Meditations on the Code
Summary: Five Jedi ponder the lines of the Code, and its relation to their lives- and loves. Series of drabbles. Siri-Wan, Qui/Tahl, and Anakin/Padme.
Disclaimer: Star Wars, Jedi Apprentice, these characters, ect. are not mine, blah blah blah.
I: Obi-Wan
A/n: So, how it works is this. I have the five Jedi, and I have the five lines of the Code. Coincidence? Me no think so. So, I assign each line of the Code to the Jedi they fit most, and I use that line, along with the theme of love, to write the drabble. This first chapter is in Obi-Wan's POV, set sometime towards the end of the first part of Secrets of the Jedi (when he and Siri are Padawans).
There is no emotion, there is peace.
Obi-Wan had accepted this and the other tenets of the Code since he was a youngling, never questioning the wisdom of the Masters of generations ago. But now, for the first time in his life, he wondered if maybe they were wrong.
Without emotion, how could life exist? Was not compassion- essential to the life of a Jedi- an emotion in itself? Surely the Masters had known that emotion could bring happiness as well as pain. And perhaps, in the end, the happiness was worth the pain.
Ever since he had returned to the Order after Melida/Daan, Obi-Wan had striven to be a model Jedi. But he was in love with Siri Tachi. And the Jedi did not fall in love. Yet… he could not help it. Yes, it was forbidden, but he was not breaking the rules out of malice or spite. He was doing so because to not do so would tear him in two.
But Obi-Wan knew, deep inside, that this could not continue. That they would have to make a choice- each other, or the Order. The necessity of the choice was undeniable… yet to abandon one for the other was unthinkable.
There is no emotion, there is peace.
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