I can't do this anymore.
The endless, pointless lies taste so bitter.
I watch as the light goes from his eyes,
As the innocence fades away from her,
I loved them.
I love them all.
Him, with his courage, always ready to help, even with someone he barely knows.
Her, with her kindness, her loving heart, her eyes that so many a time brimmed with unshed tears, that she never shed.
I'm sorry, my friend.
Sorry that I abandoned you.
Sorry that you waited.
Sorry I wasn't strong enough to make things right.
Sorry for being the cause of your death.
I'm sorry, my friend.
Sorry for being the reason you are an orphan.
Sorry for the endless horror I put you through.
Sorry for not being there.
Sorry for stealing your life away.
They don't hear me.
They never will.
They're gone now.
Blown away in dust.
Washed away in the tides of time.
I can see them in my minds eye.
His smile, his laugh.
Joy in his eyes after seeing me for the first time in forty years.
Sorrow in them when he realized it was time to go.
Her bright blue eyes.
Her voice, like a small stream.
Eyes sparkling when seeing some beauteous alien sight.
Fear shining when under fire.
My son.
My daughter.
I'm sorry.
Forgive me.
Please.
My regrets weigh me down like stones,
My memories consume me.
I am old.
And yet I lament.
Over times long gone.
Over lives never lived.
Can you forgive me?
Will you forgive me?
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
But you'll never hear.