Author's note:
Hey guys! Thank you so much for clicking! It really means a lot to me. c:
Anyway, I love writing freestyle poems. I've been scratching a lot of them down lately. And figured hey, why not try to write one for SVU?
I was originally going to write one about Olivia, and all the stuff she's been dealing with this season. But after I started, I realized that it sounded more like Amanda. And eventually just ended up writing it about her. So this poem is about Amanda, and all the stuff she's been dealing with this season (And maybe some leftover dirt from past seasons? Interpret it as you like. xD c: )
So, yeah. :D
Disclaimer: I don't own SVU. It'd be awesome if I did, but I don't.
Another disclaimer: I'm sort of new to SVU. (Hey that sorta of rhymes.) I've liked watching it for awhile. (Like the past couple years of my childhood. xD) But I've never been like, super into it or anything. This past school year, for some reason I've just gotten really into the show. And watch it all the time. I've seen a ton of old episodes, from various other seasons and such. But, I am in no way an SVU expert. So, do not think me as one. xD :D
Anyway, without any more rambling from me. xD Here we go!
You aren't a child.
You never were one.
Youthful joy, callow dreams, and innocence
Were never a part of who you were-
For you, growing up was not a scary process
For you never had to go through with it,
You were always just a grown-up
Trying to MANIPULATE the cards
playthegame
Work with the world
playthegame
To make your way.
playthegame
Until your body matched your mind,
And you could get away with the crime-
keepplayingthegame
playthegame
You can take care of yourself,
Don't need anyone else's help.
Tell the concerned looks,
and scared faces
That everything WILL be okay
aslongasyoukeepplayingthegame
Because if you couldn't handle it,
You wouldn't be dealing with it.
playthegame
You are lovely, you are beautiful
But also angry, and confused
playthegameplaythegame
As you cry, and shake
You don't know what to do!
How to handle yourself. How to comfort yourself.
So you do what you do best.
You playthegame
Give into your temptation.
playthegame
Don't worry about penance, and crime
You just have to play the game
One more time.
So that you can settle your mind.
Comeonlovelylet'splay
Because you think you know who you are,
And not what you're not.
playthegame
Because you're just so-
INDEPENDENT.
independenceindependenceindependence
You chant that that word like a mantra,
Write it up on a banner,
To hang above your door
Get it tattooed across your body
So that it can stay there-
PERMANENTLY.
allyouwantissomethingpermanent
Something to hold.
itonlyhurtswhenyou'realone
Because you only feel lonely, when you're in good company,
Because nobody really understands that you are
INDEPENDENT.
With independence comes a false sense of confidence
That you use as a ((-SHIELD-))
To ward away the people you care about the most,
Because all they really want to know is-
playthegame
What's really going on?
areyousurethatyou'realright?
Don't let them in! Don't let them see!
The cracks, and the bruises
playthegameplaythegame
That you're secretly covered in.
Breakingapartlikecracksonthesidewalk
So that nobody can see that inside you're
WASTING AWAY.
Like cracks on the sidewalk.
youcan'twalkovermelikethis
Because not even you know why-
youcan'twalkallovermelikethis
Why this had to start back up again
youcan'twalkallovermelikethis
You're intelligent. You're worthy.
youcan'twalkovermelikethis
So why? Why did all this happen?
youcan'twalkovermelikethis
You made yourself
youcan'twalkovermelikethis
Pinky swear, that you'd never fall this low
youcan'twalkovermelikethis
And yet here you are
youcan'twalkovermelikethis
Stuck here.
youcan'twalkovermelikethis
In your own worst nightmare.
youcan'twalkallovermelikethis
Trapped here. At the bottom.
youcan'twalkovermelikethis
Rock bottom.
playthegameplaythegame
….Play…..the….game….?
..
...
.
.
.
OH COME ON WHY?
YOU ARE AN
INDEPENDENT INDIVIDUAL.
YOU DON'T NEED ANYONE ELSE'S HELP.
NOT EVEN YOUR OWN.
CAN'T GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK!
OR FIND YOURSELF A BREAK!
breakbreakbreakbreakbreak
breakitall
playthegame
A break, a break
Like a crack in the sidewalk.
But not the-
the stopping of a car,
Because you just can't stop
playthegameplaythegameplaythegame
No you just-
CAN'T STOP
playthegame
PLAYING THIS GAME.
playthegame
You want to GIVE UP.
GIVE IN to this mess.
playthegame
1One1 more time-
playthegame.
1One1 last time-
playthegame
A few more times,
Until you can no longer –
HIDE.
hide?
...?
HIDE.
So steal it all away
playthegame
Take away your brain.
playthegame
Let it all just fade away.
playthegame
Because, this is your life
Not anybody else's
playthegame
And you are an:
INDEPENDENT INDIVIDUAL
and nothing more
((Independent)), and on your own
Not needing anyone else
Not reaching, seeking, asking for anyone else
Only dependent on 1one1 thing,
And that's
playthegame
The
playthegame
Game.
playthegame
And yet despite all your sins,
Yourproblems-they'reallterribleterriblemistakes
Despite all your battles,
Your struggles, and your wars
Thegameisanunevenbattlefield
Whichsideareyouon?
You've been given this thing, they call it a-
"second chance"
You were reminded that your life is what you make of it-
Because you can be independent
But, no matter how independent you are
You are actually never alone,
So child, put your weapons down
And find your way back to a home
Because the one's who care about you,
Will never leave you.
They just have to learn,
learnlearnlearn
how to trust you again
Idon'twanttoplaythegameanymore
So forgive yourself.
Neveragain
Be thankful again.
Icanmakebetterchoices
Because you were given an opportunity to start over again.
Justkeeppushingforward
Take it, and live it
Because, deep inside you know you can.
Just try hard, and don't give up.
Because you still can be an independent.
And still lean on someone.
When you really need it.
So guys...what did you think?
Should I continue these? And if I do, who should I do next? Did I represent Amanda well enough?
I'd love to hear what you think!
So, feel free to leave me a review! :D
Anyway, that's all. Thanks again for reading! It means a lot to me. c: