Just So You Know
I Shouldn't Love You
But I Want To
I Just Can't Turn Away
I Shouldn't See You
But I Can't Move
Can't Look Away
I Shouldn't Love You
But I Want To
I Just Can't Turn Away
I Shouldn't See You
But I Can't Move
Can't Look Away
And I Don't Know How to Be Fine When I'm Not
'Cause I Don't Know How To Make A Feelin' Stop
I sat on the floor of my bedroom, curled up against the wall, looking out my window, head pressed against the cold glass as rain pounded on it, making pitter-patter sounds as it hit and collected in the gutters. My room was cold and gloomy, and I sat alone, quiet as a mouse. I was nobody. I was no one. Nothing mattered. No one cared. The world didn't exist. It was just me. Me, and my thoughts. Thoughts of her. Thoughts of not just any her, but Teagan.
Just So You Know
This Feeling's Taking Control Of Me
And I Can't Help It
I Won't Sit Around
Can't Let Him Win Now
Thought You Should Know
I've Tried My Best To Let Go Of You
But I Don't Want To
I Just Gotta Say It All
Before I Go
Just So You Know
Everywhere I went I saw here, felt her, and thought of her. Teagan was a great friend, but had a boyfriend. Boyfriend that's not me plus Teagan equals me not having a chance with her. I didn't want to forget about her. I knew it was kinda hopeless, thinking about her so much, when I couldn't have her. I just couldn't seem to let her go.
I walked down the streets of Los Angeles and found myself in a local café where I had a soda and some fries.
Two people walked in behind me laughing loudly. It sounded like a guy and a girl. One laugh I knew distinctly. It was Teagan and Ryan, her boyfriend.
"Nick?!" Teagan gasped and pulled up a chair to the table I was sitting at. I looked kinda rough today. Jeans, Vans, plain old white t-shirt, and that was it. Nothing to look at today. "Hey Teagan" I said. "I've missed you like so much. I haven't seen you since you left on tour" Teagan said. "I've been pretty busy I guess" I sighed. "Yeah" she agreed as Ryan sat down. "Hey Nick" he said. "Sup" I said back. Teagan and I talked for a while, until I couldn't stand Ryan interrupting anymore and the thought of him being her boyfriend, that I lied and said that I'd told my mom that I'd be back already, so I had to leave. I was pathetic.
It's
getting hard to be around you And
I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
There's so much I can't say
Do
you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
'Cause I don't know how
to make a feeling stop
I walked slowly home watching the cars drive by splashing the water from the past days rain everywhere. I needed to get over it. She wasn't mine, and I just had to face that. It was the truth.
I wanted to forget about her, but I didn't at the same time. My mind was confused, and I couldn't make it up. This was crazy. I was crazy.
Just So You Know
This Feeling's Taking Control Of Me
And I Can't Help It
I Won't Sit Around
Can't Let Him Win Now
Thought You Should Know
I've Tried My Best To Let Go Of You
But I Don't Want To
I Just Gotta Say It All
Before I Go
Just So You Know
I sat underneath a tree in a local park that no one went to anymore. It was run down, the playground was tagged and destroyed, but the trees and walking path was still beautiful. I sat there with my guitar, bike leaned up against the tree, and began to play. I didn't know what I was playing, it just came from my heart. I kept playing it again and again till I felt that my hand may fall off. I leaned my head up against the tree. One second of thinking about nothing, and my mind was filled of something- Teagan. I was going insane. Something was wrong with me. And there was only one thing that I could think of what it was- love.
This Emptiness Is Killing Me
And I'm Wondering Why I've Waited So Long
Looking Back I Realize
It Was Always There Just Never Spoken
I'm Waiting Here…
Been Waiting Here
I heard rustling leaves around me as I closed my eyes, listening to nature. Someone was there. I could hear them. I quickly opened my eyes. "Who's there?" I asked. "Who's there?" I repeated more loudly. No one answered. It was probably a squirrel or something. Or a person who didn't want to be noticed…
Just So You Know
This Feeling's Taking Control Of Me
And I Can't Help It
I Won't Sit Around
Can't Let Him Win Now
Thought You Should Know
I've Tried My Best To Let Go Of You
But I Don't Want To
I Just Gotta Say It All
Before I Go
Just So You Know
"Nick" I heard a soft voice say after I'd re-closed my eyes. I slowly opened them, already knowing who was standing beside me. "Teagan" I said even more softly. "Oh Nick" she gasped and fell into my arms. "What's wrong?" I asked. "You" She cried. "What? What's wrong with me?" I asked, wondering if she'd figured out about my love for her. "Nothing's wrong with you. It's me Nick. I love you" She confessed. "I, I think that I always have. I just never could admit it to myself" she said. I put my hand underneath her chin and lifted her lips to mine. "So I'm not the only one in love?" I asked after we'd finished our first kiss together. She smiled and shook her head. "No" she whispered as she wrapped her arms around me and kissed me again.
Just So You Know
This Feeling's Taking Control Of Me
And I Can't Help It
I Won't Sit Around
Can't Let Him Win Now
Thought You Should Know
I've Tried My Best To Let Go Of You
But I Don't Want To
I Just Gotta Say It All
Before I Go
Just So You Know
Song Credit To Jesse McCartney "Just So You Know"