Senna
Rukia
Orihime
In a moments notices he's willing to sacrifice his life to save them
Why is it so hard…?
Why do I not exist …?
I've been at his side since childhood, I thought we were friends. I was there with him at his mother's funeral holding his hand while he cried. Yet through all that he doesn't even remember my name, he only acknowledges me as "hey you" or something of the same line. Even now with everyone by his side ready to help save the world multiple times he doesn't even realize am with him. Through Senna's final moment in the cemetery, Rukia's execution trails, the capture and rescue of Orihime, him dying, and most recently Aziens demise. No am not like them, am not a shinigami, a Quincy, or anything special like that am just a human with useless powers. While the events took place not even a whisper was given to, of course he looked at me like everyone else but through me to see them.
What did I do to make him ignore me and dismiss me like nothing at all?
I walked into his room at Urahara's Shop/Home to check on him and his wounds from his battle with Aizen. He's been out for days. Looking at his face, for once peaceful, I can't help but wish I was more than I am. Realities a cruel mistress though and my mind taunts me of how mush an idiot I am. I am nothing but a plain girl that always sits with herself and only expresses emotion when expected to. Am not pretty and cute is a long shot, their beautiful beyond belief each one with unique quirks and bright and full of life personalities. Am a loner and dull and have been to, "suck the life out of everything". Each of them meaning something to him that I couldn't.
Snapping out of my daze I quickly leave the room with a snap of the screen. Heading down stairs I hear Urahara and the others talking amongst themselves and with each step I grow uncomfortable. As I enter the main room Urahara notices me and smiles saying my name. In the progress though if making everyone else turn to look at me making queasiness fill my stomach. Yet I force a smile for Urahara's sake and quickly leave the room to the front of the shop. Slowly letting out a held in breath I slide down the door to sit on the floor. Closing my eyes I hear the slight murmur of everyone talking and the worst in me says they talk of me, how much of a freak I am, and my imperfection. Finally having enough of my minds cruelty I rise and start to walk home.