Going Under
Author's note: inspired by "Going Under" by Evanescence, written quickly, and it's too short, but I don't care. Please read and review.
I've done everything in my power to convince her that I love her, that I need her. And every time she rejects me, I cry myself to sleep. Every name she calls me, every word of abuse she hurls at me, is like having my heart ripped out and shredded. And yet, I'm so far gone, that I always go back, always want more.
Every single time she shouts and screams at me, I'm happy she's even looking at me, giving me an excuse to stare into her green eyes, watch her cascading red hair flow in time with her yells. When she shrieks I block out the words, and just listen to her beautifully musical tinkle of a voice. And I'm falling deeper and deeper, I'm going under.
But for once, I don't want her; I want to be able to leave my childish dreams of her behind, I want to save myself from this never-ending falling. Maybe one day I'll be over her, I'll be able to move on, without having her constantly tattooed to the inside of my eyelids. Without needing her to shout at me every day, without needing to be defeated.
I feel like she's killing me off, bit by bit, each finger, each toe, every part of me, being destroyed, yet my heart stands strong, overpowering, constantly defying my brain. Heart over all else.
I'm falling for her, drowning in her beauty, my head wants to break through, but it can't, it's being controlled by my heart, ever pumping, ever needing that face on my mind. Forever falling.
But the truth is, my heart my want it, but part of my brain needs it, or else where'd the dreams and wishes come from. But the rational side of my brain is telling me that I'm stupid, that I can't do this, I can't be with her. Not now, not ever.
I've got to break through, or I'm going to be falling forever.
I need to scream, I need get it out of my system, because it will never happen, it will never ever be how it should be, how want it, how my heart wants it, because life is easier said than done. I've got to breathe, I can't keep going under. Or I'll die.
I'm going under,
Drowning in you.
I'm going under.
A.N/ thanks for reading, time to review? (:
Lyric,x