Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Warnings: AU, shonen-ai, and people in my town call it mental abuse…
Summary: He keeps redoing it, and repeating it… But one day it will all just fall down, and he won't be able to pick himself back up…
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Falling Apart
Some people like to say that life's easier when you're dating someone. I, personally, beg to differ. Maybe my case is just different? I dunno, but despite what anyone chooses to say, dating seems to make my life harder.
See, there's this guy-Riku-and I'm pretty much madly in love with him. He can always make me smile (not like I'm not always smiling anyway), and half the time I'm pretty sure he loves me back. The other half? Well… I'm not really…
See, we've been dating for about a month. That's normally how it goes for us. We'll go out for a month, he'll break up with me. I'll start flirting with other guys (and girls), he'll catch wind of it, we'll go back out. Did I mention that we've been dating on-and-off for about a year and a half now? No? Well, now I have. Like I said, half the time I'm sure he loves me. The other half I think he loves Axel.
Now, Axel's not your ordinary boy. He loves fire, is completely ignorant to the fact that Roxas likes him, and is so hooked on Zexion that it's almost unreal. Okay, so I guess that's pretty normal for a boy… Anyways, he's a huge flirt. He's always flirting with everyone, Riku and I included. Riku flirts back. I don't. Axel just eggs Riku's flirting on, too. Some best friend. Oh, I didn't mention that, either? Well, now you know.
Kairi (Axel's sister) and Sora (Roxas' brother) are my other best friends. Roxas is included in there, but he hasn't really been hanging around much for the past few weeks (that stupid, bi-sexual little chipmunk). He's also totally oblivious to the fact that Naminé (my sisteris totally in love with him. Anyways, Kairi keeps telling me that Riku'll come around. Roxas said that I "need to dump his two-timing ass!" Sora, oddly enough, agreed with his twin, but put in a few other choice words (I never would've that he had it in him if I hadn't heard it myself).
So, since half the time Riku seems to be flirting with Axel, I'm always worried about him leaving me when we're dating. I mean… I know he's bad for me. Everyone tells me that he's a bad person. All the guys keep telling me that one day he's going to break up with me, and he just won't come back. Kairi, as I've stated, thinks he'll come around eventually. Naminé, my precious sister (my life), says that she'll support me in whatever I do, as long as I'm happy. I just don't know…
It's like, today I'm happy, but tomorrow I'll be upset with him. I'm having mood swings (like a girl). I'm slowly falling apart…and I'm doing nothing about it.
I guess I'll just keep falling down every time he leaves. I'll let him help me up when he comes back. I'll keep repeating the process for as long as my body (mindsoulcan take it. And, maybe somewhere along the way, someone will come around and help me pick up the pieces. Until then…I'm happy to let Riku break me.
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So, I sort of got caught up with writing this story instead of doing my Pre-Calc work… And I'm not sure how well it makes sense… But this is what you're getting. :) I hope you like it!
Review, and boost my ego.
-Miss ''Rissa