, before he let out a loud, shaky, sorrow filled breath.

"I-I just don't know what else to do. I just want the pain to go away. I can't take it…Another heart break. First I lost meh parents, then two of meh best buddies, and-and now the love of my life! Who's going to be next? Darry? Sodapop? The people I love leave meh one way or another…And-and I just can't take it."

The tears he been holding in finally fell silently as his lips began to tremble.

"I can't take the feeling of being alone."

Tim studied the younger boy for a second, before he spoke up.

"You're never alone kid. Ya have your lovin' older brothers, Twobit, and even if ya don't believe it, ya have Steve, me, Curly, and Angela too. Ya have more people care about ya, than any other greaser does. Yup, ya had a lot of shitty things happen to ya, but that doesn't make ya alone."

Pony looked right in Tim's hard eyes with his teary, sorrow filled eyes.

"T-then why do I feel like it?"

Tim leaned forward, he was so close that Pony could feel his hot breath on his lips and smell the alcohol on his breath.

"I know how to get rid of the feeling, at least for tonight, by ya gotta trust me."

Pony almost wanted to laugh. Tim was one person you could not trust and Pony was not stupid enough to trust him, but right now he was so vulnerable and drunk, and just wanted all the mixed up emotions to disappear…And if Tim had a quick fix for him, even if it was just for tonight, he would take it, he would take as much as he could get.

"Ok, what do you have in mind?"

He was answered with hot lips crashing into his and a tongue slipping in, exploring his mouth. Pony closed his eyes and kissed back, sliding his tongue along Tim's. Tim sucked on Pony's tongue hard, making Pony whimper and clutch onto him. Tim pulled Pony onto his lap. Pony wrapped his arms around his neck and his long legs around his waist. Tim started to grind his hips into Pony's roughly, making Pony whimper loudly into the deep kiss they shared and grind back.

After, a couple minutes of that, hips stilled, and they broke away from their heated kiss, panting.

Tim wrapped his arms around Pony's waist, so he could grab Pony's ass roughly with both hands. Pony jumped a bit in surprise.

Tim stood up with Pony still clung onto him and went up the stairs. Their clothes were off before they made it to the bed.

Tim took him to a place he's never been before. Of course he had sex with Cherry before, he lost his virginity to her, but he's only ever been with her. He's never been with another guy, was never the one being entered into. It hurt, it hurt a lot, but it was amazing, so fucking amazing.

That night Pony told himself he needed to start trusting Tim more, because all the sorrow, all the mixed up emotion, all the thoughts about Cherry were gone…The feeling of being alone was gone…At least for one night.