Disclaimer: I don't own Percy Jackson and the Olympians or The Heroes of Olympus. All rights go to Rick Riordan.
AN: This fanfic was written for the Jeyna ship week, 31/8/14 – 6/9/14, of the PJO Ship Weeks on Tumblr. It is a collaboration between Seahuntress1267 and PercicoAnatle.
Reyna POV
I felt like someone had just chucked my feelings into a washing machine. There was a part of me that wanted to jump up and down with delight, but I also wanted to punch someone, something, anything! And guess who's at the centre of my confused feelings? Jason Grace, the son of Jupiter. The colleague that I was so looking forward to seeing again after eight months. You might be asking why I wasn't overjoyed with his return. The reason was that stupid daughter of Aphrodite, Pippa? Or was it Piper? Whatever her name was, she was the one who threw my feelings into the washing machine.
It all started with their arrival at Camp Jupiter. Well, actually a little while later. The centurions and I sat with Jason and his Greek friends. I noticed Percy's girlfriend staring at his SPQR tattoo. I could relate, in a way. There was something off about Jason...he was different, less Roman, and more...mellow, I guess. It felt uncomfortable, like the person I was looking at wasn't entirely the same person as I knew, and...lov...liked.
I forced the word down. I couldn't afford to think like that now, couldn't bear to...weaken myself like this...especially since the girl hanging off him was looking at him with that stupid sparkle in her eyes that just so easily showed what I was feeling inside...displaying the affection that I tried so hard to keep away from. She...she was just so different to me. She loved, while I fought and led. She was Greek, and I'm Roman. She was the physical manifestation of everything that I didn't have, everything that separated me from Jason. I hated her. It's not her fault, I guess... You can't choose who you are, and maybe I wasn't being fair...I had met the demigod literally less than an hour ago. I didn't know her.
I suddenly remembered my conversation with Lady Venus three years ago. It was firmly implanted and seared into my head. Her warning played itself over and over again. If you don't confront your feelings, it will being you pain. I'm pretty sure that this was what she was warning me about. My feelings for Jason...
I'm not sure what I should think. I lov...liked Jason. That's that truth. Ever since I first felt something for him, I've tried to push those feelings down, further than the depths of Tartarus. The last male that I ever felt close to was my father. And look how that ended. I...didn't want to admit it to myself. But...I could only hide for so long.
During the whole of lunch, I wanted to glare at Piper so hard that she could vaporise and leave Jason, the Jason I used to know before those long eight months of searching. So when Jason wanted to show Piper New Rome, my face hardened into an inaccessible mask of stone. How can he not realise that I lov...liked him? But there was nothing else that I could do. Refusing him would only cause trouble in Camp Jupiter.
I wanted to step back in time and change everything back to what it used to be. People think that I am cold and emotionless, but I'm not. I'm just another girl who has been hurt again by love.
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