Chapter 1

It was a normal day at the phantomhive mansion. Sebastian had just made breakfast. Pluto was sleeping and ciel had told Sebastian to take the day off. It had been the one day he's allowed per month.

He stood in his quarters staring out his window, reflection unseen. Gently he removed his gloves and ran his tan hand through his silky raven hair. Soon he'd have a meal worthy of the gods…of hell. He smirked at the thought, placing his hand on the crimson curtains that adorned his room.

He longed for more, he may be one "hell "of a butler but he still was a demon. Vermin, scum…foul beings and he wanted to be more. As much as he "despised" the red headed shinigami he envied him. For he had power, a life that he, Sebastian Michaelis, could never own

The sky was crying, or so it seemed. Grabbing his jacket he stepped out into the cold. Reflecting on his life and realized that he wanted to love…more than anything. Was he truly incapable of such feats? Truly a beast bound by his hunger? He was going to try…trying and proving everyone wrong. Though playing with your food is considered improper, was there anything proper about a demon?

That night Sebastian undressed and dressed ciel for bed and lifted his candles.

"Is there anymore need of my services?"

"No you may leave"

"As you wish" he left quietly as he walked to his room. He had about 5 hours to lie in his bed before the morning's preparations. He lit the candles in his room and bathroom staring into the mirror as he undressed. Thoughts overwhelmed him. He placed his hand over his heart and felt it beat. The life he had was fake. Standing there now in only his pants he looked deeply into the mirror.

Deep down he wanted the façade to be real all the way. The smooth skin beneath his hand was warm-empty. He was whatever his master had wanted him to be, so why wasn't he like this on his own? Unbound he had no thoughts like a humans or like these now…did he? He splashed cold water on his face and looked back in the mirror. He was going to take a chance.

About two hours into his sleep he began to feel strange emotions and even awoke from the strangest dream.

"What is this" he ran his hands through his hair trying to find his breath again.

"SEBAS-CHAN!" he knew that voice. Quickly he lit his candles and looked around the room, empty. That voice echoed in his head, the accursed dream. He laid on his side facing the candles for a while, he remembered the touch, the lingering scent "why" he thought.

"Sebastian" came a soft tired voice. Sebastian rolled over and propped himself up on un-sleeved arms.

"Yes my lord?" he answered

"I can't um…I-uh can't sleep" Sebastian slid up to a sitting position and motioned for ciel to sit on the bed.

"Nightmares? Or perhaps-weakness?" Sebastian chuckled a little. Ciel, being half asleep didn't recognize the taunt.

Sebastian looked over to the window and at the lighted clouds thunder rumbled softly as he felt a weight come over him. He tossed backed into reality he looked down. The small boy had passed out and fell onto Sebastian's lap. Sebastian smiled and laid ciel next to him and placed the blanket over his body. He had sensed a storm coming.

He looked over at the figure beside him…earl ciel phantomhive. Gently he ran his hand over ciels' head, closing his eyes and taking in the moment. Surely this would never happen again.

"Sebastian..." he opened his eyes to the warm lit room and then down at his master. He was about to get up to start his daily preparations

"y-yes?" he stopped

"Don't leave" ciel grabbed Sebastian's arm and slightly opened his eyes.

"I have to ma-"

"No, you don't" ciel held on tighter.

"Yes my lord" Sebastian smirked and laid back o his pillows. "Maybe he'll laugh" he thought. "What a lovely spice"

And as fast as he laid down he felt ciel places his arm on his chest and move closer

"Young master?"

"Don't worry yourself" ciel replied.

They laid there in the darkness and silence as the candles burned down. Their steady breathing calmed Sebastian, both drifting to sleep.

Sebastian didn't understand his or his master's emotions. Ciel had become dependant on him, in more ways than one. Ciel only laid with Sebastian, but his emotions called for more than Sebastian could give him, as a demon and butler. He began to enjoy this need, he was being wanted even as a demon.

Soon Sebastian realized that ciel was possibly using him beyond the contract, building a bond so he couldn't break it. Sebastian had to either accept it or break it. He couldn't break it…that would only hurt his young master more. Not until the end.