Feelings Change

Disclaimers Note: Anything that you may recognize is obviously not mine, but the lovely J.K. Rowling's who I wish I could be:) Oh, and this is not going to change anytime soon, so .. sorry!

A/N: This is my fourth story, I hope you like this. Unlike some of my other new stories ( Meant to be together? And Switching Places) I don't think I will be abandoning this one nor will I even think of abandoning my baby, Harry's Secret Admirer.

There are many special events that will take place in this story. So make sure you keep your eyes open! I plan to finish this and then make a sequel so there will be much more of this in store! Please read and review, I would really appreciate it! Reviews always encourage me and give me reason to write. Flames are welcome as long as you have reason behind why you are upset. Constructive critizism is also welcome, and aspiring writer needs to be told what's right, and what's wrong.

Much love,

Lissy

Chapter 1

Loving and Hating

It was early afternoon and Professor McGonagall was doing nothing other than rambling about werewolves. How the moon affects them and the process they go through during transformations. Though James train of thought was nowhere close to werewolves, it was all focused on the girl in front of him. He sat with his quill loosely wobbling in one hand and his chin lazily rested on the other as he stared at the love of his life; Lily Evans.

She sat there, never knowing of his constant staring. Her long red curls fell teasingly down her back in front of him. He had always watched her, and always had loved her since the first day he laid eyes on her. The love for her started the very second his begging did, the very second she hated him.

Flashback:

James was sitting in his compartment when she walked by. She was a very pretty girl, her red wavy hair was pinned back in a half pony tail, with strands of curls falling down to frame her face. She had bright emerald eyes that showed her kindness through them, she was beautiful, the perfect kind of girl to pull a prank on.

James looked over towards his best friend, Sirius Black, and motioned towards Lily.

"There! That girl! I think she looks innocent enough. Let's pull it on her." James smirked and pointed towards a box with holes sitting on the ledge of the window. Indicating a ruthless prank, his friends face lit up.

Nodding eagerly, Sirius grabbed the box, "Come on. Let's follow her."

Smirking again, James motioned towards Remus, "Come on Moony, aren't you going to join in the fun too?"

"No thanks, I don't like pestering girls, I would rather read this interesting and quiet book. You two should probably stay here too." Remus gave them a scolding look, but James and Sirius ignored him. Remus of course was right ... as always.

"Alright then Moony, we'll be back in a bit... listen for a scream!" With that the two boys ran out of the compartment and looked through the windows of each one they passed until the found Lily with two other girls. One was a blue eyed blond and the other had straight brown hair with hazel eyes. They were all talking and laughing. James motioned for the box and Sirius handed it to him. Then Sirius cracked the door open and James lifted the lid, letting out a huge spider. The spider crawled into the compartment and they waited.

"AHHHHH! MERLIN MALLORY, LOOK AT THAT SPIDER!" The screaming of Lily could be heard all down the corridor.

She flung the door open and ran out, tripping over Sirius and landing on James. James smirked evilly and started laughing. From that moment on she knew that he was a jerk and that was the day she would start hating him. Lily lifted her fist and punched him square in the face. And that was when James started to like her, she had spunk and she was beautiful, just the kind of girl for him.

End of Flashback

James lifted his hand dazily and placed it at his jaw. Remembering the day as if it were yesterday, he cradled it as if Lily had just done the punishment.

"Uh hem, Mr. Potter, would you care to join us sometime soon? I know you are probably in deep thought about werewolves right about now, considering that bit of drool forming on your bottom lip." Professor McGonagall said in her strict tone.

Snickering quietly, Sirius and James shook their heads at James. Acting as if they were ashamed, James scoffed at them.

"Sorry, Professor, won't happen again," James replied clearing his throat while a must unwanted heat rose in his cheeks.

Professor McGonagall looked at him over the top of her square spectacles and scowled down at him. Returning to the lesson she left him to be tortured by his friends.

"You just can't help staring at her, can you? If you are so overly obsessed with that flaming ball of hair, why don't you ask her to Hogsmeade?" Sirius said leaning across the table to speak to him.

Sighing heavily, James looked at him with sad chocolate eyes, "I can't! She never hears me out and I always seemed to get turned down. She is the only girl in this whole school who'll turn me down twenty-nine times in a row and not give a shit."

Sirius rolled his eyes and gestured towards Lily once again, "Well, it's worth a try. I can't stand blabbing to you when I don't even know if you are listening or daydreaming about her again... like right now!"

"What, huh? Oh sorry Padfoot, she turned around to ask her friend for some parchment. That was a moment I actually got to look at her face." He said now turning to Sirius who had a silly smug look on his face and just rolled his eyes.

"Never mind, just go ask her out, Prongs! You're driving me bloody mad!" Sirius said, shaking his head as if he were defeated. Looking out the window, he left James to his thoughts.

Thinking about what his best friend had just said, James took it into context. Even if he did get turned down again, he had to persist. One day there would be Lily Potter, and he was going to make it happen.

The bell rung throughout the quiet school and it signaled for lunch. James took a deep breath and gathered up his supplies, which hadn't been used at all, and started to leave the classroom.

He glanced over at Lily and saw her laughing with her friend, Amanda Hemmings, and smirked thinking that some day she would be laughing at something he said. Then she did something that made his heart drop immediately, she looked over at him and smiled. She then turned back to her friend, laughed and walked out of the room. Maybe Lily did like him after all... well it was something for him to hope for. Or maybe is was just a wish he had deep in his heart.

"Come on Lily we know you like him. I mean it's so obvious!" Amanda said piling her plate with fruit, chips and a sandwich.

"Yeah Lils, just admit it," Mallory smiled at Lily while picking up her own plate.

Lily rolled her eyes in disgust and sighed, repeating what she had been telling her two best friends for the past half hour, "How many times do I have to tell you two, I do not like James Potter. I will never like him! He is an inconsiderate prat, and he only likes me because I am the only girl in this entire school that hates his guts!"

" Okay, so that may be true that you are the only girl that hates him, but that may not be why he likes you. I mean you're smart. you're pretty, and definitely skinny, so where is a reason for not every single boy to like you?" Mallory suggested as she began to dig into her food.

"Why would he like me though? Every time he asks me out what do I say?" Lily asked rhetorically.

" No!" The girls said in unison

"Which is why you have to let us get you two together, Lils. He is absolutely perfect for you!" Amanda added quickly, trying to make a good manuvere.

Lily slammed her fork down on the table and looked at them angrily as she said, "Listen guys, I do not like him and I never will like him! I am sick and tired of telling you two no! I will NOT go out with him!"

"Fine Lily, but you are being ridiculous. The time will come when you eventually go out with him, and I will get to say I told you so." Amanda said looking at her as if she were insane.

"Well look who it is now. Here comes the man of the hour with Sirius and Remus." The blonde said checking to make sure her hair was okay, well good enough for the object of her affection: Sirius Black.

Rolling her sparkling emerald eyes, Lily looked back down towards her food.

"Good afternoon, ladies." Remus said as he sat himself across from Amanda.

"Hey guys!" Mallory replied as Sirius sat down across from her, leaving James to sit across from Lily.

" So, how are you three doing this morning?" Sirius said smiling at Mallory, making her heart melt at his charm.

" J-just fine thank you." She replied nervously, trying to act calm and relaxed.

Lily looked over at the two major flirts and rolled her eyes again, today everything seemed to be disgusting her. James cleared his throat and took another deep breath, it was time for him to ask her.

"Hey Evans, how are you?" He said coolly, trying to give her his girl charming smile.

Lily looked at him smugly and said, " Just fine Potter."

He continued to smile as he replied, " So, are you going to Hogsmeade this weekend?"

" I don't know why do you ask?" she retorted quickly while sending him a death stare.

A pang when off in his heart every time she did that. She looked gorgeous when she was angry.

"Whoa, a little hostile aren't we? I was just wondering if you might want to go with me?"

Amanda nudged Lily hard and Mallory stepped on her foot, but Lily ignored her friends never ending pestering

She stood up quickly and said, " No, James Potter, I will not go to Hogsmeade with you! Why in the name of Merlin did you even ask me? I will never go out with you so you might as well just give it up! I'm going to the common room, don't follow me, none of you!"

She picked up her bag and flung it over her shoulder. Her heals clicked loudly over the hard floor as she stomped over to the Great Hall doors, opening them in anger and then slamming them shut.

Lily turned the corner, her hair flying behind her and her emerald eyes that were usually so kind, flaming in anger. She couldn't believe the nerve of everyone, they were all trying to set her up with James, and she knew for a fact that she would never go out with anyone with an ego as big as his.

Lily approached the portrait of the Fat Lady and said the password shortly " Flaming Flamingos!"

The Fat Lady looked at her sadly and asked, " Is there something wrong my dear?"

Lily glared at her and emotionlessly replied, " No."

The Fat Lady nodded and the portrait swung open revealing the Gryffindor Common room. She walked into the warm room and looked around, noticing that a few people were there, and that she couldn't have privacy. So with one more quick glance, she jotted up the girls staircase.

Lily opened the door to her dorm sat her bag down on the chest at the end of her bed, she then sat down. Taking her diary in her hands, she began to write:

September 4th

Thursday, 12:30 noon

Dear Diary,

You know what? I am sick and tired of this. No matter what I do I cannot convince anyone that I don't like James, today it happened again. Mallory, Amanda and I were talking and once again they were trying to convince me to let them set James and I up. I don't know what I have to do to get it through everyone's head that I HATE HIM I do not like him in ANY possible way!

James asked me to Hogsmeade AGAIN today and I told him no... don't I always? Everyone is always at my throat telling me that we are "meant for each other" sure... they are mental I tell you, mental! How could James and I possibly be meant for each other? There are a million differences between us! Look here, I will even list them:

I am the smartest witch of our age.

James cannot even get a D in Charms.

I am quiet and am always obeying the rules and my elders.

James is loud, annoying, obnoxious, rude, and always gets into trouble! Always trying to impress me.

I hate him.

He loves me.

My hobbies are, reading, writing, singing, studying, talking, and shopping.

His hobbies are, Quidditch, pestering Severus, getting into trouble, flirting with me, and driving me insane!

You see we have nothing in common, I don't know why he doesn't just give up!

Well, lunch is almost over, I think I better head off to Charms class.

Note to self: Make sure to get the Transfiguration essay done by Monday!

Lily Evans

Magically locking her diary, she rose from her bed. She stuffed her diary in her bag and flung it across her shoulder. A well needed sigh was released and it was time to face the music.

Taking a deep breath, she started her journey. She knew as soon as she walked down the stairs, Mallory and Amanda would be waiting for her. Plastering a fake smile on her face, she took the plunge. Sure enough, Mallory raced up to her and took her in a friendly hug as soon as she entered the Common Room.

"I'm sorry Lils, I shouldn't try to push you into relationships like I do." The blonde said frantically as if she were going to lose her any moment.

Lily smiled a genuine smile and her anger at the two disappeared. Mallory always came back and apologized, her big blue eyes begging for forgiveness. This always led to the end of fights.

"That's ok Mal, I know you don't mean to. I shouldn't get so frustrated." Lily reassured her by patting her on the back.

Mallory let go of Lily and smiled, " But, I still think you two are meant for each other, even though you hate him with a burning passion."

Lily rolled her eyes and smirked, " Whatever Mal, where is Amanda?"

Mallory gestured towards the girls stairs, "In the loo. She'll be back momentarily."

"Oh okay," Lily said, walking over towards the chair by the fire place. "What time is it? Shouldn't we be on our way to Charms?"

Mallory shrugged and replied " Its 12:45, we should probably head off when Amanda gets back."

Lily nodded and thought about Charms class, she wasn't exactly looking forward to it. Professor Flitwick had assigned a seating chart and Lily was to sit between Mallory and James. The thought made her shudder.

"You know what? I don't think I will go to Charms class," Lily said jokingly, sighing heavily and shaking her head at Mallory, " I really don't want to sit by him."

Mallory laughed, " Someday he will be the only person you will ever want to sit by Lils, I know it. But like I said I won't push you into anything anymore, but you should know that when you left, James started to go after you. Sirius wouldn't let him though, and instead he went to the bathroom, and didn't come back all of lunch."

Lily felt slightly guilty... she was a bit harsh with him. " Oh," was all she had to say. Now she felt horrible.

Why should I feel guilty? He is an ignorant prat, and I hate him!

But you do feel guilty, and maybe it's because he has feelings too, and you know that. You should apologize.

You've got to be kidding me, I wouldn't apologize to him in a million years! You of all people should know that.

First of all, I'm not a person, I am your conscious, and actually I know that you do want to apologize but you just don't know how. Right?

Erm, no,... no ... no way! Why would I want to apologize? That's absurd!

Actually it is not absurd in any possible way, I advise you apologize to him. Lily he likes you very very much, loves you most likely, and you just squashed him into the ground. Do you remember what you said to him?

Yes of course, and I admit it was mean... very mean. But ... but... I will not apologize!

Do it! Now, you know you should... and I believe you want to!

Oh, shut up will you! You know nothing!

Lily would've continued arguing with herself, but just at that second Amanda walked down from the girls stairs.

"Lily! I am so sorry about earlier, you know me, I have such a big mouth!" Amanda said giving Lily another hug.

"It's fine Amanda, let's just get to Charms... even though I really, really don't want to go" Lily said, picking up her bag and swinging it over her shoulder again.

"Yeah, after what you said to him I would feel pretty bad too!" Mallory said walking towards the portrait.

"Who said I felt guilty?" Even though I do, maybe I should apologize.

"Sorry Lils, I just figured you did. Usually you would, but I guess because you hate him and all... that you wouldn't feel guilty." Mallory said rolling her eyes, but Lily didn't notice, she was watching her feet

"I think you should apologize to him.. I mean after all you didn't really give him a chance." Amanda advised.

"Fine I will, but.. it's not like I want to," Lily said quickly, still watching her feet.. but what she didn't see was Amanda and Mallory smiling at each other and then wink. They obviously had a plan.

A/N: So do you like it? I hope so! Alright, now it's your turn, I need you to tell me what you like and what you don't so I can improve. Please give me some insight. Now just push the little button next to the box that says " submit review" and then type something in. Annoynomous reviews are welcomed! Thanks to all of my readers, I appreciate you taking time to read my stories. Okay enough from me.

Love you all,

Lissa