A/N: Okay this is my first attempt at a Paul story. I had the idea in my head and decided that I'd type it down and post it on here.

I hope you like it and please leave me a review. Thanks :)

Disclaimer: Stephanie Meyer owns the Twilight saga and characters. I'm just adding a few of my own characters and creating a fanfic.

Chapter 1: La Push Hates Me

Here I stood outside Sam and Emily Uleys front door. Why was I standing here? Let me explain.

A couple of weeks ago I had been curled up on my sofa watching TV when my father walked into the living room with a wedding invitation in hand. He told me that it was my cousin Sam Uleys wedding and I had no clue who the hell that was so my dad explained to me that Sam and I were cousins but since we had always lived in New Jersey and he was all the way over in Washington in some place named La Push, that we had never met but somehow Sam had gotten our address.

Both me and my father were surprised he had sent us an invitation and so were my mom and brother when we told them.

We decided we wouldn't attend the wedding, simply because we didn't know Sam personally but were thankful for his invitation.

After a couple of weeks I remembered Sam had left his phone number on the wedding invitation in case we needed more information on the wedding so I decided I'd call and thank both him and Emily for the invitation, after all he was family.

Emily was ever so nice to me on the phone that I didn't feel as nervous as I was when I had dialed their number.

She explained that Sam's mother had a bunch of Sam's family addresses and sent every one of his family members an invite.

I asked her what La Push was like and it sounded like a pretty nice place and that's when she invited me to stay over with her and Sam in La Push for a couple of weeks and it would help me get to know my cousin a bit better.

Of course I was very nervous about it and told her I'd call her back and let her know my answer.

I thought about it for three days and discussed it with my parents. They liked the idea but wanted to know whether Sam was willing to have me stay over so I called Emily and told her I would only go if Sam agreed. She told me that she had already spoken to him about it and I was more than welcome.

So that brings me where I am today, standing outside the Uleys front door and finally knocking on it.

I'm feeling really nervous at this point and it doesn't take long for the door to swing open, revealing a beautiful woman with scars running down half of her face which causes me to gulp but I smile quickly afterward, hoping she won't notice. I assumed this was Emily.

"Oh Fay, your finally here, nice to meet you," she says to me brightly and gives me a welcoming hug.

"Nice to meet you too," I reply as I'm released from her embrace.

"Well come on in," she says and I step in as she closes the door behind me, "Sam's… busy but I'm sure he'll be back soon, here let me take your bags and show you to your room," she offers.

"Thanks," I say quietly, I usually get really shy when I meet people for the first time.

I follow her upstairs, down the left hand side of the hall to the last room there where she places my bags.

She smiles at me, "I hope this room is okay for you, I cleaned it up yesterday and put white bed dressing on your bed, hope that's alright,".

I look over at the bed, nodding, "Yes Emily, that's great thanks," then turn to face her, "Thanks for having me, it means a lot,".

She smiles once again, I had a feeling she did that a lot, "Don't mention it Fay, your Sam's cousin after all, now let me leave you to your unpacking, I'll be downstairs in the kitchen,".

"Yeah sure, I'll be down after a while," and with that she leaves me to my unpacking, closing the door quietly behind her, she seemed really nice.

It took me about an hour to get most of my unpacking done and I was exhausted from all the flying.

I sit down on the bed and let out a deep breath. I was finally here and everything seemed to be going pretty well, the only thing I had to be nervous about was meeting Sam.

You see that's my problem, I'm too shy and I tend to make people think I don't like them sometimes when I chicken out. I sit around strangers and just smile politely at them, too shy to start a conversation but everything is different if they start the conversation, then I'm doing all the talking and laughing. I'm very friendly but I'm also very shy which Is a problem.

I finally get up and head downstairs, getting a whiff of a cake baking in the kitchen.

"Hi Emily," I say as I take a seat at the table.

"Oh hey Fay, done unpacking?," she asks as she stirs something in the cooking pot, with her back to me.

"No," I laugh, "Well I suppose kind of but there's still a few things I need to unpack,".

She chuckles, "Yeah well if you want ill help,".

"No no, I'm fine Emily thanks," I insist as she takes the seat across from me.

She nods, "Okay, so how do you like La Push… I mean the look of it," she asks.

"It's pretty nice… lots of trees, yes lots of trees,"

She laughs, "Yes lots of trees but the weather is miserable,"

"You got that right but I suppose it's what makes it La Push," I grin.

"Yeah suppose, would you like some tea? Coffee?," she asks, lifting herself off of the chair.

"Tea," I tell her, "So Emily I'm sorry we couldn't make it to the wedding,".

She waves her hand dismissively, "Oh please, its fine Fay, I'm glad you came over though, that makes up for it,".

I laugh, "Thanks me too, so-,"

"Emily!," I hear a deep voice call, heavy footsteps making their way to the kitchen and that's when I get all nervous again.

A huge man walks in to the kitchen and I mean HUGE! He must have been about 6'6 and was strongly built. Definitely NOT what I was expecting Sam to look like.

He walks over to Emily as she's pouring me some tea and stands behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist and whispering something into her ear, resulting in a giggle from her.

I kind of felt like I was intruding their privacy since Sam mustn't have noticed I was here. You see that's where shyness gets you, its gets you 'unnoticed'.

I clear my throat hoping he'll get the hint and notice I'm in here which he does, pulling away from Emily instantly and turning around facing me.

"Oh sorry, I didn't notice you were here," he says nervously and walks over to me, extending a big hand out for me to shake which I do and realize its burning but don't say anything, "Nice to meet you… Fay right?,"

I nod and smile weakly, "Nice to meet you too Sam, thanks for having me,".

He smiles, "Don't mention it, you're my long lost cousin after all,".

I laugh, "Yes your long lost cousin,".

After that things seemed to go smoothly. Sam, Emily and I chatted at the kitchen table for a while and they seemed really nice and I was definitely feeling more at home with each minute that passed by with them.

It was only when Sam said he was going to have a shower that I noticed he was only in cut off jeans, It's not even warm around here, weird.

"Well Emily I think I'll just unpack the rest of my stuff and come back down here in a while," I say getting up off the seat.

"Sure, I'll call you when the cake is ready, you do like cake right?," she asks.

I nod, "Yeah, I love cake, thanks Emily," and with that I walk off up to my room.

It took me around another hour to finally have everything unpacked and away and that's when Emily called me down for some cake.

I wasn't really hungry to be honest but what the hell? I can't just say no the day I arrive, she might be offended and I had to ask about La Push High, oh I forgot I was going there tomorrow! Ugh I hate school.

You see I decided that I'd come over to La Push when school started to see what it was really like, maybe make some friends but right now I just wanted to lock myself in my room and never leave, I hated first days and being the 'new girl'.

"Wow smells good E-," I stopped myself from saying the rest the minute I entered the kitchen.

There was about six huge guys, just like Sam, sitting at the kitchen table stuffing their faces with chocolate cake.

If I had known that they were all going to be sitting there, I seriously would have locked myself in that room and pretended I was asleep.

This was so awkward and embarrassing! How was I going to just grab a slice of cake and sit down? I wasn't, I had to be polite and introduce myself to these huge guys and I felt my face heating up.

Emily was standing at the kitchen counter but noticed my face instantly.

"Oh Fay, come here I want to introduce you to the boys, they… work for Sam," she said sheepishly and they all nodded knowingly, much to my confusion.

I walked over to her slowly and she started pointing out the guys and telling me their names.

They were Embry, Quil, Jacob, Brady, Jared and Collin.

"Guys this is Sam's cousin Fay," she told them, smiling.

A look of shock crossed their faces but they all shook it off.

"Hey Fay," they all said, then continued eating like… animals. Yes I know its rude saying that but it was true.

Emily hands me a plate with cake on it and takes me into the living room since all the seats are occupied in the kitchen.

"So they work for Sam?," I asked Emily as we both make ourselves comfy on the couch.

"Yes," she swallows some cake, "They come here for dinner and all, they're really close to Sam, like family, since La Push is so tiny," she grins.

I just nod and start eating all the while thinking that's really odd. I don't ever remember any of my father's co-workers coming over to our house for dinner.

Suddenly a big bang sounded from the kitchen making both me and Emily jump. It sounded like something banging into the wall which separated the kitchen and living room.

"I'll be back in just a second," Emily said and trudged off to the kitchen.

I sat there confused, what the hell was that? But decided that id just sit here and watch the TV.

I grabbed the remote which was on the arm of the sofa and flicked through the stations until I settled on Grays Anatomy.

Emily suddenly appears at the door, "Fay I'm just going to clean up, I'll be back after I'm done," she tells me and walks off.

I rarely watch Grays Anatomy and I was starting to get really into it but was suddenly pulled out of it when a very angry looking guy storms into the living room but stops in his tracks when he notices me.

He's standing close to the TV and is watching me with this funny expression on his face, like he was in a trance and I found myself not being able to look away from his soldering eyes. He was very handsome with beautiful deep brown eyes and shortly cropped black hair. He was as big as all the guys in the kitchen but I don't remember seeing him there. He doesn't seem to look very angry anymore and his eyes seem to soften and soften until it turns bitter again and he storms over to the arm chair to the left of me.

I sneak a glance over at him and find him glaring at me. What did I do?

I figure its best I ignore him and continue watching the TV which isn't easy when you feel someone's eyes on you.

Without me knowing, the station is changed and ESPN is turned on with the usual sports.

That guy must have taken the remote which was placed back on the arm of the couch without me knowing, how damn rude?

I look over at him and he has a frown on his face as he watches the TV.

Ok now is not the time to be shy, "Excuse me, I was watching that show,".

His eyes roll from the TV to me and he shrugs, "Well you're not anymore," and continues watching the TV.

My jaw drops, how rude can you get?

"What! You have no right to just change the station like that,"

He glares at me now, "Since when? Since you came around?," he sniggers, "I do what I want when I want so shut up,".

"Shut up? You don't even know me and yet you have the nerve to say that? That's just low,"

I freeze when he jumps up from the armchair he was sitting in and starts shaking violently, glaring down at me, "You think I have to fucking know you?," he hisses, "You think I'm fucking low, do you? I-,"

"PAUL! Get out, Paul come on," the guy that goes by the name Jared says as he shoves Paul out of the room, Paul still shaking violently.

I sat there frozen, just staring at the door Paul was shoved out of.

What was that? Is he crazy or something because that was not normal. He was rude and aggressive and right now he disgusts me and scares me a little.

I suddenly feel sick and cannot finish my slice of cake. I get up and bring the plate into the kitchen and Emily watches me nervously.

"Emily I'm not feeling too good, I'm going to bed, sorry about not finishing the cake," I say apologetically.

"No its okay Fay, sorry about Paul, he's a little… out of control," she says and gives me a hug, "Jacob said he'd take you to school tomorrow and show you around, goodnight,".

"Thanks, goodnight," I say and trudge off up the stairs just as Sam is coming down, looking like he just got out of bed. Come to think of it I hadn't seen him since earlier.

"Goodnight Fay," he says lazily.

"Night," I say and walk off into my bedroom, closing the door quietly behind me.

I tell myself I'm okay, that today was fine and the incident with Paul was nothing but once I'm dressed in my pajamas and crawl into bed, I realize I'm not.

I let the tears fall silently down my cheeks and hold in the sobs that force to escape.

I wish that Paul hadn't upset me like this, everything seemed to be going just fine until he arrived. I bet he was the one that had made that loud noise in the kitchen and that's why he stormed into the living room.

I know that I shouldn't let people like Paul bother me that much but when you're away from home, you feel lonely and home sick and even though earlier on I wasn't even thinking of home, right now it was all I could think about and I wanted to be there with my family and friends, safe.

Just the thought of my family and friends soothed me until I fell asleep.

When my alarm went off in the morning I had no idea why until school came rushing into my mind and then the realization that I was in the Uley household just made me want to pack my things and leave.

No I don't have anything against Sam and Emily but I'm feeling homesick right now.

I quickly clean myself up in the bathroom and get dressed.

I hear the honk of a horn outside and assume its Jacob.

I grab the lunch Emily made for me left on the kitchen counter and run out to Jacob.

"Hi," I say as I climb into the passenger seat and shut the door.

He smiles brightly, "Hey, Fay right?,".

"Yeah Fay Uley," I answer as he starts down the road.

He grins, "Well Fay are you ready to start at the luxurious La Push High?," he jokes.

I laugh, "Yeah, do we eat with golden knives and forks in the cafeteria?,".

He chuckles, "Why of course,".

Me and Jake mess around for a while until I ask him a question I shouldn't have.

"So are any of the guys in my classes?,"

He nods, "Yep, Jared and Paul,".

The smile I had when I was laughing with Jake disappeared and I suddenly didn't feel like going to school that day.

Paul as a classmate? No I couldn't do it, I couldn't face him again but I had a funny feeling I had to since Jacob pulled up outside this building that I assumed was La Push High.

This was going to be a long day.

A/N: Well how was it? I hope you liked it and please review to let me know.