No Goodbyes

Chapter 1

5 years ago…

'What did you just say?' Abi said to Dexter with fear in her voice.

'Um…it's nothing cuz, I didn't even mean it…Just ignore me yeah?' Dexter spoke, not even believing himself.

'Dex, I know when you're lying, tell me the truth!' Abi shouted at him furiously.

Dexter kept quiet, not willing to give away any more than he already had.

'Fine, if you won't tell me, I'm going to find Jay' Abi stood up marching out of the caff, still feeling slightly queasy about what she had just heard.

'Abs no, wait!' But she had already gone…What had he done?

Abi walked into the Arches, trying to keep her cool but Jay could sense something was wrong.

'Abs? What's wrong babe?' He asked her curiosity in his voice.

'Who was it?' Abi asked him not being able to hold her frustration any longer.

'Abi? Who was what? You're freaking me out now, are you alright?' Jay spoke softly with a hint of worry in his voice.

'The cow you cheated on me with!' Abi finally snapped at him.

Jay looked shocked; he wasn't sure what to say. 'W-what did Lola say?' Jay spoke thinking that it must if been Lola who told her, although that was all that he could get out, he wished he didn't bother.

'LOLA?' Abi screamed louder than she had first though. 'Lola knew? Or was she the bitch you slept with!? You've always had a thing for her haven't you!' She screamed abruptly.

Jay looked at her in awe, he had never heard her speak like this before 'No no, it wasn't Lola' He didn't know what to do he loved Abi, was he going to lose her for good this time? 'Abi I love you more than anything, please, please I am so sorry, I love you!'

'I don't want to know if you love me! I want to know who it was!' She stated being cold with him.

He looked down at the ground, he didn't want to do this, but he had to. He back looked in to her eyes. 'Kitty'. Jay spoke regrettably. 'The barmaid, from the holiday. But Abs it didn't mean anything, I was drunk…' He was stopped by Abi.

'Drunk? You're using my sisters' excuse, well do you know what Jay, it doesn't work.' She snapped at him tears forming in her eyes.

'Please don't cry, I never wanted to hurt you, I was upset, we had fallen out, I thought we were over!' He spoke, reeling of a list of excuses.

'Well you moved on pretty fast!' She snapped back. 'Do you know what's more hurtful about this? The three people who I thought I could trust the most, my best friend, my cousin and worst of all, my cheating boyfriend, have all been lying to me for months! This happened in August Jay, August, its March! That's 7 months! Do you know how much that hurts, no you don't because I have never ever cheated on you! So why did you feel the need to go sleep with a slag of a barmaid!' Abi ranted as she finally stopped to breathe, tears streaming down her cheeks.

The guilt was draped over Jay's face. 'I-I'm sorry Abi, I never meant to hurt you, it just happened.' He began to get angry. 'Don't forget you walked away from me remember' He said sounding a way too harsh than he had first thought.

'Oh I'm sorry that I walked away from you! I know why don't you go shag a barmaid, make you feel a bit better!' She snapped charging out of the Arches heading toward her house. He ran after her.

'No Abs I didn't mean that, please' He pleaded with her before grabbing her shoulder softly in an attempt to make her face him.

'NO, do not touch me; you do not get to do that anymore! 'She spoke angrily before breaking down and slouching on to the steps of her house. 'I thought you loved me' She said softly as he crouched down beside her. 'Me and you we were special, different, we understood each other, but you've gone and ruined it, ruined us, you've ruined me. That's why I can't do this anymore, I can't be with you Jay, and I've forgiven for a lot of things even for perverting the course of justice for go sake! But you know that I, we can't be like my Mum and Dad, I can't take you back, no matter how much I love or loved you, you've still broken my heart and its kills me so badly to say the Jay but…' She stood up and headed towards her door choking back the tears as she looked at him at the bottom of the steps his face stained with tears 'It's over' she said bluntly before heading swiftly in to the house, quick to not hear another word from him. She tried to wipe away the tears but they wouldn't stop, she headed upstairs, got out her suitcase and began to pack, he'd hurt her too bad this time, she couldn't stay any longer, Walford had too many bad memories.

Jay decided it was best if he just let her sleep on it, think about them and think about him, he knew that they both love each other, he believed she wouldn't be angry for long, she never was, she was just stubborn, and of course she was upset, he knew that he had broken her heart, he had done the worse thing a he could do, but he believed that he was the one who would be able to fix it. He thought he could make things better by declaring his love for her tomorrow, and then maybe she would forgive day by day, like he had before…

They next day Jay ran up the steps, a bouquet of flowers in hand and hair slicked back, he knocked on the door and Lauren answered.

'Hi, umm, is Abi there?' He asked her curiously.

She looked at him sympathetically, but then she remembered what he had done to her little sister. 'She told me to give you this' she said sharply with a hint of anger in her voice. Lauren handed him a small note, he looked at her confused then snatched it from her hand.

'Thanks' He said confused as she slammed the door in his face, he sat on steps and opened the small note.

Jay

I meant what I said last night, it's not that I don't love you; it's that I can't, not anymore. I've gone away, don't try and contact me, it's over. For good.

Abi

Jay stared at the letter, bewildered, what did she mean by ''gone away'', she couldn't of gone forever, surely. Maybe if he begged harder last night she wouldn't of ''gone away'', he loved her she knew that, maybe this was more serious than Jay had initially thought…

A/N:- Hello readers, this is the first chapter of my first story, I hope you all enjoyed it! I would just like to thank Dramaprincess96 for helping me with his story and actually giving me the courage to write it, thank you!J

So what do you thinks is going to happen next? And yes if you are wondering I changed the fact that Jay kissed Kitty to him sleeping with her and its set in March 2014. If you have any questions about the story or if I've done anything wrong, please message me and don't forget to review, Thank you!