Many years have passed from what I have seen in this tiny place.

It is a tiny world, just like the Earth, the only difference was that this place had an edge.

There was indeed an edge to this world. Unlike our world, which was round, the world we believe revolved around us.

I must tell you, having the world revolving around you; it is not what you want. Days, weeks, months, and even years, they all repeat, because the world revolves around that one point of your life.

That one point where you ended your life.

People say that our world is lovable as well as harsh, am I the only one who did loathe it?

I didn't understand my own thoughts in that world, yet somehow, when the tears fall as I watch my life repeat, in this world, I understand them.

See, I know I'm not being very clear on these matters but, maybe I can try to explain it better thanks to this world.

I don't know if I'm dead yet or not, I just keep falling and I keep seeing my life flash, repeatedly. I wonder, did I even jump? I just want to get out of this nightmare….

Shintarou, I loved you. No, I love you. I still do. I always will, because I'm not dead yet. I'm not dead. I'm not, am I, Shintarou?

Please, someone answer me…

I want to know.

I want to see my younger siblings.

I don't want them to hate me for dying.

Shintarou, if I die, can you make sure they don't hate me?

Please….

It might end in you being hated but, I never asked you for anything before so…

I know I'm being selfish…

But, please Shintarou, can you just do these things for me?

Make sure they don't hate me.

Make sure you take my place as their new older sibling.

Make sure my father is okay.

Accept my feelings.

Don't blame my father.

Shintarou, I have one more request.

Help me.

I'm scared Shintarou.

I'm scared.

I know I should be strong; after all, this was my mission alone, right?

I wanted to know that if I had those red eyes, if I could understand their pain.

Would I know the hatred they held in their hearts?

That hatred, the one that burned her little hope away…?

The lies they told to protect themselves?

Those lies, that stabbed through their sanity...?

And would I know the feelings that others felt about them?

The feelings that they were drowned in, that caused them to lose everything?

Shintarou, I lied.

I have one request to replace the last.

Don't blame yourself.

I may be scared, but I don't want you to blame yourself and end up where I am.

I don't want you to end up like me.

I know you were rather stoic but when you smiled, you where too selfless to deserve something like this.

I know you may think the same about me, but Shintarou, I send my final paper crane to you.

I send it in hope that you will forgive yourself.

Goodbye Shintarou.

I….

Never…

Blamed…

You…