There I was. Going to an LA university, get an Arts degree, follow my dreams and, mostly, get out of Jersey. I couldn't live there. It truly was a gorgeous place to live in, but it just wasn't meant for me… Why? Well, I used to be fat, and all the kids made fun of me. Even my best friend, Lyn, used me. She got close to me so that she could have better grades and, once that happened, she ditched me and told my secrets to everyone.
You can't imagine my excitement when I got a letter from an LA college, saying that I was accepted.
The first month in college wasn't that good. School, eat, school, home, eat, sleep. Always the same routine. But the second one was different.
Mikey called me at night saying that his girlfriend, Alicia, was pregnant of him.
The morning after I was so distracted by the news Mikey gave me that accidentally hit a guy and our things fell on the floor. I got down, picked up my things and walked away. I noticed that he did the same, but I didn't see his face.
Later that day, I noticed that I picked up his notebook and maybe he picked up mine. I was in panic! All my drawing, all my creations: gone! There was no name, no cell phone, no email address, nothing. After a while, I just convinced myself that it wasn't the end of the world and I could start again.
When got home, I took a look over this guy's notebook. It had lyrics in it: the first ones I could notice that weren't very good and were the first ones, but they were getting better and better by the turn of the pages, facing real life problems, like death, diseases, love and even homophobia, among many others.
There was one called "Trying To Escape The Inevitable" that caught my eye and remembered my past, reminded me of Lyn. When I read it over the third time, I was crying my eyes out, sobbing. I closed the notebook, put it inside my back pocket and went for a walk, just to clear my thoughts and understand why I was there and what should I do next to be happier and fuller with my life.