I Try To Hide my Feelings, but They Always Show
You walk into the girl's bathroom and you see Quinn standing by the sinks. She is applying dark, red lipstick to her perfect, soft lips. The same lips you have been yearning to kiss ever since she told you to stay away from Finn only two years ago. Has it really been two years? You have been in love with Quinn Fabray for two years – probably longer than that – and you are still dating Finn. You knew you shouldn't have dated Finn in the first place. The only reason you did was because you thought it would bring you closer to the girl of your dreams. That didn't work. You started to walk towards Quinn.
"Hey. Look, I need your advice. Alright-" You waited until the last two Cheerios leave the bathroom because you don't want the whole school to know about this. "About an a-adult problem."
Quinn turns away from the mirror and faces you. She has a shocked look on her face. "Holy crap, are you pregnant?"
"NO! Look, I'm coming to you as a friend and oddly because I think you would be the only person that would give me a straight forward and thoughtful answer about this."
"Your right, I'm sorry. Yes. I can keep a ss-secret."
"OK. Well, um Finn asked me to marry him."
Quinn gasps. You notice a touch of sadness in her beautiful hazel eyes. "What did you say?"
"I said I needed to think about it."
"Well, you can't –"
"Why? Plenty of people get married at our age and I know that he and I haven't lived together or anything and I love him. He is the one. I k-know it." Another lie. Quinn hands you a piece of paper. "What's this?"
"That's my ticket out of here. I got into Yale. Early admissions. Turns out my essay about overcoming adversity while maintaining a straight A average during a teen pregnancy really turned on the admissions boards."
"Quinn, that's amazing." You tell her as you bring her into a hug. You notice this is the first time you are touching Quinn Fabray. You want to remember this moment forever. You smell her hair. It smells like vanilla. You notice that although she is a lot taller than you, she fits perfectly with your body. "That's so great." You let go of her and the feeling of wanting to kiss her returns. You try to push it away but the feeling is so huge. You know that if you don't do something the feeling is just going to bottle up so you make a split decision. You start to close the distance between you and Quinn. She looks into her eyes almost questioning you. You swallow hard and take the next couple of steps. You just now realized how far away you were. You are so close to her face now. You can see everything on her face. Every detail. It is just so perfect. You stroke her cheek. Quinn grabs your wrist to stop you but that doesn't work. You use your other hand and you put it behind her neck. She doesn't stop you this time. You pull her in slowly to you. Your noses are now touching. Forehead to forehead. You dreamed about this so many times! You are in kissing distance with Quinn Fabray! The girl of your dreams! In a girl's bathroom! You are about to have your first kiss with Quinn Fabray in girl's bathroom of all places. You forget about the bathroom because you are about to kiss Quinn Fabray! Her beautiful hazel eyes are staring into your brown ones. Waiting for your next move. You lick your lips and you finally plant your lips on Quinn Fabray. Oh my god! Her lips are amazing! It takes Quinn a couple of seconds to respond but now she is really into the kiss. You can feel her smiling against your lips. You can't help but smile back. Has she wanted this, too? She is such a better kisser than Puck, Blaine or Finn. Oh my god! Finn! You don't want to pull away but you know you have to. You know how much cheating hurts Finn. You pull away and Quinn makes a groaning sound. She sounds disappointed.
You turn away from Quinn so that you won't have to look her in the eyes when you say this. "I-I'm really sorry Quinn. I shouldn't have done that. I should go."
Quinn grabs your wrist to stop you again. "Rachel, wait. Please don't go. We need to talk about this. Somewhere that doesn't smell so bad." She laughs.
"I'm really sorry, Quinn. But I can't do that. I will see you in Glee Club." You open the bathroom door. Before you leave you turn around to give Quinn a look. You tried to tell her everything you felt for her in that look. You look away and continue to walk out of the bathroom.
"RACHEL!" You can her Quinn yelling for you as you walk down the hallway. You close your eyes and a couple of tears escape. You notice that this is the second time Quinn Fabray had made you walk away crying.
"What the hell just happened?" Quinn said out loud to the empty, smelly girl's bathroom.