A/N: Older word: Cramp. Spoilers through the end of Season 3.
Disclaimer: Don't own them. Never will. * walks away sobbing *
It was pain he hoped would help him forget. He tried alcohol. That amplified the pain. He threw himself into hunting. That just reminded him of all he'd lost. He wanted to die, but that would make Dean's death meaningless.
He ran for hours, the cramp in his side becoming sharp pains in his chest. None of it hurt as bad as watching his brother die, ripped to shreds, soul bound for hell. That pain he'd never forget. Then she found him. Taught him to channel that pain into revenge. To hunt down that bitch Lilith and make her pay.