Here is something for people with depression to read just so you know you are not alone. ( I needed to tell someone about this to make me feel better, even if it's just random strangers on the internet)
Sometimes I feel like I don't mean anything to the world. I wonder if it's all just a dream and I'll wake up and forget all of this happened. If the world was a pawn on a bigger chess board. If it's an illusion and I'm falling for it.
As if depression is a hole and I'm slowly falling in trying to claw out and everyone I love is just standing there watching. It doesn't help that everybody thinks I'm emo and a loner. I feel like if people label you that, you suddenly become what someone labels you. It's not like you have a choice of who people think you are no matter how hard you try to put the image you want of yourself in their head, they will always have their own ideas of who you are and what you are feeling, and Completely distort what you actually are. I have nobody to talk to so I trust nobody because nobody trusts me. I have a few close friends but I don't know if they consider me that. I think I have depression , but I am happy. It doesn't make any sense.
It's as if someone is holding a light switch and they can just turn it on and off and my depression along with it there are some things that trigger my like my sister bragging about herself and my parents talking about how moody I am which just makes me moody and upset. They don't realize it but it slowly is shattering me bit by bit and they are mixing up the pieces so I can't re-find myself and when I almost do they break me down again, I survive each time but it makes it harder for me to come back together. I don't know why people who are depressed cut themselves to feel something if you are depressed and cutting yourself will only make you feel worse. I can't open up to people because once I did and I ended up broken and broken hearted. I have never done that again and I am trying to eventually open up to somebody I trust but it's hard and getting harder.
I never tell people who I like because In my experience when you tell them they just refuse. Except for this one guy but I don't think he likes me he might've before but now I don't thinks so he smile t me sometimes when he thinks I'm not looking. But every time I try to flirt it goes wrong it's been this way for like seven years. You always have to try to look for the positive things in life. Sometimes if you have nothing good in your life, you need to let go of the things that make it bad. "You can never be truly happy if you continuously hold on to the things that make you sad".
When you are sad or depressed and thinking of ending your life, just message me. It can be completely anonymous if you would like. I'm not saying I can help or make you feel better but if you need someone to talk with, I'm there.