A.N: I really don't know where this came from. It's strange. But, yeah. It came into my head when I was listening to Far Far by Yael Naim, which is were the lyrics at the beginning come from. It's a beautiful song, and a very Claire-like song in my opinon. This is just a little drabble/ficlit I wrote on a whim. Paire if you squint really hard. Enjoy!
Disclaimer/Warnings: I don't own Heroes, I'm just messing about with the characters. Spoilers up to the end of Season 1/beginning of Season 2.
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Far, far there was this little girl, she was praying for something to happen to her.
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We've been on the road for a total of twelve days, seven hours and forty-three minutes. Yeah, I counted.
That's how long it's been since…everything happened, and Mom said I should start writing something to keep me occupied – Lyle's being a pain as it is, and they don't need to deal with me at the same time.
The indestructible girl has to keep quiet, otherwise the atmosphere in the car turns tense, Lyle gets confused, Dad gets angry, Mr. Muggles barks and Mom gets optimistic about our new life.
I always scoff when she mentions a fresh start; how can anyone start afresh after this? I suppose she's had her memory wiped so much she doesn't know what it feels like.
What it feels like to have to keep everything bottled up inside of you, to watch the only person…to watch him disappear from your life like he was never there, watch a family collapse just as you've found them again. To be asked to shoot someone you care about, then not be able to carry through with it 'cause the pain hurts too much to cope with.
My thoughts always go back to Kirby Plaza, but mostly to him. 'Cause you see, my life has turned into a movie, and not the nice kind with a happy ending, it's more like a cross between a sci-fi fantasy and a horror film, and there's no happy ending in sight.
I've had to leave my home, my friends, my school, I've had to lie and deceive everyone I care about. I've put them in danger, something I'm still doing even though Dad thinks we're safe.
And the worst thing is? I don't want to go with them to 'a new life.' I want to go back. Not back in time, just back to New York and wait for him to come back. Dad says I'm wasting my time believing he's alive, but I've got to believe it. If I don't, I think that's when I won't be able to cope, when I'll finally break.
If Nathan can survive, so can he. It's more than logical. Or maybe my brain's just trying to make up logic so I don't process the cold, hard truth. And I don't, I haven't cried once since that night.
I shouldn't miss him this much, I only knew him for a while, but I can't help it. He's been on my mind since Homecoming, whether or not he knew that. He's like me, he can survive, he's got to be able to do what I can do. That's how it works, isn't it? I pray to whatever God that's listening that that's how it works. That, sooner or later, he'll appear on my doorstep, wherever that turns out to be, and everything will be alright.
'Cause he's my hero…and heroes make everything better. I need him to make my life better.
Welcome to Costa Verde, the sunniest spot in California! Enjoy your visit!
And here it goes again; a new life, a new identity. I should get an Oscar for the amount of times I've had to lie and pretend. Hey, maybe I've even found a career in it.
Mom looks excited, Lyle looks bored, Dad looks determined and Mr. Muggles is as pompous as ever.
And me? I'm just a cheerleader. That's all I've ever been, really.