Mother Figure
Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Basket. I wish but I do not.
She is like a mother to me. At first I thought it was love but I must have realize that Tohru is like the mother I had always wanted. She made me feel loved and made me becoming more trusting. She change me, she helped me to be the way I am now. I thank her for that.
But if she was like a mother, then why do I have this deep feeling in my chest when I see her? My heart races when I see her. My palms get sweaty and I can't help but smile. I want to be with her more, I want her to smile. To smile at me, I want to be the reason why she smiles.
But I see her with that stupid cat, Kyo, and I just get this pit of rage. I feel like the kid that sees his mother with a new boyfriend when they are together. My chest just hurts and my throat closes up. I hate how she smiles at him, and how natural she is. Why can't it be like that with me?
I wish I could make her as happy and as proud as he does. He doesn't have to even try to make her smile. I have to try my hardest too. Like when I gave her the ribbon from White Day. I looked and looked for just the right present for her. When I gave it to her, I poured my heart and soul into the ribbon just to see her smile like that. If I could make her smile like that every day of my life, it would be complete.
I love her laugh, I love the way she worries. I love the way that she puts other people's problems before her own, though that one does bother me some. I love how she is always happy, even after all that has happened to her. I love her, I love her.
I guess she really isn't like a mother figure to me after all.